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She/they — 23 I spend most of my time thinking about Ghost <3

[lamb-0f-lucifer]

I love writing fanfiction in a cute little cafe, in a prim little outfit, with my back to the wall so that no one can see what I'm up to. I feel like a Spy

[hocuspocussham]

does anyone else have a lil mini out of body experience every time they hear papa say “I will make you my angel” or

[epitome-of-dorkness-deactivated]

Hearing thousands of people at the Nashville ritual sing Darkness At The Heart Of My Love healed me in more ways than I think anyone will ever understand. The last several months I was dealing with this overwhelming feeling of loneliness and it was fucking with my mental health so bad, but in that moment, as Papa and the fans were singing I realized I wasn’t alone. This was such a surreal experience that I’ll never forget and I had a mental breakdown over it.

[lamb-0f-lucifer]

I love the atmosphere Ghost creates so so much. Also: the “I’m with you always” sung live had me sobbing—thank Satan for setting spray

[lamb-0f-lucifer]

Papa saying "I hope you know, and embrace, that the future is a foreign land" at the Nashville ritual appealed directly to autistic, existentially anxious heart.

That song is such a comfort. Tears were fully running down my cheeks when they performed it live

[lamb-0f-lucifer]

in the middle of the night (ever since my ritual) it feeds (missing Papa Perpetua)

[imperabug]

[lamb-0f-lucifer]

out-of-order Nashville ritual recap <3

During Mary on a Cross, Vanessa came over to the railing where I was dancing and pressed a black pick into my palm like communion. She quite literally cupped my hand. I could barely believe it was really happening.

Papa Perpetua said “you like that baby?” to the audience, who of course cheered. (in answer to his question: yes, I do like that).

The crowd near me was really enthusiastic for the most part: dancing, jumping, singing, fists in the air. Near the end, Papa thanked Nashville for such love and hospitality shown.

He also gave the city a shout-out about it being the place some songs were actually recorded!

Papa said “nether regions.”

ELIZABETH LIVE.

MAJESTY LIVE!!!! I was really hoping they would play this again, since the mic wasn't working last night, and they DID. aaaa I can die happy.

The second Monstrance Clock finished, Papa said “we’re done!” and “thanks!”

He blew kisses after Kiss the Go-Goat, as usual. Mostly good ones, with one little silly half-assed one which made people laugh.

Before starting the encore, he said "do you like oldies?" and "it’s kind of a rock song, if you like rock songs." Which, of course, everyone did in fact like.

At one point someone threw a black bra onstage and Papa responded by saying “this is how families extend.” And then threw it back. 

His voice was utterly remarkable for the entire show. I could list every song as a highlight, truly.

Lachryma’s high notes were incredible. Oh my god. So good live, it gave me chills.

[cardi-c]

 all those dads never gave you the things that you should've had

[lamb-0f-lucifer]

Out-of-order Louisville ritual recap <3

It was remarkably hot, both inside and outside, but everyone I talked to was so kind and there was such a sense of camaraderie. Papa also commented on the heat multiple times and checked in to see if we were okay.

During Dance Macabre, Papa extended a hand right to where I was standing (left side rail, above the pit but still very close to the stage) and held it there for a moment with intense eye contact. I mirrored his gesture, and literally jumped for joy once he broke eye contact.

so much Ghoul antics!!!! There was the classic crowd cheering battle, where different sides are coaxed to out-cheer the other. Cirrus was doing little heart hands to the crowd!

The mic didn't work during Majesty, but the ghouls were absolutely incredible and some of the crowd was still singing. Afterwards, he did a lil speech about how he was "singing into the void", but the "worst was over now."

I cried during The Future is a Foreign Land, as always. Same with Cirice.

Lots of thrusts, fingering the mic stand, and general debauchery. He even made a joke about giving people physical exams in the parking lot, but that it would take too long, so we'd have to settle for a kiss instead. (This was to kick off Kiss the Go-Goat).

aaaaa the growls. Both in Faith and Mummy Dust.

THEY PLAYED STAND BY HIM. i lost my mind when it started.

I met so many lovely people, exchanged so many bracelets, and even took pictures with some other cosplayers. I was dressed as a Sister of Sin in full makeup!

[lamb-0f-lucifer]

Papa Perpetua saying something akin to that he “never really got to grow up” or “never really grew up” at the Louisville ritual struck me right in the heart.

am I projecting because I myself experience age regression? Yeah absolutely. But ugh this band is such a comfort. I love Ghost

[lamb-0f-lucifer]

Ghost’s discography forces me to confront my existential anxiety while giving a warm embrace, saying that it’s going to be okay

[lamb-0f-lucifer]

post-ritual appreciation <3

i am so grateful for the environment cultivated by Ghost fans. I am autistic and struggle with crowds, conversing with strangers, lines, and generally being in public, honestly.

but Ghost is one of my special interests, and so I look forward to rituals despite the attributes that would make it, on the surface, a difficult setting for me. Because it’s actually not difficult!!! It’s a special kind of collective joy that I usually don’t get to experience!

Every single person I met last night at my ritual was so kind, enthusiastic, and ready to engage around a love of Ghost. Even when I was overstimulated by road noise + verbal instructions being given, people were explaining to those that hadn’t heard. When our queue was delayed, cold waters were passed around. Despite my anxiety around unknown humans, I approached many people to offer bracelets and extra mummy dust I’d collected.

i feel so lucky to get to have this space—both to see the band that changed my life, and to meet others who share a similar affection :)

[lamb-0f-lucifer]

Last night’s ritual in Atlanta was sublime. I truly feel like my soul went through the washing machine 💜😭

thank you to everyone I chatted with in line and in the pit, and to everyone who gave me a bracelet—you all truly made my night :)

[cartoonscientist]

psa: not every weird esoteric thing a schizophrenic person does is creepy, threatening, or indicative of a mental downspiral. sometimes we’re just stimming or engaging in our interests and enjoying ourselves like any other neurodivergent person! sometimes it involves stuff that can look spooky, like making little talismans or wandering around in the dark or taking strange-looking notes, but unless we’re visibly distressed we’re probably just having fun!

[lamb-0f-lucifer]

the "WATCH" in Marks of the Evil One yanks my soul from my body like an exorcism

[lamb-0f-lucifer]

Special shoutout to a niche category of Ghost songs: the ones I violently stim/jump around to for meltdown prevention and/or excitement.

Featuring, but not limited to: Con Clavi Con Dio, Rats, Faith, and De Profundis Borealis.

[sherwoodknights]

Because the most vital part of sibling rivalry is taking constant potshots at their interests