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Cly’S ENIGMAS: The Voices at Room 533 September 8, 2015 at 2:05pm
Mr. Saimada’s screechy voice rang loudly throughout the navy-green flooded room of 533. Half of the 3rd year Criminology Class intently listened and jotted down to his boredom-inducing discussion on the Philippine Economy while others wore awed faces that Friday morning. It was still 11:14 and the consecutively smooth howling has captured the attention of the room, both of its students and its irritated teacher.
“Kinsa ron?” Mr. Saimada asked.
Everyone eyed the big-bellied boys at the back where the serene voices seem to originate. The young men stared back to the front looking as innocent as a criminology student deems to look. Minutes of deafening silence passed and the ever-so popular “criminology sense of humor” kicked in.
Students started to mock the unexplainable phenomenon as they mimic each high-pitch note. Not everyone got the jokes. There were giggles and whispered invectives mixing with the heavy atmosphere of the room.
The girls sitting at the front row draw closer to each other with every gush of wind. Kate sharply eyed the boys at the back.
“Dili sila, Chae.” Cindy whispered. Kate faced her with an irritated look.
Cindy didn’t mind. She knows that Kate is afraid, like most of them. She needs to act and feel annoyed or she’ll be the first to run through the huge, dark brown door. Cindy felt the obligation to let Kate know what she knew.
“Dili man guro sila ang naghilakhilak, Kate. Nagsige na unta na’g pangatawa ang mga labad kung mutalikod si Sir, di’ ba? Pero tan-awa, bulldog gihapon kaayo, ay.” Cindy emphasized.
Kate stared at the board. She didn’t need to look back at the boys to prove the reliability of Cindy’s observation.
“Kadungug naka anang Clara?” Cindy finally asked.
Kate looked at Cindy. Which BICUlite would not know the Maiden at the Winter Floor? Even those who have not enrolled at Bogo Intercontinental University are too familiar with the name. Her story has been passed from generation to generation, to relatives, to classmates, to friends –and Kate is about to take part of this tradition.
“Kato laging working nga ninglayat?” Kate blurted out.
“Working student di ay na siya?” Cindy asked in an irritated tone.
Kate answered back, “Working student man daw na si Clara, Wins. Namiga ug sayo ang bayot, aw ‘di ninghubag! Karon, ka’baw ka aning ikal nga may lang kung ang salad init pa, wa’na nagpakita kang inday Clara. Sa kauwaw or kahiubus, aw nagdarna!”
Mr. Saimada stood as awkwardly upright as his skinny body frame opt him to as he discreetly said, “Class,.. hilomi.”
And they did what was told, even the whimpers resuscitating throughout the room took heed. He continued his discussion as his eyes pierced each listener, as if telling them to shut the hell up or face the unbearable consequences he might be able to think of later. Then the instructor turned his back, convinced that he had made his point. But just as he finished writing the word “Colonization” on the board, a gush of wind angrily blew. The eraser fell with a loud thud on the floor and papers started flying around. Window panes stared vibrating like thunder and a chilling howl broke the silence once again. It was followed by another and another, each louder than the first as the wind grew strong at Room 533.
Everyone was scared now, and cold.
“Nagpatuyang nalang ju’g pataka si Kate.” Ernest butted in with a smirk in his futile attempt to distract his peers from the unnatural condition of their class room. “Dato man gud na si Clara, day.” He said as he observed the facial expressions of his audience. They’re starting to relax. “Di’ lang to sila taga diri. Nah, ingun gani sila nga gwapa, puti, mamords. Sus, lubot pa’y imo-“
“Unya?!’ Lori asked her boyfriend in a high pitched voice, as if reminding him to watch his tone while talking about another girl.
“Di’ man gud.” Ernest decided to choose his next words carefully. “Kuan, basta nabuntis! Mahadlok daw mangatubang ang uyab, muto nagkalalis sila diri. S’yagit-s’yagit, nagtinukmuray. Nagtalikod man si Clara sa bintana, natukmuran, nahulog.”
“Ingon pa, gitukmod kuno’g tuyo?” Lori felt the urge to contribute. “Mao daw, bae, nga di’ mahimutang kay gipatay aron dili nalang panagutan ang baby.”
The howls were unforced and almost relaxing to the ears. Like listening to a soloist at church singing the Magnificat at dawn, the sound was beautiful.
“Pero ngano kaha nga magparamdam na s’ya this time of the year jud? Daghan baya’ng kabantay ana. Abi nako kay working s’ya. Mura ma’g weird nga magbati siya’g months before founders, mura’g naa sya’y buot ipasabot ba.”
Cindy looked at her classmates, as if looking for something from their eyes. She knows a different story, more gruesome and yet very believable. Should she say it? Should she not?
(To be continued)
A DIAMOND OF A DARKER SHADE -inspired by Black Beauty by Lana del Ray & Breaking Your Own Heart by Kelly Klarkson
Your face is damp,
Sometimes purple, sometimes matte,
Your soul shivers,
From the cold, from the cramp,
Your teeth clenched, your eyes blank,
Breaking your own heart.
You try to wake,
For the moment, for your own sake,
You try to break,
When there's nothing to hold, they have nothing to take,
No wants, no hate,
Breaking your own heart.
It's all wrong,
All the poems, all the songs,
It's all gone,
It all ends, what's done is done,
Nowhere to go, No urge to run,
Breaking your own heart.
Who will pay?
Come, save you; come stay,
Come & need you,
All the looks, all the nays,
On the corner where it lays,
Breaking your own heart.
Ang Babaye Sa Tukar -inspired by the song Spoliarium by Eraserheads
Sa Spolarium tika naka-ila,
Bangiitang Pepsi Paloma,
Naingganyo sa estorya ining kanta
Ug sa mesteryong mi-uban sa ilang katawa.
Nga ikaw maanyag gayod nga babaye,
Damo daw ang gagukod sa imong ngisi,
Apan gamay ra ang kaamgo og gasulti
Sa imong kabatan-on ug pagka-inosenti.
Samtang nalinga ka sa imong pagsayaw,
Sa pipila nga nagpahipi ug nalingaw,
Adonay nimbira nga walay pahibaw
Ug nahanaw ang tukar apan nanaghan ang taw.
Tungud ang kalibutan sa imong yugyog,
Wala ma-ilhi ang pulong nga “ikog”,
Ug sa ka walay alamag ining duyog,
Ikaw nagpadala sa talagsaong sug.
Sa lapad nga lawd, oo, didto ka,
Gitugnaw, nahadlok, nag-inusara,
Sa mga pangyamiid ug mga katawa,
Hangtod sa wa kana makaagwanta.
Naluya ka na sa tukar nga imong gisugdan,
Munang sa papel ug tinta nimo gibutang,
Gibilin ang kalibog sa atong kalibutan
Ug sa pisi nimo na kita ang gihinamhinam nga kaluwasan.
PANGUTANA
Sa edad nga singko, ako nangutana,
“Pa, nganung ‘clingy’ man kayo si Mama?
Bisan ug nana kami sa balay,
Dapat mag-uban gihapon ming duha.”
Sa edad nga sais, ako nangutana,
“Pa, nganung gastador man kaayo si Mama?
Bisan ug tarung pa atong mga gamit ug sinina,
Kada buwan, mamalit g’yud na siya.”
Sa edad nga syete, ako nangutana,
“Pa, nganong hilabtanon man kaayo si Mama?
Magisge’g pangutana kung asa ko, diin ko,
Ug ngano daw nga kadugay nako madalaga.”
Sa edad nga otso, ako nangutana,
“Pa, nganong tamaran naman kaayo si Mama?
Magsige nalang na siya’g ligid adto sa kwarto,
Hasta mag-CR, magpauban pa siya.”
Sa edad nga nuwebe, ako nangutana,
“Pa nganung ‘o.a’ naman kaayo si Mama?
Mukalit nalang ug hilak, gakos,
Magsige’g ‘I love You’ sa atoa.”
Sa edad nga deyes, ako nangutana,
“Nag-unsa ta diri sa hospital, Pa?”
Si papa nagbakho mi-atubang sa akoa,
“Siyam ka tuig, tumor, anak, tumor!
Mipahulay na imong mama.”
WALAY GINIKANAN
Katam-is gayud sa walay ginikanan,
Walay magbuot sa imong buhaton,
Kung kinsa kadtong imong mga higala,
Ug sa pipilang lugar nga buot mong adtuon.
Apan kapa-it gayud sa walay ginikanan,
Walay magbuot sa imong buhaton,
Walay mugiya sa mga desisyon,
Ug ang mga responsibilidad, ikaw rasab ang mag-angkon.
Katam-is gayod sa walay ginikanan,
Bisag asa lumpayug, walay mangita,
Hangtod makadlawnan pa ang imong laag,
Walay bali, padayun ra ang hudyaka!
Apan kapa-it gayod sa walay ginikanan,
Bisag asa lumpayug, walay mangita,
Walay mabalaka sa kalawm sa kagabhion,
Ug bisan unsa kalayo, unta, maka-uli, makuha.
Oo, katam-is gayud sa walay ginikanan,
Ang kalibutan, daw imo,
Apan kapa-it gayud sa kalibutan
Kung ang masampit, imo ra sab nga anino.
The Bestfriend
Tell me, how do you heal a man with a broken heart?
Tell me where to go,
Tell me where to start,
Cuz I don't know how
to make the pain all go away,
I just can't seem to find the right words to say.
Tell me, how do you heal a man with a broken heart?
Is it a warm smile,
Or a light pat on the back,
Cuz I don't know how
To make his smile come back and stay
There is this sadness in his every waking day
Tell me, how do you heal a man with a broken heart?
Is it cuz you're gone,
Is it cuz you're apart?
Cuz i don't know how
To explain something that's already crystal clear
That it is me who stayed, it is me who's here.
Still, Tell me how to heal a man with a broken heart
Should i just wait
Or should i let it go?
Cuz i dnt know how
To make him see, to let him know
That my heart is breaking too, breaking slow…
L. S. S. (Last Song Syndrome)
Sing to me the words of your sweetest goodbye,
painfully smooth with every heavy sigh,
when the truth becomes more painful than any lie,
Who is there left to blame but I? Only I.
Hum the melodious glory of my defeat,
Epic as the star-crossed romance of our first meet,
When destiny, herself, finally favored the weak,
Who shall deny me of that which most can only seek?
And too ironic is how our song came to be,
How awkward notes intertwine with each strong key,
How the treacherous beat compliments the ever sweet symphony,
And how you shall leave me now with this perfectly unfortunate melody.
Confessions of a Monster: The Humiliated Man
I shot a man, I shot him twice,
And I watch him as he fell,
With a smile on my lips,
straight through his eyes,
Till he couldn't stand,
just grasped for air.
He looked back,
I know what he saw,
A monster, this monster in me.
I saw his anger, saw this fear,
Till there was nothing left to see.
The Writer's Sanity
I live a life of music and noise,
of lies, of truth, and
everything in between.
Yes, a tale of death, of choice,
deciet, anger, I don't know, anymore,
where to begin.
But I strive, louder my voice,
I move, I write, to see if the steep mountain does
truly have a peek,
and so, on that of which
I wish to reach, I pray to find
the sanity I seek.
TOO GREAT TO BE SPOKEN
On the morn of a Saturday,
many calls to him, But will he hear?
This prayer from a mere sinful,
With closed eyes, With silent tears?
The poor sinful without a word,
Just poor bent knees, And shaking hands.
The poor sinful without a prayer, nor offerings,
Yet refuses to stand.
His knees kisses the floor, trembling,
Resembling so much as that of pain.
Still, the sobbing sinful does not move, Nor flinches.
The pain he wishes to bear.
And after hours or so,
Yes, the silent sinful, Finally lifts his head.
Tears ran down his face, Caresses his smile,
Then words were finally said.
"Thank you!", He shouted.
"Thank you for forgiving a mere sinful like me!
You are truly everything they said you are,
And I shall go now proclaiming your great eternity!"
MICHAEL
Rest, now, fragile being,
Rest from deceit and dispare,
From naive talks, insensitive hearts,
From cold nights and judgmental stares.
Rest, too, from the fear of being forgotten,
For this can never be true.
Your playfulness, your words, your smiles,
Shall guide us in everything we do.
So, rest now, fragile one,
Be at peace, no matter how long,
For a day shall come when we'll meet again
And sing aloud all of your favorite songs.
Condolence to the Quinal Family
Semester
That chaotic boom in every class,
The unending crowd every floor has.
Brace yourselves, another semester is at hand,
Another great year is about to land.
Choking hugs like there's no tomorrow,
Friends expel every taunting sorrow.
Old and new faces inside the room,
New potential groups about to bloom.
But this one person caught my eye,
A boy with this scene of perfection by the corridor-isle, He looks, I struggle for a word to say,
A boy who stole my heart away.
His smile that seems too rare to find,
Keep playing back and forth in my mind,
His eyes sparkle like that of a dreamer, see?
That look he mindlessly shares with me.
I want to tell him that I, too, feel,
Wanting to ask if this is all real.
Oh, this powerful magic that we found,
A feeling as that of a musician's first destined sound.
And, yet, I know this facade is that of our semester,
We strive, we hope, and, still, we'll leave her
And to the boy at the corridor, I say to you,
Leave me with this truth, atleast, as you fade
and start anew.