Iāve never been so scared in my life. When you pulled me closer after I tried to escape. I felt so small, so bare. No one seems to understand what Iām going through. Yes people are sympathetic but their is an underline of just talk to him and lets act like this never happened. What he did is not okay. I am not making a bigger deal of this. Because this IS a big deal. I thought I could trust you, you were my friend. But now Iāve never felt so empty. And yes Kyle is trying to help but its hard to do when he is 2 hours away. It also doesnāt help when the one person that stayed up with me for an hour and half until my ride showed up, Kyle just thinks he is hitting on me. To me thats just bullshit because I couldnāt call Kyle at 4 in the morning when this happened so I shared the raw emotions I was feeling with his so he understands how truly terrified I was. God I was so scared and Trevor was there for me. and Kyle doesnāt get that. I just want a do over of yesterday so none of this happened. I wish I didnāt get sexually harassed. I wish I didnāt get so drunk that I couldnāt drive home. I wish I didnāt see that guys dick as he peed on the coffee table. I donāt want to remember any of it. I just want to go back to being sweet old me. But I guess that canāt happen.Ā