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will be so good in the car tho

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““I’ll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror””

— Taylor Swift, Anti-Hero (Midnights)

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I’ll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror; ANTI-HERO (2022) by Taylor Swift

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Don’t forget to reblog 😉

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Matilda (1996) dir. Danny DeVito

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2 time Academy Award nominee Jonah Hill.

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“Love makes you feel out of control. I think that’s how you know it’s right.”

— -Danny Diamond on That Wedding by Jillian Dodd (via suspend)

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Christopher Robin (2018) dir. Marc Forster

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March 2021 Illustrations ヽ(• ‿ •)ノ

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Please take these blessings and have a good April you all! 🌷 Sending lots of penguin hugs.

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I think I need to start “blogging” again. I use quotes because I don’t know if that’s what I’m actually doing. My main intention is to just speak and try to feel better.

My mental health is shot. I don’t know how to correct it. I used to take a supplement that made me happy. Made me feel like I truly was okay, until it stopped making me feel that way.

I’m overwhelmed in every aspect of my life. Work is hard. My relationship is hard. Seeing my mom once a year is hard. Saying goodbye to my dad before he had open heart surgery was hard.

I cry a lot more than I ever did before. I try to be happy like I always was in my teenage years, but it’s just not factual.

I recently got moved to a night shift at work, and that’s been a terribly difficult adjustment. I don’t know my new shift like I knew my old shift. I can’t sleep during the day. I’m training someone, who I don’t want to be training. I’m working hours I don’t want to be working. I’m doing the job I love, but I’m slowly learning to hate it.

Any friendships I’ve had have dwindled away. I used to surround myself with groups of people who made me laugh. People who brought out the “happy” Lauren. I only have a small window of friends who can make me laugh and make me happy, but because of my stupid schedule, I don’t get to see them.

I’m in what I consider to be my first actual, legit relationship. Sure, I’ve “dated” in the past, but nothing seemed to be how I always saw and thought relationships should be. My guy worships the ground I walk on. Is in contact communication with me. Tells me I’m beautiful and that he loves me. So why don’t I believe it? Why do I constantly think he doesn’t? Why do I evaluate everything he says and does, to try and find something wrong. I know I’m trying to self sabotage this and I desperately don’t want to.

Everything is fucked. Maybe I need a therapist. 🤷🏻‍♀️