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the internet depresses me but no internet depresses me

i am forever going to be depressed about internet

there is no winning, on the internet i feel ignored by my friends and not doing anything to actually start my enrolling at college but off the internet i'm not sticking to my routine which causes me to get anxious and depressed

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so mum found out that i cut and stuff today. her fucking ex girlfriend went through the RUBBISH, oh and not just all of it, only mine, at our old house and found one of the many books in which I write my thoughts and crap. She told mum how i wanted to die and that i cut myself and shit. normally i would come up with some lie to make her think otherwise but she seen it and she knows my writing how was i supposed to lie

also she fucking told mum that she thinks i've been abused because I have to have a blanket over my butt when i sleep and that i am weird with windows????? I'm self-conscious of my ass and i dont like windows because when i was 11 people were standing outside my open window talking about how they were going to break into my house, of course i am fucking weird with windows! the only abuse i have ever gotten is from her yelling and calling me shit then acting like it never even fucking happened and poor her! 

She could have come to me and spoke to me about this instead of just telling my mother what you think and making her freak out! 

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mum thinks that the reason why i'm pissed off and being a smartass right now is because dad is here

no

i am pissed off because for three days, my aunty has been here with her two kids and they dont leave me the fuck alone for two seconds and as much as i love them i need to be alone and she doesn't get that freaking hell

[neilcicierega]

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kill me

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The one person I ask/am able to ask to help with my room and my mum yells and screams at him to get out of her house and never come back just because he can't be here tomorrow to help with the move because his sister wants her car back which he is borrowing

how am i supposed to do it now

every time i go in there i get overwhelmed and have a panic attack and we're supposed to be moving tomorrow and my room is no where near done

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My favorite line in Harry Potter. 

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[alexandraagoston]

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1. selfie

2. what would you name your future kids?

3. do you miss anyone?

4. what are you looking forward to?

5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?

6. is it hard for you to get over someone?

7. what was your life like last year?

8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?

9. who did you last see in person?

10. are you good at hiding your feelings?

11. are you listening to music right now?

12. what is something you want right now?

13. how do you feel right now?

15. personality description

16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn't?

17. opinion on insecurities.

18. do you miss how things were a year ago?

19. have you ever been to New York?

20. what is your favourite song at the moment?

21. age and birthday?

22. description of crush.

23. fear(s)

24. height

25. role model

26. idol(s)

27. things i hate

28. i'll love you if...

29. favourite film(s)

30. favourite tv show(s)

31. 3 random facts

33. something you want to learn

34. most embarrassing moment

35. favourite subject

36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?

37. favourite actor/actress

38. favourite comedian(s)

39. favourite sport(s)

40. favourite memory

41. relationship status

42. favourite book(s)

43. favourite song ever

44. age you get mistaken for

45. how you found out about your idol

46. what my last text message says

47. turn ons

48. turn offs

49. where i want to be right now

50. favourite picture of your idol

51. starsign

52. something i'm talented at

53. 5 things that make me happy

54. something thats worrying me at the moment

55. tumblr friends

56. favourite food(s)

57. favourite animal(s)

58. description of my best friend

59. why i joined tumblr

60. ask me anything you want

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