holy holy holy

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Vent blog for @simonbishop !! warnings for pedophilia mentions, heavy talk of domestic and sexual abuse, religious trauma, delusions, discussions of self harm and unhealthy coping mechanisms

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if someones going to speak to me so rudely i’d rather not speak them at all.

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If you do something stupid on purpose then I do not feel sorry for you!

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this part is always so nervewracking

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mina will be back soon.

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foolish of me. i need to meet new people.

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feels like right shit don’t it.

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i still think it’s strange how he died cause they found him all alone you know. it was some sort of set up or something. i didn’t even get to see him. i bet he looked like shit.

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he did a lot of bad things. he did a lot of things that i can’t forgive him for. i don’t love him still but how can i hate him properly now that he’s bloody dead?

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it just SUCKS that it can’t be fun again. yesterday was like a little taste kf before and i missed it. it’s a shame they either had to be drunk or we’re just lying to spare my feelings.

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i could just block them and make it easy for the both of us but I still have some sort of hope… i don’t even know for what. we can’t be together, i’m not their princess and no matter how i felt or feel i also love mina and i’ve got to focus on that. i should delete those messages.

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see simon all you’ve got to do is wait i was about to moan and fuss and cause a scene but there was no need though i will miss him dearly

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ohhhghhhh

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this is making me terribly sad for some reason.

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i think a lot about how roger died and i wonder if he was alone but they don’t need to know about that. i miss him sometimes. i wish i’d gotten to tell him how well off i am without him.

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ummm is he okay? should i check? somebody should check……