Another rambling post. I know no one but me reads these. But, I need it so here we go...
My mind, it always goes to that place. The place I hate. Where I always worry that I’m going to lose the happiness I have. That we have. I always say, “we are doing so well” then I get in my head. We are only focusing on the positive. Work is going to be completely crazy.
We haven’t been able to see each other in about 4+ days. I am not exactly sure. I have been getting over another cold and sleeping as much as I can to feel better.
He feels bad that he can’t come see me because of truck stuff. It is what it is. But we have been so dependent on one another. He is my home, he is my safe. I also have missed out on a weekend with the kiddo which is no fun.
I never really thought about this until last night when I was rambling at Hecker. Then it clicked. We have been each others pillar for such a long time. Not only since we have started dating. When I got picked on in school, he was there. He stuck up for me. Yes, I know at the time he didn’t love me but still. He protects everyone he cares about
So when my stupid brain says he doesn’t care, I just want to tell it to shut the fuck up.
relax. focus. happiness. future. good things.
