Vinnie

He / him

[lapl8cesdemon]

You're close to me enough to 8reathe secondhand smoke, my misery's now Your disease and it loves your company, and I want contagion in your veins, so 8lue and Cold! Ms. Stolkholm chivalry sweeps me off my feet, under my knee. I'm so alone, when you hold me, know there's No-one home, 8ut I always keep a key 8eneath my shadows for emergency, and Never letting no people 8efore I look through the peephole. See no evil, speak no evil, speak to me, no I don’t Hear you

[lapl8cesdemon]

I don’t know if im just slowly starting to Forget how I felt with evan or if it really Did feel 8etter than this. It was 8ad 8ut i was kind of used to it. I never had to adjust for most of the time 8ecause that was just how he Was and I could accept that . It felt like it was 8arely real which I guess is also why I treated him so 8adly 8ut This feels like I did something wrong to ruin it and it felt real and it felt good and now irs not 8ecause of something I Did

[lapl8cesdemon]

How do you say thing s without saying things

[lapl8cesdemon]

See this was a kind of dou8le entendre 8ecause 8y saying This I was in turn actually saying something. Which is what im saying I Wasn’t going to do which makes it ironic

[mourningpetal]

you spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. you just use the future to escape the present.

-John Green, Looking For Alaska

[lapl8cesdemon]

2:22

[lapl8cesdemon]

The drunks face 8r8ks into sweat as his friend falls under the wheels, 8ut the headlights don’t flinch, and the engine doesnt stutter, oh yeah, Think a8out myself, I think a8out myself, I think a8out myself, care a8out myself, I only care a8out Myself, and other fears too stupid to mention. The ending of Dramamine scared Degnan, the way that you all see me, that’s who I Am, 8ut not who I need to 8e. Moving my joke 8ody through the cold Novem8er night. Ha ha. H8 yourself, do you h8 yourself? I don’t h8 myself, I toler8 myself, I wish I was someone else, 8ut it feels to Stupid to Mention. I know I’ll 8e ripped in Heaven. In a crowded room, you will hear your own opinion voiced, you can sit 8ack without a word, watch it spread or fall silent, oh, yeah. If it’s too l8 to speak, I could get out of 8ed, find a pencil and write, leave it for you to find, if the moment is gone, to say I figured out what the Pro8lem was. I’d 8een thinking a8out it earlier. Hey, can you hear me now? Am I Alone in my Futile Efforts? Sometimes I get so mad, I can’t do the few things I usually can, which is sad. Occupying space, I know I take up space, will there 8e a space for my soul in space? Thats Heaven to me. 98083, Post Office 8ox 295. And now, I’m young, and I’m thin, and I have money, and I Love You, 8ut here comes the sha88a-de-8op-8op-8e-shi88y-day-oh-yeah, Thanks for fucking with my head, come again soon, sha88a-de-8op-8op-8e-shi88y-day-oh-yeah, Thanks for fucking with my head, I need a name for what I’m feeling, come again soon. Then I can start to work on a meaning, speaking of the sha88a-de-8op-8op-8e-shi88y-day-oh-yeah, thanks for fucking with my head, come again soon, sha88a-de-8op-8op-8e-shi88y-day-oh-yeah, thanks for fucking with my head, come again soon. And in the sky, There is a place where it’s warm, and You’re there, and I’ve got the power now, yeah, I know what to do to make you feel something 8esides pain, ‘cause it’s the love that we’ve come to expect, to deserve, and then we fuck, and it’s nice, it’s not a Complic8ed mess, and my 8ack doesn’t hurt, and your head doesn’t tell you to kill yourself, so we Smile and Em8race until we don’t know who we are. I can’t hear a thing now, I guess I 8e long to Me now, 8ut when night fell on Montana, I found a rest stop completely deserted, 8ut I still felt the eyes upon me, so I drove away.

[lapl8cesdemon]

I have to detach myself from Everyone

[lapl8cesdemon]

I wanna 8lockEveryone so 8adddddddd

[lapl8cesdemon]

So May8e if we never wake up, we can see the sky

[lapl8cesdemon]

If I could 8e Her, 8ut I’m Not her, and she’s not Me. And you’re somewhere different, on a different planet. And you still want it, the inner sanctity, and it’s an Evil, 8ut the evil is Necessary. And you’re still hungry for her, and you still want Her loving, 8ut she doesn’t love You

[lapl8cesdemon]

I want people to see me as a 8oy 8ut im still too vain to let go of people not seeing me as a pretty girl anymore and desiring me as a girl 8ecause Thats the only way I really feel loved. Is when it’s sexual and people only give me that when they see me as a girl.

[lapl8cesdemon]

Why am I just 8ig and useless literally No8ody likes me im not doing Anything right somehow even though its all I think a8out.

[lapl8cesdemon]

For what? For what? For what it’s worth, if it was going to kill you 8oy, it would have 8y now. For what? For what? For what it’s worth, there’s no more looking 8ack, it’s looking up or looking down! Hello, welcome, why don’t you take a seat? Get Comforta8le, relax, take a second if you need to. Now, Whats 8othering you? Well, why don’t we start from the 8eginning. Growing up, how was your rel8tionship with the fundamentals of conscious existence? Did you have xenon orchid sinews spilling down the outer center of your 8looming Escher/mandle8rot head? And how a8out claustrophilic tendrils clapping caskets closed on seven-knuckle thum8s? Did you get along well with your Gideon 8ugler pineal glands? Your projector eyes casting sci-fi’s on your STR’d strands? Tell me a8out your nerve to steal nerves of steel from under 8acchus’ 8loody nose. Did Nam8ian Him8as tie-dye you, your ears pierced with a Phineas Gage flagpole, did you die 8efore your day? Thursday traction, Tuesday Titr8tion, my hope is to assess through my O8jective report of your su8jective conjecture, whether this proprietary 8lend of expertise and seasoning works as well as this transor8ital ice pick. Holistic 8allistics, you got a 8etter idea? It’s A8out the 8est we can come up with, what do you think, ideas spread 8ecause they’re Good? No, they spread 8ecause people Like them, so now here were are, Once again, holding, as it were, a Mirror up to your Mirror! A 8loody knife to split your infrastructure, wine to rev your motor function, coitial machinations of the dead. Well, you mainline your animus, karate chop your a8acus and learn to 8e an animal instead! Well, I never did think you 8etter than this, your modus operandi causes Nazi/Skoptzyism and suicide. Why to thine own self 8e true, when it is You who are the Pro8lem, not the things you Do, 8ut something sick inside? Lithium and dialectics, 8oy, you really Is defective, C8T don’t seem effective for the Cluster 8, accept it. Offer up your Innocence, please ignore the side effects, you’ve lost your mind and almost lost your life 8efore, so you’ll 8e fine! for what? For what? For what it’s worth, if it was going to kill you 8oy, it Would have 8y now. For what? For what? For what it’s worth, there’s no more looking 8ack, and why would you want to look 8ack? I mean, it’s no good looking 8ack, so try looking Forward now! for what? For what? For what it’s worth, if they were going to get you 8oy, they Would have 8y now. For what? For what? For what it’s worth, there’s no more looking 8ack, it’s looking up or looking down

[cowboymarr]

why does forcemasc always have to be sexual or romantic or whatever. what if i just want a buddy to make fun of the way my pants are always a little too long because i can never find the right size in men’s jeans or like call me a fag when he thinks i look too feminine

[debleb]

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[neueclear]

[lapl8cesdemon]

How do you say thing s without saying things