Chaos Land

Welcome to my random thoughts, maybe some people will enjoy my rants

[lambsandchaos]

Breaking news, your local lesbian (me) is screaming into the void again and hoping something blinks back

[lambsandchaos]

Posting all my pre written poems once a day until I get my crap together and start writing again.

[lambsandchaos]

“collapsed”

I am so

disgustingly sick

with grief

in the most primal way.

I have lost my daughter

and I would like to lay down until I rot.

(Older and shorter poem of mine, straight to the point, written three days after her death (girl who was basically my adopted daughter), it’s been almost 8 months and I’m still not sure how I’m meant to live my life without her)

[scullayann]

[lambsandchaos]

Im not sure how long a weighted blanket and a heating pad are supposed to substitute for human care and touch. Scalding hot baths are great too, especially considering my joints dismantle themselves for fun, ow ow ow ow.

[lambsandchaos]

“My sweet girl, Olive”

How simple a life

That a house cat

must have.

I envy her place,

For my own head

It feels too full.

I come home from school, exhausted.

She has not left, the pool of sunlight,

Softly nestled, there in my bed.

Her beautiful,

Orange and grey stripes,

Softly blending in my blankets.

She lay in my lap,

As I contemplate math.

Gently swatting

my swaying ink stick.

[lambsandchaos]

Anybody ever feel like they need something sapphic to happen to you asap or you will spontaneously combust

[adoredaqua]

manifesting for everyone to have a very lesbian summer

[lambsandchaos]

Do I wait until funny thoughts come to mind or do I start posting devastating poetry, decisions to be made.