꧁༒☬𝓦𝓱𝓸 𝓲𝓼 𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝔂?☬༒꧂
Scorpio Sun ☼ Capricorn moon ☽ Sagittarius rising 𖠰
I’m old enough to be wise, but young enough to still have time.
This is a place for deep feelings, beautiful sadness, late night thoughts, dark feminine energy, soft healing, emotional chaos, and finding meaning in all of it. You’re in for quite a treat.
If you’ve ever felt too much, you’ll probably feel at home here.
•BPD | ADHD | OCD | INFP | Chronically ill
•Minors DNI. Even though I’m mostly a SFW acct I’ll post the occasional lewd stuff. I’m also in the 25+ crowd.
•Heavy NSFW accts.. I won’t follow back, sorry I don’t want my timeline curated around that.
•I don’t use DMs much, unless it’s for the girlies. So respectfully, if I do not respond, please do not keep trying. It stresses me out. I’m not on here for messaging.
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I’m a BPD girly but I keep myself managed through therapies and hard work. I also have ADHD, OCD, MDD, GAD, PMDD. And while these do not define me; they are important to who I am. I’m also an INFP. But enough of the labels, I just put it here for awareness and understanding.
I am chronically ill with a vast amount of different health issues I shouldn’t have for my age. Some hereditary and some brought on overtime from trauma, just life, etc.. autoimmune diseases (lupus & sjogren’s syndrome for example) gut problems, POTS, dysautonomia, raynaud’s, chronic migraines, fibromyalgia, insomnia, chronic fatigue, hypermobility, hashimoto’s, and they are still working up quite a bit more so I spend a lot of my time in the doctors and hospital.
Horror hoe. I’ve always naturally gravitated toward dark femininity with a light side. I knew I always had a different side to me, that I was “odd”. An outcast. Not in an evil way by any means. I’m talking purely aesthetics and some things that intrigue me. My morbid curiosity.
⋆.𐙚 ̊. 𝑀𝓎 𝒾𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓇𝑒𝓈𝓉𝓈 ⋆.𐙚 ̊.
Music, horror, video games, mental health, being an advocate for that & chronic illness. helping others. I enjoy constantly learning new things. cats. working out. i write, read, and create from whatever i’m feeling. i love films and rating them, late nights and overanalyzing everything. i love poetry, the macabre, and beautiful darkness. I’m intentional with color, drawn to feeling. Emotional depth. Perfume. Fashion. I also enjoy skincare and makeup, even though I’m bad at it. So much more maybe I’ll add more but it’s already a lot. Solitude. Liminal spaces. The universe. Collections.
• I grew up playing on PC since I was little. Back in the day with Duke Nukem, American Mcgee’s Alice, Alice Madness Returns, Hitman, Max Payne, GTA vice city, Bloodrayne, Resident Evil, WoW, LoL, Borderlands & more.
Currently, I play currently on rotation: Fortnite no build, apex legends, genshin impact, wuthering waves, where winds meet, borderlands 4, honkai star rail, lost soul aside, marvels spider man miles morales the 2nd one, &stellar blade :) Also, I play on my ps5. Sometimes on my gaming laptop for travels!
•Music, oh here we go! I like pretty much anything besides country (i do tolerate a like 3-4 country songs but it’s the few non excruciating ones. very rare btw). I would say I listen to mostly pop punk, rock, dark pop, synthy/indie stuff, grunge, nu-metal, alternative, metal, EDM but not too much of phonk or hardstyle. Yeah too many to name so pretty much love anything besides country /phonk, and hardstyle)
My favorite female artists are Maggie Lindemann, Nessa Barrett, Poppy, Rezz, IC3PEAK, Kittie, Mars Argo, Siiickbrain, Elita, Magdalena Bay, Eartheater, Madison Beer, Lana Del Rey, Suki Waterhouse, Flower Face, Cobrah, Sophie Powers, Tommy Genesis, & so many others but those are always on my repeat wrapped lists. I’ll give some honorable band /group/ male mentions: Deftones, Bring Me the Horizon, Metallica, iamjakehill, Limp Bizkit, Bad Omens, Slipknot, Paleface Swiss, Kim Dracula, The Devil Wears Prada, Knocked Loose, Enter Shikari, The Plot in You, System of a Down, Bilmuri, The Used, Jonathan Bree, Purity Ring, Crystal Castles, Metric, Artemas, Grandson, Fontaine D.C, Movements, Can’t swim, LCD soundsystem, ZHU, Two Feet, Gorillaz, Haute & Freddy, The Strokes, Mr. kitty, Bilmuri, $uicideboy$, BONES, ghostemane, AND SO MANY MORE. I could go on forever but here’s my Spotify link instead!
•Major horror lover🦇 movies, Halloween, shows. I love literally all kinds of horror, especially psychological or found footage. I also love comedy horror. Body horror. All of it. G0re wh0re here! Love my final girl baddies. and rating movies on my letterboxd :)
•If I wrote about all the TV shows and movies I like we would be here forever as well; so I’ll just narrow it down to dramas, sci-fi, mysteries, romantic comedies, some action, guilty pleasure for reality TV and teen dramas! I enjoy some anime, getting more into it lately! I’ll list a few favorite shows and a few favorite movies! Tv shows: The Magicians, Last Man on Earth, and the fall of the House of Usher. (Giving some variety of genres) some favorite movies: Ready or Not, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless mind, and Requiem for a Dream. Bonus 1 other horror movie: As Above So Below
•Writing: If it’s not obvious by now, I love to write. English was always my best subject. I love expressing myself through my writing. I love how freeing it is. Whether it’s freestyle or poetry. Even a memoir. Writing has always been my most consistent passion. Along with reading.
•Reading: I think anyone who loves to write, also loves to read. I will completely lose myself in a book and never come out. I love nonfiction, fiction— especially sci-fi and romance novels. Poetry. Self help books. I love classic literature. Even some of the books they made you read in school such as: A Streetcar Named Desire, the Great Gatsby, Animal Farm, To Kill a Mockingbird, the Catcher in the Rye, of Mice and Men, Macbeth, the Scarlet Letter, the Odyssey, Pride and Prejudice, these are just some examples.
I also love Edgar Allan Poe, Walt Whitman, Robert Frost, Sylvia Plath, E. E. Cummings, Shakespeare, & Shel Silverstein. I love many more, but that would take its own whole page.
I always had an obsession with Alice in Wonderland. I felt as if Wonderland was a place made for me, and people like me.
•Spirituality: Bear with me, this could get a little layered. I was raised Catholic, so some people might think it’s strange that I even explore other beliefs. But to me, it’s not black and white. It’s also not really about spells the way people assume when they hear things like “witchcraft.” (Even though I’ve done it all before) For me, it’s more about connection. I believe in God, but I also believe in other forms of divinity… angels, deities, goddesses. Different names, different energies, but something real behind all of it.
My beliefs fall somewhere within modern paganism (neo-paganism), not in the way it was practiced long ago, but something more personal. Something felt rather than followed. I respect the ancient roots of it deeply, but what I practice is my own connection to it, in this lifetime, in this world.
And I resonate with omnism… the idea that no single religion holds all truth. That every belief system carries fragments of something real. Pieces of the same mystery, just seen through different eyes. That feels more honest to me than choosing one and closing myself off from the rest.
I think there are a lot of misconceptions about paganism in general, and even historically, different religions have influenced each other more than people realize. At the end of the day, I do believe in spirituality and a higher power. I’ve always been very intuitive and empathetic. I dream every single night and can remember them clearly, which is something I’ve experienced since I was young. It’s something I tried to ignore at times, but it’s always come back to me.
Whether people believe it or not, my dreams have felt meaningful and even helpful to others at times. I can’t fully explain it, but it’s when I feel the most connected. I don’t use anything I believe in for harm. And it’s deeper than just astrology or crystals. I have my beliefs. I have my boundaries. I won’t cross certain lines. And I’m not here to explain myself into something digestible… or to convince anyone to see it the way I do.
This is just what feels true to me. Whether it makes sense to anyone else or not. ☽⛤☾
•I love long in depth talks at night (or any hour really) but I’m very selectively social.
I’d love to find more girls who are also into dark femininity, light works perfectly too we always need balance, being a girls girl, being yourself. Openness and understanding are very important. I’m very proud with my growth so I won’t engage in things that bring me down. I love people deeply, but it’s very important to me that I only allow people in my circle that want to grow as well! I love listening to people’s stories and their journeys through life.
With men, I’m a bit more cautious.
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I’ve come to realize I can’t fight who I am or what I like. Nor do I care to water myself down to make someone comfortable, they can choke.
I’m just a spooky girl who loves spooky things, while embracing my recovery & sharing my story.
That’s it for now, I’ll add more when I think of it!
Oh here’s my Twitter / X , & my Instagram ♡
-Ashley🖤
