BunBeis Diary

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Alloooo!! Im BunBei

Neurodivergent plant and furball mom who's just trying make it in life <3

I love to write so I made this profile to speak my deepest thoughts and poems.

DO NOT STEAL MY WORK!! YOU WILL BE REPORTED AND BANNED IF YOU DO!!!!!!!

About me:

Earthly level: 30oddsumfin

Favorite color: Pastels and Periwinkle though I love black and shades of white as well

Hobbies: Photography, Sketching, and ofc Writing. Taking care of plants and streaming games as well.

Favorite food: It varies due to hyperfixations but I do seem to like vegan "chicken" salad with honey mustard dressing the most.

Favorite show: Bobs Burgers and Daria...and Spongebob. Also love Invader Zim but find it a little hard to watch due to recent events in my life.

Ask me anything else you wanna know <3

Rules:

All are welcome here!! It doesnt matter the blog content to me, were all here just for good writting and sharing deep thoughts.

Im not here to judge but here to love <3

You may submit or ask anon or not with your own writings but please don't go overboard. I have no problem with erotic friend fiction but let's keep it somewhat PG-13.

Please do not send spam or gofundme asks. You will be blocked!!

TW: I do allow ED, self harm, and trauma dumping asks. That being said, I do NOT encourage EDs and self harming but I do understand such subjects as I've gone through the same and strongly encourage getting help with all above.

I really hope you enjoy it here in my little quiet corner of Tumblr! <3

Love,

BunBei

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Vincent-Nova

I hold by a thread

The Starlight

Surrounding me

The beauty

Of the

Twinking lights How I long to touch You...

The pain

It brings

To finally

Let go

Letting the darkness

Of the deep of space

Take over

I'm coming

My love

My Nova

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The moon and I

I think the times I feel the calmest

is when the world is asleep...

me..

just sitting on the windowsill

..talking to the moon...

Good night world...

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People don't like me when I really open up to them..

So I'm often shut down tight

I've had too many leave me for the smallest of reasons..

It just wasn't fair

But there wasn't much I could do

I spent half my childhood being lonely

Teased and bullied, even by my own mother

I became very submissive

And that how they got me

How they abused me

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The Blurred Lines

"How did you know he was the one?"

She asked me

"Because..."

He's the one I could see...

The only thing I can see

walking down the aisle

Fuck all

The white dress

The people smiling

Some wiping the tears away

Others staring in awe

The aura of

Beauty

Grace

Soul binding

Pure Love

It was only him I could see

And of course we danced

Just as I done with one before...

"What about the one before?"

"It's complicated..."

Of course I had wondered about it...

But I could never fully see it

As much as I wanted

As much as I tried

Of course we danced...

But it was only in passing

It wasn't the same

Of course I loved him

I had always loved him

But it was a different love

The kind where

You care immensely

Where you can lay with them for hours

But not need to be with them

Romantically

Words unspoken

But you know

Such was the lust for each other

It blurred the line between friendship and what we were

And though I dance with him alone

For so long...

Such beauty it was

Such bliss I felt

The dress

It wasn't white

It never was

And thats how

I know we could never be

Reality

He just isn't the one

For me

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US

"You never look at my pictures"

The words linger between

Us

When in reality I always do.

I always have

I know you do the same to mine

I know that because

I still see you look at me

Eyes so bright

So beutiful

Me

The only thing you see.

And when I see you

The whole world fades

I can't hear anything but your voice

The one I've come to love

The longing and lingering feelings that stay long after we part ways..

Nights staying up so long...

Wishing for thing that could never happen

Because when we look

The only thing we can see

Is us...

The ones in love...

The ones who can never be...

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I forgot to say hello my beautiful bunni x

Hello my absolutely lovely Mothman!! I hope all is well with you <3 I did get your other ask my dear sweet fluttering bug, but it was sadly a little graphic for this blog...so Ill be saving it in my inbox for later <3 <3 I hope you're having a wonderfully beautiful nigh my nocturnal love and hope to hear from you again soon. Love, Bunni

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Too little too late

Sometimes I lay there at night...

Thinking about what would happen if I

really did die

Would they notice

would they care?

Would they even cry

Maybe there would be a

Dedication page

In honor of my pathetic life

Probably for a week or two

Before it was forgotten

Just like me...

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Life Friendship Love Lost

I look over at the drivers seat

The one you sat in

And then I remember...

My heart stops

My blood so cold

I remember

You

Smiling, you're eyes bright

That day 

We were so excited

I remember

You

So hyper, ready

How pretty

You told me 

I was

My heart stops..

The tears form..

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The price of knowing

I didnt leave because

I wanted to

I left out of necessity

For years I made excuses

Made sure the family

Stayed together

Even at the cost

Of my own sanity

It was out of necessity

But I couldnt

do it anymore

I loved him

I loved our home

As shitty as it is

Loved his family

But I had to decide

Would it be this

Or what was best for us

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The Worlds Between Us

I listened to a song this morning

It reminded me of him

How...he acts...so tough

On the outside...

No one, not even me

Knows what's on the in

But the lyrics followed

His life so closely

It was almost parallel

He's so stone cold

But it doesn't match his eyes

He won't shed a tear

So I'll do it for him...

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Hello my beautiful bunni

I look forward to seeing your creative side all while I lurk in the shadows of this tumblr corner.

Yours truly mothman x

Hello my sweet crepuscular Lepidoptera Thank you for supporting me and I hope you enjoy the creative side of me and I hope to read some creative thought from you as well <3

I hope life is going well in the shadows my lurking cryptid

With love,

Bunni