gonna word vomit because no one is on here anymore but i need to get this out
i'm still trying to decide if i want to write a lot about this, or like... two sentences.
i'll write the few sentences now, and see if i feel like elaborating after.
my real father, who was an alcoholic up until around 20 years ago or so... has been offered a plea deal from the state that he lives in for a 40 year prison sentence for something he did (or... started doing?) 7 years after he got sober.
and i think i would rather him be an alcoholic than what he ended up becoming.
okay, reading those sentences a few times, i'm going to elaborate a little more.
trigger warning because.. yeah. itās triggering. on a lot of levels.Ā
my little sister (teenager), in order to not be held hostage by my father's custody [because he's a selfish asshole and won't talk to her but won't give custody up so that her current step father can legally adopt her] decided to report his... lifestyle to police.
his.. lifestyle has been... child pornography. of me, when i was younger. of my little sister, starting when she was around 4. and actual sexual assault of her starting at that age as well.
i don't care about me. but i will say my little sister is still a teenager, and she has had to now go into detail repeatedly to many people about what her own father did to her.. she said she had to go get.. pictures taken of the affected areas so that they could see if there was scarring... and when the police finally got to him, investigated more about what he's been doing over the years, they found enough to offer a PLEA DEAL of FORTY YEARS IN PRISON.
All because she wanted my dad to let her go. he hasnāt called her in almost 8 years, and part of his custody deal was she could move states away but she HAD to call him every holiday and his birthday, etc. he didnāt answer, and never called back. and when she asked him to give up custody, he said the only way he would is to get 100% of his child support that heās paid over the years paid back to him all in one lump sum. WHAT. A. SHITBAG.
i'm sick over the fact that i share blood with this man. i'm sick that he's done this to her, and that she's had to relive it (and will have to again because.. he TURNED DOWN THE DEAL so now we have to go to trial). i'm... weirdly sick that he doesn't even have alcohol to use as an excuse for his actions because he has been sober for so long, and had (maybe?) started doing this afterward. fuck. maybe he did it before.
anyway. i'm not around here much anymore. but i just needed to share this. i've shared with some close friends, and i feel like i scare them away with shit like this. so here, internet strangers. you get to learn about my shitbag father. my poor sister having to go to trial over this (and i guess me too, but i honestly cannot fathom being her right now).
there, i dunno. end of post.
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