once when he offered to buy me a drink. it was like meet up day at our 2ndary school and we havent seen each other for months and i was rly nervous esp w everyth that happened between us. so like he insisted on buying me sth and i was torn between saying no again cus thats rude as hell and actually let him treat me. i thought he was rly being enthusiastic ab it n all so self deprecating me thought that if i chose sth cheap it wouldnt be that bad like he still get the feeling that he bought me a drink but it didnt cost him much. so i ordered myself an iced white coffee and it was like half the price of his drink which was earl grey milk tea and he seemed happy. thing is i cant rly drink coffe. i think i did it bc i cant bear the thought of smo spending on me. the coffee being hs dsnt make it automaticaly good n i ended up throwing a third of it away. if i get a second chance id do the same thing tho. id rather throw a third of it away than having pp treat me to sth good.
i miss him sm
