Leah's Secret Diary

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[menhe-rafflesia]

[leahsdiiary]

Not even my roommate acknowledges me now. Seems I am invisible

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its been a while since I've felt like anyone wanted me around. Like truly wanted me. Sucks to be me I guess 

[leahsdiiary]

Is it too hard to ask for someone to actually want me?

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what would you consider 2 of your positive traits ?

Positive traits…. well I would say that I’m a pretty good listener. If you have a problem, I will be there to listen to you and give you a shoulder to cry on. And possibly that….I’m hard working. 

what would you consider 2 of your negative traits ?

Major self doubt. I always worry that I’m not good enough or that I’m just…not enough. I also can be pretty stubborn at times. 

a guilty pleasure of yours ? ( can be a tv show, song, food you love to eat, whatever ! )

Guilty pleasure has to be choc chip cookies. I’m obsessed with them

what’s a quality that you look for in a friend ?

Someone who I can trust. That I know if I tell them something personal, they won’t go and blab it to everyone! 

[leahsdiiary]

pretty much invisible to everyone at this point 

[leahsdiiary]

can't wait to spend a day relaxing with my roomie. lifes been.....hard

[leahsdiiary]

definitely not checking my phone to see if you've messaged :|

[leahsdiiary]

soooooooo i might be crushing but trying not to :) 

[leahsdiiary]

Feeling like a goddamn idiot. I’m just gonna stop talking to you,

[leahsdiiary]

Bloom TV Task

what has life looked like for you recently ? 

Life has been a little up and down lately. I had my heart bruised by a girl who thought it was fun to lead me on while getting into a relationship with some dude she just met. On the other hand, I’ve been chilling in LA and enjoying getting to hang out with some friends as well as look at potential apartments for myself. 

do you readily believe things you read online ? 

Not particularly. I tend to search more into a story before I believe in it. 

do you second guess yourself ? 

All the goddamn time, I wish I didn’t though. 

what lyrics do you relate the most to right now ? 

I wanna know what it'd be like

To find perfection in my pride

To see nothing in the light 

(Paramore - Turn It Off)

what topics would you not want mentioned ? ( because there’s no choice to opt out of gossip, writers please let us know what topics you wouldn’t be comfortable with ) 

Anything that involves self harm, any kind of assault, gore,

[leahsdiiary]

honestly don’t wanna ever see you or him again 

[leahsdiiary]

stupid leah falling for a girl who isn’t interested yet again

[stay-close]

I watched life and wanted to be a part of it but found it painfully difficult.

— Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anais Nin, Vol. 6: 1955-1966

[leahsdiiary]

Ready for a fresh start. Forget all the shit and just become a new person.