where did i go¿

wanting and needing to be loved, touched, talked to and treated with respect, the way 'i thought it was for decades of my life', dying alone with someone who doesn't want me in his life, yet he's still here and won't leave, it's gonna be under his terms and timing, excruciating pain in my entire body's driving me to the point of no return, insane thoughts i can't say out loud, no one cares to hear my words, take a pen to paper and no one wants to read my words, when someone took the time to read them, they don't know my intention, my words don't make an impression, i'm told my writings make people angry, my words on paper are thrown in the trash by them, i write what's true and honest, but most people don't do honest... *some poems written by me, have been published, a lifetime ago*

[ladysirelle]

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-this small word has power to changes lives when placed or said in a sentence...

~LadySirelle ||only|| (sgm)

[ladysirelle]

-time doesn't exist, clocks do...

-this is what i've always thought, tried to tell others, but they don't have time to listen...

[ladysirelle]

-me neither...

[ladysirelle]

-if i could walk it might help, just kill me...

[imtakingafuckingbreak-deactivat]

unlearn racism and white supremacy without expecting some kind of pat on the back for believing in basic human rights 

[ladysirelle]

-seriously...

[flowerytale]

Francis Scott Fitzgerald ― Tender is the Night

[ladysirelle]

-i don't like being reminded every day...

[ladysirelle]

-seriously...

[ladysirelle]

-i speak too softly, no one cares enough to hear with the intent of listening to understand, why bother talking at all...

[ladysirelle]

-this... feeling not found... none...

[ladysirelle]

-not crazy about the wording, that aside, this multiplied by five, that's my life... to the ones here, thanks for the help, care, respect and love that you didn't give... what's the point in being alive this way, and it gets worse every day...

[ladysirelle]

-every day of my life, i try, i'm tired of trying

[ladysirelle]

-the mind doesn't always forget, it depends on how much damage has been done...

[ladysirelle]

-i feel pain, mine with everyone else's...

[ladysirelle]

-tired of trying to live...

[ladysirelle]

-always, if there's any sleep to be had...

[extramadness]

“Life went on without you. Of course, it did. Of course, it does. It was just an ending, not the end.”

— Lang Leav (via quotemadness)

[ladysirelle]

-the end is closer, and with no love... 💔

[extramadness]

[ladysirelle]

-not, you've broken this one too many times...