My Summer Break Last Week

Gabriela, 16, friends, music, dance, skateboarding And this is my last week of summer break diary.

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This is definitely the music of the day. Only Wiz can make things get smoother 

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5th Day

Im so pissed off! My mom didnt let me go celebrate the carnival today with my friends! Another Carnival at home...

Fuck

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I got my ears pierced for the second time! 

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6th Day

I still feel fat! 

I have 5 days to come back to 45 kg and i feel that i can do it.

My new technique besides controlling my anxiety is dividing everything that i eat in two parts and eat only one half of it.

Way to go ((:

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caviar style try

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vodka ou agua de coco, p mim tanto fazzzzzzz

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aow reklkda, exxxkuta o papu da ~bionce~

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7th day

My biggest disillusion this summer was not getting thinner. Ive been trying to lose some pounds since i got back from California. I got myself SO into this that i ended up creating a crazy cycle. I feel FAT, UGLY and DISGUSTING so, once sad, i start to eat. This weakness makes me sadder and i end up eating even more! Crazy, huh?

I tried working out to burn the extra calories. I took up jump classes, spinning, muay thai and all that. Thankfully, my ballet classes are back so im giving up all that shit this week because i didnt like it at all and i wont have time to go to the gym, ballet, school and take english classes!

So, to sum up, after this 3-month-unsuccessful try i found out that all i need is to get control over myself. I have to treat my ANXIETY and manage with this whole BINGE EATING problem. 

I hope this blog keeps me busy for this week so i wont get fatter at least. Its not going to be so easy with my mom and grandma cooking all day this Carnival but im practicing.

I WILL STOP THINKING ABOUT FOOD FROM...

NOW!