Unthinkable You did the unthinkable, but was it, It wasn’t unthinkable if you thought it, You made a decision to shatter our worlds To make every aspect of my life worse They tell me I’ll heal, but the truth is I won’t. A part of me died with you, everyone knows. So I grieve for you, the decision you made, the loss of our home that you threw way. The loss of who I once was before this, And I hate this selfish act that you believed selfless. I look for you in the rear view mirror To ask you questions as you look to your sister. I look for you everywhere I go, because you were always there. Which means my grief is just as heavy everywhere. It’ll be eight months since I found you in your room Staring into nothingness in shock that there was nothing I could do. Screaming and crying, in shock and denial equally I wished and prayed that I’d wake up from this horrific dream I didn’t wake up, and no answers were ever revealed All of us wondering when and why this solution appealed Leaving those who survived on the wake of your earth shattering decision To try and pick up the pieces with much indecision The aftermath of your choices echo through our lives Each of us now have all we can do to desperately try and survive Forever we will be changed by your actions. Lost, broken, incomplete and in desperate need of compassion. Just like you must have been feeling I wish with all my heart you would have turned to us for healing. https://www.instagram.com/p/B6_JcPqloqx/?igshid=1r9lddmjzx86d
