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mdni

[b6rntosdiee]

if you look like any of them hmu asap

[iluvemobitches]

using your sweet boyfriend as your little personal dildo :(

You straddle Steve's hips, your thighs clamping down on either side of him as you sink onto his cock with a deliberate slowness that makes his breath hitch. He's already rock hard, thick length throbbing inside your slick pussy, but you don't give him the friction he craves. Instead, you hold still, feeling every inch of him stretch you, your walls fluttering around his girth while you savor the control. Steve's hands grip your hips, fingers digging in just enough to show his desperation, but you bat them away with a smirk.

"Not yet, baby," you murmur, leaning forward to brace your palms on his chest, your breasts brushing against his skin. His eyes lock on them, pupils blown wide with lust, but you lift your hips slightly, pulling off him almost to the tip before sliding back down in a torturously shallow grind. He groans, head falling back against the pillow, that perfect jaw clenching as he fights the urge to thrust up into you.

"Fuck, please," Steve begs, voice rough and needy, his cock twitching deep inside you. You ignore the plea, rolling your hips in a lazy circle that presses his head against your cervix, sending sparks of pleasure up your spine. This is your show—your sweet boyfriend reduced to a living toy, his body yours to use however you want. You rise up again, higher this time, letting just the first few inches stay buried before dropping down hard, the slap of your ass against his thighs echoing in the room.

He gasps, abs tightening under your hands, but you lift off immediately, hovering with only the tip teasing your entrance. "You're so good for me, Steve. Just lie there and take it." Your words make him whimper, a sound so unlike his usual confident growls that it sends heat pooling in your core. You sink down fully once more, clenching your pussy around him like a vice, milking his length without moving. His hips buck involuntarily, seeking more, but you pin him down with your weight, nails scraping lightly over his nipples.

"Ah—shit, I need to move," he pants, brown eyes pleading up at you, sweat beading on his forehead. His cock pulses inside you, leaking pre-cum that mixes with your arousal, making everything slick and messy. You shake your head, starting a rhythm that's all for you—short, sharp bounces that let you grind your clit against his pubic bone on every downstroke. Pleasure builds in your belly, coiling tight as you use him, his thickness hitting just right without giving him the deep thrusts he aches for.

Steve's hands fist the sheets, knuckles white, as he watches you ride him like your personal fucktoy. "You're killing me here," he rasps, voice breaking on a moan when you pause at the bottom, rotating your hips to feel him drag against your inner walls. You lean down, capturing his lips in a messy kiss, tongue invading his mouth while you stay seated, your pussy squeezing rhythmically around his shaft. He kisses back hungrily, but you pull away first, straightening up to chase your own high.

The pace picks up, your bounces turning faster, wet sounds filling the air as you fuck yourself on his cock. Steve's breaths come in ragged bursts, his chest heaving, but he doesn't complain—just stares at you with that adoring, desperate gaze, loving every second of being at your mercy. "God, you feel incredible," he murmurs, even as frustration edges his tone. You reach down, circling your clit with your fingers, the added stimulation making you gasp and clench harder around him.

"This is what you get for being so damn sweet," you tease, voice breathy as the orgasm nears. You lift and drop, lift and drop, using his length to rub that perfect spot inside you, ignoring how his cock swells, how close he must be to the edge. His balls draw up tight against you, but you slow suddenly, grinding deep and still, denying him release. Steve whines, a low, broken sound, his hands reaching for you again only to drop back when you glare playfully.

"Please, baby, let me—" he starts, but you cut him off by slamming down hard, once, twice, your pussy fluttering wildly as you come undone. Waves of ecstasy crash over you, soaking his cock and thighs as you ride out the high, clenching and releasing around him in pulses that nearly push him over. But you don't let him follow—instead, you lift off entirely, his slick length slapping wetly against his stomach, glistening with your combined juices.

Steve groans in agony, hips jerking into empty air, his cock red and straining, tip beading with pre-cum. "Fuck, that's not fair," he complains, but there's a grin tugging at his lips, eyes dark with want. You slide down his body, hovering your dripping pussy over his face for a moment, letting him inhale your scent before you settle beside him, hand wrapping around his base in a loose grip.

"My toy doesn't get to cum until I say," you whisper, stroking him slowly, thumb swiping over the slit to spread the slickness. He bucks into your hand, moaning your name like a prayer, but you keep the pace agonizingly light, edging him closer without mercy. His body tenses, breaths shallow, and just as he teeters on the brink, you release him, watching his cock throb untouched.

"You're evil," Steve laughs breathlessly, though his voice is wrecked, chest rising and falling rapidly. You climb back on, sinking down onto him again, this time facing away so he can watch your ass bounce as you use him once more. The new angle lets him hit even deeper, and you moan loudly, hands on his knees for leverage as you fuck yourself senseless on his dick.

Dialogue spills from your lips between gasps—"Feels so good being filled like this,"—and Steve responds with filthy encouragements, even denied: "Take what you need, yeah, just like that." His hands finally get purchase on your hips, not guiding but holding on for dear life as you grind and bounce, building toward another peak. Sweat slicks both your skins, the room heavy with the scent of sex, and when your second orgasm hits, it's explosive, pussy gushing around him as you cry out.

This time, as you tremble through it, you don't pull away. Instead, you lean back against his chest, reaching up to tangle fingers in his hair while still impaled on his cock. "Cum for me now, Steve," you command softly, rolling your hips in invitation. He doesn't need more—thrusting up weakly but urgently, he spills inside you with a guttural moan, hot cum flooding your walls in thick spurts. You milk every drop, clenching around him until he's spent, both of you collapsing in a heap of limbs and satisfied sighs.

But you're not done yet. After a moment to catch your breath, you slide off, his softening cock slipping free with a wet pop, cum leaking from your pussy onto his thigh. You push him onto his back fully, straddling his face this time. "Clean me up, toy," you order, lowering yourself until his tongue darts out eagerly, lapping at the mess between your folds. Steve hums in approval, sucking gently on your clit, hands cupping your ass as he devours you like a man starved.

His efforts reignite the fire, and soon you're grinding against his mouth, using his tongue like an extension of your pleasure. "That's it, right there," you gasp, fingers tightening in his hair to hold him in place. He doesn't protest, just works you over with broad licks and firm sucks until you're coming again, flooding his mouth with your release. Steve swallows it all, moaning into your pussy as if it's the best thing he's ever tasted.

you roll off him, curling into his side. He's panting, cock twitching back to half-hardness already, but he just pulls you close, pressing a kiss to your temple. "Anytime you need your personal dildo, I'm here," he murmurs with a chuckle, voice hoarse from all the begging and praising. You smile, tracing patterns on his chest, knowing you'll take him up on that offer soon enough.

[lanasxangel]

i don’t want to settle down i want my favorite fictional character 🫩

[godlynott]

⌁ thinking about… clingy!steve & clingy!reader ꒱

-

the air smells like popcorn, asphalt, and whatever cheap cologne steve sprayed on in the car because robin told him he “reeked of family video.” the sun’s halfway down, orange and lazy, heat still clinging to everything like it doesn’t want to leave.

somewhere behind you, a radio crackles with static and an off-key song no one bothers to change. cicadas are screaming like they’ve got something to prove.

steve is mid-story. arms moving, voice loud, fully committed, acting it out like there’s a full audience instead of six exhausted teenagers and one lawn chair with a broken leg.

“—and i swear to god, dustin let go of the firework too early and it just—” he makes an explosion noise with his mouth, big and dramatic, “—shot straight into the air like it had a death wish.”

“that is not what happened,” dustin says from the ground, already defensive, hands flailing. “it slipped.”

“you slipped,” steve fires back instantly. “on account of having baby hands.”

“oh my god,” max groans. “why are we still talking about this.”

“because,” steve says, pointing at dustin, “i almost died.”

“you almost die every week,” robin says. “that’s not special.”

you don’t say anything. you just step between his knees and drop down without warning, landing sideways across his lap like it’s the most natural thing in the world. like gravity pulled you there on purpose.

steve’s sentence cuts off mid-word.

his hands catch you automatically (muscle memory) one at your hip, the other sliding to your thigh to steady you. he looks down at you, blinks once, like he’s recalibrating.

“..hey,” he says.

“hi,” you mumble, already shifting, turning until your back fits against his chest. his legs adjust instantly, spreading a little wider to make room, knees bracketing you in. you tuck your feet under the chair, shoulder relaxing into him like you’ve done this a thousand times.

because you have.

he smells warm. sunscreen and soap and something unmistakably steve.

“you good?” he asks quietly, voice dropping just for you, head dipping closer.

“mmh,” you hum. “just tired.”

robin squints at you from across the driveway. “you literally slept until noon.”

steve’s arm tightens around your waist, possessive without even trying, like his body decided before his brain could interfere. his chin drops to the top of your head, lips brushing your hair absentmindedly, not even a kiss — just contact.

“you could’ve warned me,” he murmurs. “nearly gave me a heart attack.”

“you love it,” you say, mouth curling.

he exhales a laugh straight into your scalp. “yeah. unfortunately.”

you feel it when it happens — the exact moment his body settles. shoulders dropping. chest softening behind you. the kind of comfort that sneaks up on you and then refuses to let go.

“don’t,” you warn, already smiling.

“don’t what.”

“fall asleep.”

he scoffs, like that’s ridiculous. “i’m not falling asleep.”

he says this while resting his cheek against your head, eyes visibly heavier, thumb starting slow, lazy circles against your side, tracing nothing and everything.

you tilt your head back just enough to look at him. “steve.”

“what,” he says, eyes closed.

“you’re doing it.”

“doing what.”

“the thing where you pretend you’re listening but you’re actually gone.”

“i am listening,” he argues weakly. “m'just comfy.”

“that’s not an excuse.”

“it should be.”

from somewhere nearby, lucas snorts. “he’s out in five.”

“shut up,” steve says immediately, eyes still closed. “i can stay awake.”

“prove it,” robin challenges, grinning.

steve straightens a little, like he’s gearing up for battle. his hands stay on you though. “okay. uh. what was i talking about?”

there’s a beat.

“…the firework?” you offer.

“right,” he says, relieved. “so then—”

he yawns. huge. unashamed. the kind that makes his eyes water and his jaw crack, head tipping back dramatically.

everyone groans.

“jesus christ,” robin says. “you’re embarrassing.”

“i worked a double,” he complains, blinking slowly. “and she keeps sitting on me like this.”

you elbow him lightly. “you’re the one clinging.”

as if to prove your point, his arms tighten, pulling you closer until your back is fully pressed to his chest, no space left at all.

“because you keep trying to leave,” he says. “and i don’t like that.”

something in his voice — quiet, honest, unguarded — makes your chest soften in a way you weren’t prepared for.

“you can nap at home,” you say gently. “we’re surrounded by people.”

“they’ve seen worse,” he mutters.

“have they?”

“remember when i passed out on the floor at mike’s and woke up with dustin’s blanket and a permanent kink in my neck.”

“you drooled,” robin adds.

“that was one time.”

“it soaked throoooough,” dustin says proudly.

you laugh, quiet and breathy, fingers finding the hem of steve’s shirt, fidgeting there like you always do. he doesn’t stop you. if anything, he shifts closer.

steve’s breathing evens out almost immediately.

there it is.

“you stayed up until three with the kids last night,” you murmur. “but ten minutes with me and you’re done.”

he hums, half-asleep, thumb still moving. “because i don’t have to try with you.”

your chest tightens, sharp and warm all at once.

“that’s not fair,” you whisper.

“is too,” he mumbles. “you make everything quiet.”

his nose nudges into your hair, breath warm. his hand slides from your waist to your stomach, palm flat like it belongs there. like it always has. like it always will if he has any say in it.

you should move.

you don’t.

max watches for a second, then smirks. “do we leave? or is this like a wildlife moment.”

“don’t scare him,” robin whispers. “he’s fragile.”

“i’m not fragile,” steve mutters, barely awake.

“you’re literally asleep,” you say softly.

“resting my eyes.”

“you’re snoring.”

he smiles against your head, barely there. “lies.”

you sink back into him fully now, letting his warmth surround you, legs heavy, thoughts slowing. the world narrows to the steady rise and fall of his chest, the sound of his breathing, the way his arm stays locked around you like he might drift off the planet if he lets go.

behind you, his breathing deepens. steady. calm. gone.

robin watches for a long moment, something fond and gentle slipping past her usual sarcasm. then she shakes her head. you smile to yourself, eyes finally closing.

maybe you’ll just stay a while.

enjoy!

- rory <3

[b6rntosdiee]

[lanasxangel]

me and the girls who are afraid of intimacy but read fanfics every night against the world

[lanasxangel]

having no friends in college isn’t for the weak

[harringtonsangels]

now imagine steve looking at you like this? oh i'd be folded like an omelette

LOOK AT HIS LITTLE SMILE AWWHHHHHHH

[lanasxangel]

the saddest thing about stranger things ending is that people will eventually loose interest in writing steve harrington fan fics 💔🫩

[sweetlikenonsense]

🌻 😊If i put the emoji more than once will we get more words??? 🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻

You ask and you shall receive...

“What was that?” His voice, cracked and breathless, ghosting down your spine with humiliating accuracy.

You drop the sponge.

Water splashes your shirt, but you don’t look down. You press both hands to the edge of the sink and force yourself to breathe. In. Out. In. Out. Easy. Normal. Casual. Like you didn’t kiss Steve Harrington stupid in the hideout and then spend the rest of the night replaying it like an unskippable commercial break.

You squeeze your eyes shut.

You’re fine. (You are so not fine.)

You tease him, because that’s safer.

“Since when are you this helpful?” you ask him one afternoon, as he walks you the short distance from Robin’s to your car. 

He shrugs. “Perks of the role.”

You snort. “Wow. Does it come with a benefits package?”

He nods - then grimaces, “Dental’s terrible,” he says. “But the hours are flexible.”

You shake your head, smiling despite yourself, and turn back to your car door before you can think too hard about what role, exactly, he thinks he’s playing.

It isn’t until a week later that you realise maybe that wasn’t the question you should’ve been asking.

Maybe you should’ve been paying closer attention to yourself.

🌻 emoji inflation does have benefits, apparently… have a bit more:

“Personal space,” you say lightly.

“Ah,” he replies, stepping back with his hands held up. “Rookie mistake.”

You glance at him. He’s grinning — softer than usual, head tilted, eyes warm and fixed on you. Something irritatingly warm flickers low in your chest. You ignore it.

Robin’s voice drifts from behind the counter, “I hate you both,” she says.

Steve doesn’t even look at her. He tips his head toward you instead and wiggles his eyebrows, exaggerated and stupid.

You let out a giggle before you can stop yourself.

He freezes for a second - then his whole face softens. His grin melts into something oh so very warm. His eyes flick to you, fondness unguarded, like there’s only you in the room.

Robin groans. “I’m serious. Get a room.”

Steve darts his eyes away, like it physically pains him, muttering, “Jealousy’s ugly, Buckley,” before his gaze snaps back to yours.

The bell over the door rings.

“Stevie?” a voice calls out. “Is that you?”

P.S. this chapter has been hard to write but oh so very fun

[dearlizzies]

when reading smut and y/n says “daddy”

[kassy-djomunson]

this is pookie

[colouredbyd]

tolerate it

steve harrington x reader

summary: you accidentally overhear steve calling you “clingy” to robin. instead of confronting him, you retreat into silence, letting your hurt fester. steve notices and becomes desperate to understand, but the more he reaches out, the wider the distance grows.

word count: 6.1k

a/n: after writing way too much steve fluff, it’s time for some angst with my fav trope: fmc overhears her spouse call her clingy… eventual happy ending <3

tags: takes place after s4 timeskip, so much angst, emotional hurt, crying, reader has scars from a demo attack, nancy and robin are so sweet here, distancing, reader has ptsd, emotional vulnerability, reader was eddie's bsf, mentions of violence, trauma, typical upside down gore, lack of communication, so much fluff at the end, happy ending.

You truly didn’t mean to eavesdrop. 

If anything, it was an accident, a cruel, stupid accident orchestrated by the universe itself and whatever higher power up there that wanted to see you suffering. 

You’d been at the Squawk with Steve and Robin, the three of you crammed into the booth like always. Robin, as usual, was rambling about something while Steve laughed and bumped his knee into yours under the table, grounding you without even trying. 

By the time the clock crept past 8:30, the air outside was already dark and heavy, that familiar tightness had started curling in your chest; one that always showed up when it got late.

You’d told yourself you could handle it, that you were fine and you weren’t helpless, but you still asked Steve to accompany you home anyway, too afraid to go on your own.

“Can you come with me?” you’d asked casually, “or at least drive me home?”

Steve frowned, glancing at Robin. “Baby, you’ll be fine. You can go on your own. I’ll be back in like an hour, okay? ”

You nodded and kissed him goodbye, then you walked out to your car telling yourself you weren’t a scared little kid, and that nothing can harm you anymore.

Only to realize halfway down the lot that your coat was still inside.

So you turned around.

That was all; a forgotten coat, a stupid, normal thing, and you would have been in and out in seconds if not for your name cutting through the noise in the squawk as you heard Steve mention you to Robin.

You shouldn’t have listened, you knew that. You were raised better than to hover at doors and steal pieces of conversations that weren’t yours to hear, but your body didn’t listen to reason anymore.

Your feet stayed planted, your lungs forgot how to work as panic washed over you so fast and so violently that for a second you weren’t in Hawkins at all.

You were back in the Upside Down.

Back in that choking red sky, where  the air is thick and cold. You could feel all over again the vines slick and alive under your hands as you ran, heart tearing itself apart inside your chest. 

You could still feel the demobats, the weight of them, the wet snap of their wings, the sound of flesh ripping, the blood, so much blood, everywhere you looked there was bloodbloodbloodbloodblood—

—the combined screams of yours and Eddie’s. You remembered the way his body had gone still, the way Steve had dragged your bloodied body away as your entire abdomen was ripped apart, shaking so badly you couldn’t even scream.

You remember the way you’d thought you were going to die there with your throat ripped open and your bones scattered across that fucked-up place.

You hadn’t felt safe since.

Four months, five months? however long it had been, it didn’t matter. Fear had latched onto you like a parasite and refused to let go.

Everything startled you now, doors, clocks, cold air on your neck, cars backfiring, footsteps too close behind you. The world felt like a nightmare, and the night was only much worse.

Steve was the only place that didn’t feel like that.

Steve made it quiet. Steve made it stop.

You hadn’t even realized you’d started clinging until it was already done, until your body had decided he was shelter, that he was protection, that if he was near then nothing could touch you. 

And now you were standing outside a door, listening to him talk about you.

“I don’t know, Robin,” he says again, voice rough and worn down, like he’s been chewing on the same thought for weeks and it’s finally gone bloody. “She’s just… different. Ever since.”

Robin leans back against the counter, arms crossed, watching him carefully. “Yeah,” she says, slow and measured. “No shit. She went to literal hell, Steve.”

“I know that,” he snaps too fast, immediately regretting the edge in his voice. He exhales, drags a hand down his face. “I know. I do. That’s the problem. I know, and I still feel like shit about how I feel.”

She waits. Robin’s good at that. At letting him talk himself into the truth.

“It’s like,” he starts again, quieter but faster, words tumbling over each other now, “she’s everywhere. All the time. Wherever I go, she’s already there or tryin’ to be. If I grab my keys, suddenly she needs to leave too. If I’m sittin’ down, she’s sittin’ down. If I say I’m tired, she’s tired. It’s like she can’t exist unless I’m right next to her.”

Your stomach drops where you stand, frozen just outside the door, fingers clenched tight around the strap of your bag.

“I’m serious,” Steve keeps going, oblivious, frustration bleeding through every word. “If I’m goin’ to see Dustin, she’s got a reason to come. If I’m headin’ to the Squawk, somehow we’re paired up for drills again. She doesn’t do anything alone, Robin. Never. She’s just… latched onto me.”

He laughs humorless. “And I sound like a dick sayin’ it, I know I do, but it’s fuckin’ suffocating.”

Suffocating. Like he’s drowning because of you.

Robin doesn’t answer right away. When she finally speaks, her voice is softer, more careful. “Steve. That’s not weird, matter of fact it's a normal response given what she's been through. That’s her brain trying to keep her alive.”

“I know,” he says, rubbing at his neck like it physically hurts to admit it. “I know she’s not doing it on purpose.”

“She nearly died,” Robin presses. “She watched Eddie die right in front of her. She got dragged into the Upside Down and came back with scars all over her body. She wakes up screaming, Steve. You’re the only thing that makes her feel safe.”

“I didn’t say she was the bad guy,” he snaps, voice cracking despite himself. “I’m just sayin’ I’m overwhelmed. She’s so clingy, Robin. You saw her tonight. She didn’t wanna leave without me. I had to practically beg her to go first.”

Your vision blurs. You press a hand to your mouth, swallowing hard.

“It’s like I gotta make up excuses just to be alone,” he admits, quieter now, stripped bare. “I need space. I need to breathe. And I can’t say that without soundin’ like a heartless asshole because yeah, she’s traumatized, and then suddenly I’m the villain for wantin’ five goddamn minutes to myself.”

Robin scoffs, pushing off the counter. “Steve, you idiot. You said it yourself. Your girlfriend is traumatized.”

“Yeah,” he shoots back, voice rising, “but how the hell do I tell my traumatized girlfriend to back off without destroyin’ her. How do I say ‘hey, I love you, but you’re smotherin’ me,’ and not absolutely fuck her up more than she already is.”

“You don’t call her clingy,” Robin says immediately. “For starters. That word is banned and most girls, including Vickie, hate it.”

Steve lets out a short, bitter laugh. “Well, she is.”

Robin gasps dramatically, clutching her chest. “Oh nooo,” she mocks, voice high and obnoxious. “I’m Steve Harrington and my girlfriend loves me so much. Oh noooo, she feels safe with me. My life is helllll.”

“Shut up,” Steve mutters, shoving her shoulder.

“Oww, you asshole!” Robin shoots back, swatting him in return, then sobers as she gets all serious again. “You’re not wrong for being tired. You are wrong for talking about her like she’s a burden.”

Steve goes still. “I don’t think she’s a burden,” he says quietly, and this time it sounds like the truth. “I just… I don’t wanna be the only thing keepin’ her together. What happens if I fuck up? What happens if I leave?”

Robin sighs. “Then you talk to her. You communicate, dingus.”

You step back before they can see you, heart pounding, every word replaying in your head on a brutal loop. Suffocating. Clingy. Everywhere.

You don’t grab your coat when you leave.

You don’t even realize you’re driving until you’re already halfway home, knuckles white on the steering wheel as every memory crashes into you at once. Begging him to stay while you showered because you were convinced something would crawl out of the drain. Nights you woke up screaming, clinging to his shirt like it was the only safe place left in the world. Training days for the crawl where you stuck close, too afraid to be alone, grateful when you were paired with him again.

You could see it all, every single little thing you had leaned on him for, flashing through your mind like some god-awful horror slideshow.

Steve’s words had been like a bucket of ice water dumped on you, shocking you into clarity whether you wanted it or not. 

Maybe you had been too sensitive. Maybe you had been unbearable. Maybe you had been so clingy that it wasn’t fair for him, and maybe you needed to let go, at least a little. 

It wasn’t as if you had been the only one stuck in the Upside Down. Will had survived a week in that hell, seen things that should have ripped him apart, and yet he had come back and carried himself with a strength you couldn’t even muster. 

Dustin had lost Eddie too, but he hadn’t latched onto anyone, hadn’t made himself a burden. Eleven had been tortured, exploited, experimented on, broken in ways that should have left her crushed, and yet she still managed to find herself amidst everything, to stand and breathe and continue on. 

And here you were, the only one who seemed incapable of moving past it, of finding even a fragment of independence, still tethered to Steve as if without him you would fall apart.

Somehow, without realizing it, you had arrived at your shared home with Steve, parked your car in the driveway, and walked inside on autopilot, your body carrying you through familiar motions while your mind carried the full weight of guilt, shame, and heartbreak.

You stripped off your clothes in the bathroom, letting the water hit your skin in a rhythm you used to find comfort in, and prepared some dinner. You heated up leftovers, the smell of food filling the kitchen like it always had, but this time there was no laughter, no shared commentary on who had eaten what, no teasing Steve about his obsession with ketchup. 

By the time Steve arrived, the house was quiet. You were already in bed, tucked under the covers, something you hadn’t done alone in months because for months you hadn’t slept unless his arms were wrapped around you. 

But tonight, the house felt empty, and he found himself standing in the kitchen, fork in hand, staring at the warm meal you had prepared for him, and realizing that for the first time in an eternity, you weren’t waiting for him.

The next morning only deepened the silence. Steve woke to an empty bed, the sunlight spilling across rumpled sheets that smelled faintly of your perfume, and felt a prickling, cold panic he couldn’t name at first. 

You were already dressed, shoes on, ready to leave.

“Where are you heading?” he asked, voice rough.

“Going to get some stuff from the store,” you replied dryly.

“Want me to come with you, sweetheart?” His words carried that familiar gentleness, but you couldn’t look past it without feeling like a burden.

“No,” you said simply.

It was such a small, simple word. It shouldn’t feel like this. Except it made Steve sit in bed alone, blood running cold, realizing far too late that you were beginning to avoid him.

You leave early and don’t come back until the sky is already dimming, the house dark except for the kitchen light that Steve has turned on and off three times now like it might summon you home faster.

By the time you unlock the front door, he has been pacing a groove into the living room carpet, heart in his throat, mind running through every worst case scenario he promised himself he wouldn’t think about anymore. The second the lock clicks and the door opens, he’s there, crowding your space before you can even hang up your coat.

“Where the hell were you?!” he blurts, voice tight and frantic, eyes scanning you like he’s checking for blood. “You’ve been outta the house for nearly six hours. Six. I was losin’ my goddamn mind. I thought somethin’ happened to you.”

You sigh, slow and tired, and for a split second when you really look at him, at the pure unfiltered worry etched into his face, you almost break.

Almost step into his arms, almost let yourself melt into him and admit how badly you missed him, how those six hours felt like six days without his voice or his hands or the steady reassurance of his presence. 

If six hours did this to him, then the space you were forcing had been tearing you apart twice as badly.

But then your brain betrays you, replays his words in his voice, clingy, suffocating, always there, and you harden.

“I was out, Steve,” you say quietly.

“Yeah, no shit,” he fires back, following you as you walk toward the kitchen. “Out where?”

You open the fridge, more for something to do than because you’re hungry, and shrug. “With Nancy. We hung out and I accidentally lost track of time.”

The tension drains out of him immediately, shoulders sagging in relief. “Jesus,” he breathes. “Why didn’t you tell me, huh? I was freakin’ out. Is everything okay? Did somethin’ happen?”

You shake your head. “No, nothing happened, don’t worry.”

He nods quickly, like he’s trying not to push. “Okay. Okay. I won’t pry.” He hesitates, then softens. “Hey, I was thinkin’ dinner. You want lasagna or pizza?”

“I’m not hungry,” you say, already turning away. “I’m gonna go sleep, okay.”

He frowns. “But I thought we could just hang out a little, I mean we barely saw each other toda—”

“Maybe another time, alright? Goodnight, Steve.”

He exhales, defeated. “Goodnight,” he says softly. “I love you.”

You pause just long enough to whisper it back before disappearing down the hall. “I love you too,”

The days after are worse.

Steve wakes up and barely gets a word in before you’re already pulling on shoes, mumbling something about a jog. If he waits, you need a shower. If he waits longer, you’re late to see your nana. 

If he suggests the Squawk, you’re already going with Nancy. It’s like every time he reaches out, you slip through his fingers a little more, like trying to grasp smoke.

Not long ago, you haunted him with your presence. You were everywhere, constant, inescapable, but now you ghost him with your absence. He doesn’t know where you go or what you do, only that the house feels emptier even when you’re technically still there.

That’s how he ends up sitting on the edge of the bed tonight, waiting for the bathroom door to open, heart pounding like he’s bracing for bad news. When you finally step out, hair damp, towel slung over your shoulder, he looks up like he’s been holding his breath.

“Hey, sweetheart,” he says gently, like he’s testing the word to see if it still belongs to him.

You glance at him in the mirror and give him a small, careful smile. “Hi, Steve.”

He lingers there for a second, then steps closer, hands hovering before he settles them lightly at your waist, afraid you might flinch. He leans down and presses a kiss to your collarbone. 

“I missed you,” he murmurs. “You’ve been out all day. Didn’t even see you at the Squawk.”

Your body betrays you before your mouth does, a shiver running through you at the sound of his voice, the warmth of him behind you. For a heartbeat you let yourself feel it, the pull, the ache. Then you pull away, just enough to break the contact, reaching for your hairbrush like it’s a shield.

“Yeah,” you say lightly. “Nancy asked me to go shopping with her again.”

“Oh.” He straightens, nodding, trying to keep his tone easy. “Was it fun? I figured you’d come back with, like, ten bags or somethin’.”

You shrug, brushing through damp hair. “Didn’t need anything.”

He watches you in the mirror, the way you won’t quite look at him, the way your answers land flat and stop short. He clears his throat as heshifts his weight.

He hesitates, then clears his throat, trying again, voice low and careful. “Uh. We trained today. Me, Hopper, and El. She shaved her time down again.”

You pause only briefly, tugging at your hair with the brush.

“Thirty-three seconds,” he continues, a little brighter despite himself. “Last week it was thirty-six. She’s pissed about it too, which I guess is good. Means she knows she can do better.”

“That’s good,” you say quietly.

He nods, even though you’re not looking at him. “Yeah. She’s gettin’ scary strong again. In a good way.”

“Mhm.”

Steve frowns. He leans back on his hands, searching your face even though you’re facing away now. “We could all hang out this weekend. Just us, or maybe the kids too. Whatever you want. Thought it might be nice.”

“I’m actually quite tired,” you say quietly.

“Okay,” he says quickly. “Yeah. That’s fine. We don’t have to do anything big.” He pauses, then softly asks. “Hey. Are you okay? Like, really okay?”

You swallow. “I’m fine, Steve.”

There’s a beat of silence where he clearly wants to say more as his mouth opens and closes like he’s rearranging words that never come out right. 

He tries again, desperate now. “Did I do somethin’? Because if I did, I swear I’m not tryin’ to mess this up. I just need you to talk to me, okay.”

Your chest tightens. You squeeze your eyes shut.

“Steve,” you say softly, cutting him off before he can dig himself deeper, “can you turn off the light, please?”

He gets the hint; you don’t want to talk.

He freezes for a second, then nods once. “Yeah. Yeah, of course.”

He stands, reaches for the lamp, and the room falls into darkness. He lingers there for a moment longer, like he’s hoping you’ll turn back around, say his name, give him something to hold onto.

You don’t.

“Night,” he says quietly.

“Night,” you reply, barely audible.

He lies down beside you, careful not to touch, staring up at the ceiling with the awful, sinking realization that this is what losing you looks like..

As the days passed, then quietly turned into weeks, you built a new routine that did not include Steve in it at all. It happened slowly enough that it almost felt reasonable at first. 

You learned how to time your mornings so you were out the door before he woke up, learned how to come home late enough that conversation felt unnecessary, learned how to smile just enough to keep him from asking questions that you did not have the strength to answer.

Avoiding him became second nature. Lying became easy.

You spent most of your days outside, anywhere that was not the house and not around him. Sometimes you sat beside your nana’s hospital bed for hours, holding her hand and watching the rise and fall of her chest just to remind yourself that people stayed alive even when everything went wrong. 

Other days you walked until your legs ached, wandering neighborhoods you barely recognized, letting exhaustion drown out thought. Occasionally you called a friend, anyone who would answer, and let the hours blur together in cafes and parking lots and friendly conversations that never went anywhere deep enough to hurt.

It got to the point where you could not remember the last time you had kissed him without forcing yourself to think about it, and when you did, the number made your stomach twist. Four days. Four whole days since his mouth had been on yours, since his hands had found your waist without asking, since you had slept tangled together instead of inches apart. 

There was a time when five minutes apart felt unbearable, when you haunted each other in hallways and kitchens and doorways, hands always reaching, always searching.

You grew used to the distance. 

Steve though, did not.

His patience thinned in ways that showed. It did not help that things with Dustin were already strained. Steve started snapping again and retreating into old habits he thought he had outgrown. 

He tried to pull himself back every time he felt it happening, tried to reach for you like he always had.

And every time he did, you stepped further away.

That was how he found himself one late afternoon sitting on the couch, elbows braced on his knees, staring at the front door. 

You had been gone all day again, supposedly with Nancy, doing whatever it was you told him you were doing now. 

Steve knew you were close to her, knew you trusted her, but not to the point where you would spend hours every other day together. Still, he told himself not to judge. Girls were odd in their friendships, and he did not want to be the guy who questioned everything.

But his mind would not shut up.

Every instinct in him was screaming that something was wrong, that he needed to do something instead of sitting there waiting. He was snapped out of his thoughts when the doorbell rang.

Steve was on his feet instantly, relief and fear colliding in his chest as he rushed to the door. He yanked it open, already ready to say your name.

Instead, Nancy Wheeler stood there.

For a split second, his brain refused to process it. Then panic slammed into him so hard it stole the air from his lungs. If you were supposed to be with Nancy, then why is she standing here alone?

“Where is she?” he blurted out, voice sharp and scared. “Is she okay? What happened?”

Nancy blinked in shock at his reaction, taking in the way his shoulders were tight, the way his hands were already shaking like he’d been holding himself together by sheer force of will. “Whoa, Steve, hey,” she said quickly. “Slow down. What’s going on?”

“What,” he shot back, breath uneven, eyes already scanning the driveway behind her like you might suddenly appear. “Where’s she? Why are you here without her, Nancy?”

Nancy frowned. “Without who?”

“Y/N,” he snapped, panic bleeding into anger because fear always did that to him. “I’m talking about Y/N.”

Her expression shifted immediately. “Yeah,” she said slowly, “that’s actually why I’m here. I haven’t heard from her in weeks. I just wanted to check in.”

The words hit him like a punch straight to the chest.

“What do you mean you haven’t heard from her?” he said, quieter now, like saying it louder might make it real. “You were literally  together today?”

Nancy let out a short, incredulous laugh. “Steve, no. I’ve been with Jonathan all day. He’s waiting in the car right now. I just stopped by because I was worried about her.”

The color drained from his face so fast it scared her.

“Steve,” she said carefully, stepping closer, “you’re freaking me out. What’s going on?”

He swallowed hard, throat tight like it was closing in on itself. “She’s been telling me she’s with you,” he said. “Every time she’s gone. She says she’s with you.”

Nancy stared at him. “Why would she lie about that?”

“I don’t know,” he said, voice cracking despite how hard he tried to keep it together. “That’s the thing, Nance, I don’t know. One day she was everywhere. Everywhere. I couldn’t turn around without her being there, couldn’t breathe without feelin’ her next to me, and then suddenly it’s like she vanished. We didn’t fight. I–i didn't do anything. At least not that I remember.”

Nancy sighed, rubbing her forehead, her tone firm but not unkind. “Steve. You don’t just wake up one day like that. Something must've happened.”

“No, no, no” he said immediately, shaking his head. “No, I would know. I would remember if I fucked up that bad.”

“And you didn’t think to ask her?” Nancy pressed.

“I did,” he snapped. “I tried. Every time I tried she’d shut it down, say she was tired or busy or fine. What the hell was I supposed to do, corner her?”

“She was clingy, okay. I’ll say it. I couldn’t go anywhere without her, couldn’t get a second alone, and then suddenly it’s like she was gone.”

Nancy’s head snapped up. “Don’t,” she said sharply.

“What?” he shot back.

“You do not call her clingy, Steve!” Nancy said, anger flaring now. “You don’t get to use that word with Y/N out of all people!”

He bristled. “Oh come on, Nancy. I didn’t mean it like that.”

“Yeah, you did,” she said. “And even if you didn’t, it doesn’t matter. In case you’ve forgotten, Harrington, we’re all wrapped up in this upside down bullshit because we have to be. I do it because of Mike and Barb. You do it because of Dustin. Guess what? She doesn’t have to be involved in it!”

Steve opened his mouth, then stopped.

“That girl is fucking traumatized, and she went through that shit because you dragged her into it!” Nancy continued, voice steady but fierce.

“She nearly died. She was attacked by monsters that shouldn’t exist. She watched Eddie die just like the rest of us, and she doesn’t get to talk about it with anyone outside this circle. She can’t go to her friends or her family and say, ‘hey, I got slimed by an interdimensional monster and almost got ripped apart.’ The only person she feels safe enough to lean on is you!”

His jaw tightened, guilt creeping in through the cracks.

“So yeah,” Nancy went on, “maybe she leaned too hard or she  didn’t know how to be alone after that. But that doesn’t make her clingy, Steve. That makes her scared.”

He dragged a hand down his face. “I didn’t mean to hurt her.”

“I know,” Nancy said. “But intent doesn’t erase impact. Something you said or did made her feel like she was too much, like she was a burden, and instead of yelling or crying she did the only thing she could think to do. She disappeared.”

Steve let out a shaky breath. “She’s been lying to me, Nancy.”

“She’s protecting herself,” Nancy said. “You need to see things in her light”

Silence stretched between them, thick and heavy.

“So what,” he said finally, voice raw. “What if she’s just… done? What if she realized she doesn’t need me?”

Nancy softened then, stepping closer. “Steve. She needs you. She just doesn’t think she’s allowed to anymore. And that’s on you to fix.”

He looked at her, eyes glassy. “How?”

“You talk to her,” Nancy said simply. “Really talk. Don't accuse her or get defensive. Listen to her.”

She glanced back toward the driveway. “I’ll stop by tomorrow and check on her too, okay? But you can’t let this sit. Whatever’s going on, it’s clearly eating both of you alive.”

Steve nodded faintly, chest aching. “Yeah.”

Nancy opened the door, then paused. “And Steve.”

“Yeah?”

“Snap out of it,” she said firmly. “Before you lose her for real.”

With that, she left, heading back toward Jonathan’s car, while Steve stood alone in the doorway.

Ironically, barely ten minutes after Nancy and Jonathan pulled out of the driveway, you came home.

The house was dark. Too dark.

Your stomach dropped immediately, panic flaring hot and fast as you stepped inside, the door clicking shut behind you. No lights. No TV. No noise.

For a split second, every worst-case scenario you’d trained yourself not to think about came crashing in all at once.

“Steve?” you called out, voice tight.

Footsteps shuffled, and then he appeared in the doorway to the kitchen, lit only by the faint glow from the stove light.

“Hey,” he said, like nothing in the world was wrong.

You froze for half a beat. “Oh. Hi.”

There was something awkward in the air instantly, like you’d both stepped into the same room carrying entirely different weights. He leaned against the counter, trying to look casual.

“How was your day?” he asked.

You shrugged, slipping your shoes off. “It was… alright.”

His eyes drifted to the bag clutched in your hand, the crinkled plastic catching his attention. “What’s that?”

“Oh,” you said quickly, glancing down at it. “I stopped by the pharmacy to get the cream. For, uh… you know. The scarring.”

He nodded, softer now. “That’s good.”

Neither of you said anything else as you walked down the hall together. The bedroom felt smaller than usual as Steve sat on the edge of the bed while you set the bag down.

“Um,” he said, rubbing the back of his neck. “Do you want me to help you apply it?”

You hesitated for a second. Then you nodded and handed him the bag.

He unsealed the ointment while you slipped your shirt off and sat cross-legged on the floor, your back to him. You were suddenly acutely aware of every scar—deep, jagged reminders carved across your back and abdomen from the demogorgon attack. Old wounds, but never really gone.

Steve didn’t react the way you always feared people might. He never did.

His hands were warm as he scooped some of the cream, spreading it carefully across your skin gently. He worked it into your shoulders, thumbs pressing lightly as he massaged your shoulders.

You let yourself breathe.

He kept going until he was done, smoothing the last of it in with quiet focus. As you started to shift, ready to stand and pull your shirt back on, you felt it—

Two soft kisses. One pressed over each long scar crossing your back.

Your heart kicked hard against your ribs.

You stood quickly, sliding your shirt back on, suddenly unsure what to do with all the space between you. You were halfway to the door when his voice stopped you.

“Uhm, Y/n.”

You turned. “Yeah?”

He reached out, fingers wrapping gently around your hand, and tugged you a step closer. “Can we talk?”

He keeps hold of your hand when you hesitate.

“Talk about what?” you ask quietly.

Steve doesn’t answer right away. Instead, he steps closer, close enough that you can feel the heat of him, the familiar gravity that’s always pulled you in whether you wanted it to or not. His hand tightens around yours like he’s afraid you’ll disappear if he loosens his grip.

“I know I’ve been shitty,” he says again, like repeating it might finally make it land where it needs to. His voice is low and rough, scraped raw by guilt. “I know I’ve been so far away from you. I know you felt it. I saw it, even when I pretended I didn’t.” He swallows hard. 

“And I know you’re going through things—things I can’t even fully understand—and I hate that instead of being the person you could come to, the person who made it easier, I—”

He cuts himself off with a sharp breath, hand lifting to his face like he can physically stop the words from spilling.

Your chest tightens so painfully it almost steals your breath.

“I panicked,” he rushes on, panic bleeding straight through his words now. “I didn’t know how to handle it. Knowing someone was dependent on me, really dependent on me, not just for rides or babysitting or stupid shit like that, but emotionally.” His voice wavers. “I thought I was gonna screw it up. Thought I already was screwing it up. And instead of dealing with that like an adult, I freaked out.”

He laughs once, sharp and broken. “God, I thought I needed space. I thought if I pulled back, things would calm down, that we’d both breathe easier. But fuck—” His voice cracks hard on the word. “This is so much worse. You being gone is so much worse than you being everywhere. I’d give anything to have you hovering around me again, asking if I’m okay, touching my arm, sittin’ too close on the couch.”

He steps closer, hands shaking as they come up to your sides.

“Please,” he whispers, forehead nearly brushing yours now, eyes glossy and wrecked. “Please, sweetheart. Don’t stop being dependent on me. Don’t stop needing me. Don’t stop loving me.”

Your breath stutters, a broken sound caught somewhere between your chest and your throat.

“I need you to need me,” he says, the words spilling faster, desperate and unfiltered. “I didn’t realize it until you pulled away, but I do. I need it. I need you. Because I can’t do this anymore. I can’t wake up every day wondering if you’re okay and knowing it’s my fault you don’t tell me.” His voice drops to a whisper. 

“I can’t do this without you.”

That’s when you break.

The sob tears out of you violently, ripping through your chest like something finally gave way. Your knees nearly buckle as you fold into him, crying so hard your body shakes, hiccups jerking through each breath. 

Steve reacts instantly, arms wrapping around you tight, crushing you to his chest like if he lets go you’ll disappear for real this time.

“I’m sorry,” he murmurs into your hair, voice breaking completely now. “I’m so sorry. Fuck—fuck, baby, don’t cry. Please don’t cry.”

His hand moves up and down your back in slow, steady motions, grounding and familiar, his chin pressing into your hair. You cry into his shirt until it’s damp, until your throat burns and your lungs ache and you feel wrung out and hollow.

Eventually, trembling, you pull back just enough to look at him.

“I heard you, Steve,” you say, the words tripping over themselves.

He freezes. “You… heard what?”

Your hands curl into fists at your sides, nails biting into your palms like you deserve the sting. “A few weeks ago. At the station. I left early and forgot my coat.” Your voice wobbles badly now. “I came back, and I heard you.”

The color drains from his face so fast it scares you.

“You were talking to Robin,” you continue, tears spilling again. “You said I was clingy. You said I was suffocating you.”

“Oh—no,” he breathes, panic exploding across his features. “No, no, no, baby, please—”

“I didn’t mean to be,” you sob. “I swear I didn’t. I wasn’t trying to trap you or make you feel stuck. I just—” Your breath breaks, the words barely making it out. “I only felt safe with you. And everyone else was doing okay. Everyone. And I wasn’t. I was falling apart and I didn’t know how to move on from everything that happened.”

You swallow hard, voice dropping to something small and raw. “And somewhere along the way, it started to feel like you weren’t loving me anymore.”

Your eyes lift to his, shining. “It felt like you were just… tolerating it. Tolerating me.”

Steve’s hands come up to cradle your face, thumbs brushing your tears away like each one physically hurts him.

“Baby,” he says fiercely, voice shaking as his arms tighten around you. “You can cling to me as tight as you want and as long as you want. I don’t ever want you to feel like you have to pull away to protect me.”

His voice drops, thick and aching, the words pressed straight into your hair. “I love you so much it hurts. I love you so much it scares me, and instead of owning that, I ran my mouth and said somethin’ stupid and careless. And I hate that it hurt you. I hate that I made you feel like you were too much when all you ever were was… you.”

He presses his forehead to yours, breath shaky. “You were never suffocating me. I was just scared of how much I needed you back.”

You search his face, eyes swollen, chest still hitching with quiet aftershocks of sobs. He looks wrecked and earnest and painfully open, like every wall he’s ever built has finally come down.

“It’s okay, Steve,” you whisper, even though the words wobble on the way out, even though they don’t quite feel solid yet.

He shakes his head immediately, curls bouncing with the movement. “It’s not. It’s really not.” His hands slide up your back, holding you close. “But we’re gonna fix it, okay? I will fix it. I promise. I don’t care how long it takes.”

His forehead presses against yours again, like he’s grounding himself. “Just… don’t pull away from me ever again.”

You nod, slow but sure, arms wrapping around him fully now as you bury your face into his chest. He holds you like he means it this time, rocking you gently, big hands warm and steady like they’re reminding you that he’s real, that he’s here.

You breathe him in.

And then—

Grrrgrgrgrgrgr.

You freeze for half a second.

Then you pull back just enough to look up at him, eyes still wet, face scrunched, and you burst out laughing—broken, hiccupy laughter that comes out of you mid-cry.

“Are you—” you sniff, laughing harder, “—are you hungry?”

Steve’s face goes bright red.

“I—” he stammers, mortified. “I was gonna wait for you to come back, okay? I didn’t wanna eat without you.”

That just makes you laugh more. You press your face back into his chest, shoulders shaking, and he lets out a breathy laugh too, embarrassed but relieved, his arms tightening around you again.

“God,” he mutters. “Timing, huh.”

You tilt your head up and kiss him. He kisses you back immediately, like he’s been starving for it just as much as food. When you pull away, barely an inch, he leans in again and kisses you harder this time and deeper, pouring everything unsaid into it.

He breaks the kiss with a breathless laugh, forehead resting against yours. “Missed kissing you.”

You smile. “Me too.”

He exhales, then straightens suddenly like he’s had an epiphany. “You know what?”

“What?” you ask.

“I am starving,” he says, dead serious. “And I’m pretty sure you are too.”

You blink. “Steve—”

“Come on,” he says, already grabbing your hand and tugging you gently toward the door. “Grab a coat.”

“Wait,” you laugh, stumbling after him. “Where are we even going?”

He grins over his shoulder, that familiar boyish smile you fell in love with. “Enzo’s.”

Your eyes widen. “What? No, Steve, that place is expensive. And you need a reservation and— I can just heat something up, it’s fine—”

“Nope,” he cuts in immediately. “Absolutely not.”

“Steve—”

“I gotta spend the next year or so making it up to you,” he says, squeezing your hand. “Minimum.”

You gape at him. “But—”

“Too late,” he says cheerfully, already opening the door.

You stumble as he leads you out to the car, the night air cool against your skin. He opens your door for you like always, and excitedly smiles at you. As the engine starts and the house disappears in the rearview mirror, you lean back in your seat, heart full and sore and warm all at once.

Deep down, you know it again: Steve will stay by your side. He’ll wait while you heal. He’ll hold you steady until you’re strong enough to take steps on your own.

And Steve knows, wholeheartedly, that he’ll be the one clinging to you just as tightly. Because you’re the only one he’s ever loved enough to spill his heart to.

And, apparently, spend three hundred and ninety dollars on at some fancy restaurant without even blinking.

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turning 20 means your not a teenager with mental health issues, your now an adult with mental health issues 💔

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the best thing to come out of stranger things 5 is all of the fan fics

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