Lovely Findings

I am passionate about my cat, my dog, coffee, and social justice.

[learningtofindpeace]

I keep thinking about how in some countries, struggling with depression and suicide ideation this long, I would be allowed euthanasia.

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The mood is v low.

v hopeless.

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Really run down. Really feeling like being dead.

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Will I ever not want to be Dead?

[chessys]

*has destructive intrusive thoughts* feels good, feels organic

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Okay so what does it mean when you jokingly tell your friend the two of you are getting married and they say you aren’t even dating?!

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All parts of me believe I should be dead.

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Turns out, I am very burned out and suicidal atm and Tblfa.

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Welp. Turns out a prescribed opioid can cause serotonin syndrome. so that’s fun.

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Been having seizures all day but haven’t lost coherence so we good.

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Thank have enough of everything

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happy girl

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I want to be dead I want to be dead I want to be dead I want to be dead I want to be dead

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I feel like I have maybe two usable hours in a day thanks to ptsd and chronic illness.

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Iwtbd

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I’ve had ten seizures in the last three weeks. Wtf.

honestly feeling pretty anxious about it as I told clinic today so they knew why I was going to keep working from home vs starting to see clients in person.

made it Real.

[learningtofindpeace]

On a happier note, Cece loves camping.