more than you can see

my tumblr ME speaks german and english. I like creepy things. my brain and heart are kind of broken but i try my best.

[bearsockz]

reminder 🌱

[lastsoulsynth]

💦🌱

[lastsoulsynth]

the moment U Stop Seeking validation...

....is the moment U Become Free.

the moment U Told me how valid i'm...

...is the moment U Catched My falling Heart.

the moments U Show Me your Affection...

...are the moments My Soul Feels Secure.

let me Love U

Unconditionally

U deserve Love

Unconditionally

Set us Free

I.L.U.

Does your Soul feel Secure?

yes

no

what soul

Voting ended onNov 17, 2025

[lastsoulsynth]

Hi... I'm still here...

I'm losing more, from Day to Day...

My mother died...

Lost my Job...

Lost a lot of money...

Dad stoped talking...

And now... My boyfriend is fighting *orona

I put myself in quarantine...

I can not visit my little brother for his Birthday.

I can not come over for christmas.

I can not Do anything.

I can not stop crying, then I can not cry any more...

[lastsoulsynth]

Tried to draw... Big picture this time.

...outlines are ok by now.

Now i'll try to sleep.

Body seems not ready 4 this.

Not really tired...

Can't say I feel awake...

It would be a lie...

[lastsoulsynth]

Worst headache since forever...

...but It's getting better.

Probably it comes from worrying so much,

...and I'm thinking to much about.

[lastsoulsynth]

Jay.... that was funny - NOT

This was my first panic-attack since...

...maybe 10 years?!...

...

It's gone for now - hope it stay's away

...

[lastsoulsynth]

It play's all night...

It hides all Day...

It's here...

It will never go away.

[lastsoulsynth]

It feels like...

...everything is falling appart.

...slowly.

...silent.

...

[lastsoulsynth]

I'm searching for a home...

Home for my soul, home for my toughts...

...I am scared of too much.

...I want to feel save.

...want all my fears to vanish...

...and some happy feelings.

I am tired of feeling numb

and beeing creeped out by my fears...

Calm down...

Let me... sleep and dream something nice

Please

[lastsoulsynth]

Very difficult... this... "life"...

It can't be, that they just talk to me because they need something.

It can't be, that i have always to know what to do.

It can't be, that i feel guilty for every time I'm not in 2 seconds on my phone...

I should not feel that guilty,...

...if someone else isn't happy.

They make me feel, like... It's my fault.

[lastsoulsynth]

I've been weak... Yesterday my brain just jumped out of my head.

It was too much

Too much feelings... helpless... out of control

[lastsoulsynth]

2020 - what is this :v

in the end of january i´d say: my year starts in february.

and now take a look at this weird shit...

this stupid epedemic / pandemic thing :<

it´s march now and this year is kind of “paused“...

how is your life going?

stay save and healty - CU

[lastsoulsynth]

Happy New Year 🎉

I know... I'm late

My lack of Motivation seems endless this time.

I would stop breathing if it wasn't a automatic thing.

How is your year so far? Hope it's not that worse

[musicbasedmind]

reblog if you’re a safe place for:

lesbian

gay

bisexual

transgender

queer

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demisexual

ace

hopeless romantics

cis-men

cis-women

non binary folks

the whole spectrum etc…

follow everyone who reblogs ;)

[lastsoulsynth]

If you don't harm me, i'll be nice to U.

[ar-lath-vhenan]

[lastsoulsynth]

should i just ask next time?

[lastsoulsynth]

I found this yesterday on YouTube

And I like... No... I love this Masterpiece :D

♡

Greetings to Alastor 🎶 :3

[thepersonalquotes]