Dr. Hannibal Lecter, M.D.

[lecterslair]

An introduction

Regretfully, I somehow managed to delete my previous account. My lovely H anon, my lovely @spideysharkk, and my other lovely Anonymous people who have sent me messages, I am pained to have lost the rapport we have established with each other. However, I am now back.

I believe an introduction (a re-introduction for those who already know me) is in order: my name is Hannibal Lecter, M.D. I am originally from Lithuania, but I moved here to the United States to pursue a career in medicine. Once I finished medical school, I was a practising doctor and surgeon for a while before pursuing a degree in psychiatry. I now treat patients in therapy, and have been doing so for years.

I hope you will find yourself comfortable here. And please, if any of the Anonymous people from my old account find their way here, I will welcome you with open arms.

OOC: hi! i'm back; i got termed, but i managed to create a new account, and now Hannibal's back in action! i also run @vizlas-retirement and @historyteacheroftheyear :D

tags:

#Hannibal posts - posts made by Hannibal

#Hannibal responds - asks answered by Hannibal

#ooc / #ooc posts / #mod posts - OOC posts

anons: H, 💭, 💾, N, 👽

[lecterslair]

HI DOCTOR LECTER!! Did Doctor do anything interesting recently :3 Shark went to Portugal!! >D< Shark thinking you woulda appreciate more stuff here than Shark :^

Hello, Shark. Long time no see, it seems! Portugal, you say? How wonderful. A beautiful country, although I must confess I have yet to set foot in it. Hopefully, I can go there sometime - your thinking that I may appreciate more stuff there gives me quite a positive impression of the country.

Anything interesting... I would not say I have done anything that could be categorised as particularly interesting to the masses, but I have been spending my days doing things that are of interest to myself, such as cooking, reading, and listening to my classical records. I did purchase a stunning recording of Shostakovich's "Cello Concerto No. 1 in E-flat major, Op. 107"; an incredible listen. It sounds utterly enchanting on the turntable.

Tell me, what did you do in Portugal? Did you do anything interesting?

[lecterslair]

Hello, Dr. Lecter… I’m new here but I was recommended to seek you out. One of your accolades being your uncanny understanding of the human condition.

But I basically wanted to start off with asking… how exactly do you know when something is just a phase or if you’re genuinely interested? -🔮

Well, hello, 🔮. It's always lovely to meet someone new. You were recommended to seek me out, you say? May I ask by whom? Or perhaps we should start with a blank canvas, so to speak. After all, knowing references allows one to form an opinion of their patient without having gotten to know them properly yet.

Now, on to your question. The determiner of something being a genuine interest would be, in my opinion, how often you think about it. Let's say that one is interested in astrophysics. If one occasionally thinks about astrophysics and tells themselves that it would be interesting to study someday, but does not proceed past that point, I would say it is a phase. Now, if one instead thinks of astrophysics frequently, actively attempts to pursue it, reads up on it whenever they can, et cetera, that may very well be a sign of genuine interest.

[lecterslair]

Do you have a favourite type of patient, Dr. Lecter?

Hello, dear Anonymous. A wonderfully inquisitive question. I don't particularly care for choosing favourites when it comes to people, as everyone has their strengths and weaknesses, but I do have a particular soft spot for those deemed "standoffish", or even "insane", by their peers. I do love a good challenge, and part of having a "standoffish" patient can be the challenge of getting through to them and figuring out their inner motivations. And figuring out inner motivations is always quite satisfactory; one establishes a rapport with the patient while finding out what makes them tick. That, I would say, is my favourite type of patient.

[lecterslair]

No scratches. It's nice to sit with someone in silence. Or with someone who shares the same interests. Do you have someone like that, Dr. Lecter?

- 🎬

It's good to hear that no scratches were acquired, dear 🎬. I hope the cat was pleasant silent company.

Yes, it is indeed nice to sit with someone in silence. Moreso if one has such a connection with someone to be able to comfortably enjoy the silence. No one in particular comes to mind when you ask if I have someone like that, but I daresay some of my patients are most wonderful to simply sit in a room with. Mostly the younger ones - they are always so full of so many emotions and have a need to express them. So, when silence befalls them, a form of peace falls over the room. A peace that signals that they are truly comfortable. So I suppose my younger patients would be those I can sit comfortably in silence in a room with.

[lecterslair]

A little bit of a morbid question, but because I appreciated your response to my last message - I thought I might just pick your brain if you’ll allow me to do so.

(All hypothetical, of course)

If someone loves another person so much that they’d kill for them, is it really that bad? And similarly, what if they’d die for them? it fascinates me how something like that is so taboo in a society that prioritizes “relationships”. Which frankly is a loose fitting term, considering the warped standards people have these days. I can’t understand how someone wouldn’t find that to be the most romantic act someone could possibly commit. It showcases devotion in its purest form, and is that not what love is? Devotion?

- 👽

You are very welcome to pick my brain, dear 👽. I find myself quite enjoying it when people challenge me.

Ah, yes. A loaded question. Well, one must take into consideration morality. Morality is extremely subjective, but we seem to have all agreed that killing is bad. And yet, both to sacrifice oneself and to sacrifice someone else for love seem to be common themes in media. I think it lies in the romanticisation of... well, love itself. Love is portrayed as a powerful, everlasting thing, and to such a thing, morality is difficult to apply.

We all have our opinions. I am of the opinion that killing for love could be an act of utmost devotion, as you say - love is devotion, and vice versa. Devotion could very well be love. And I do believe our morals are far more flexible once we have someone to bend our personal rules for. So perhaps it is not the most terrible thing to have known to have happened, killing for love. It is simply a mark of one being so devoted to another that they would forgo social rules and their reputation, two things that are of utmost importance, it seems, to us humans in society. That, I would say, is rather romantic.

[lecterslair]

i see you as my father figure

It seems to be a recurring theme amongst some of my patients, I have observed. Tell me, dear Anonymous, if you do so feel inclined to share, what is it that prompts you to see me as your "father figure"? It is commonly because of a lack of a "true" father figure, I find, at least amongst my patients. But perhaps you have a different reason?

In any case, I am not sure if I should be flattered or not, but I shall take it as a compliment of sorts - it is, to me, somewhat a compliment that one would deem me their father figure, as one being another's father figure implies a high level of trust.

[lecterslair]

Dear Hannibal, I must ask such an accomplished psychiatrist a question on human behavior. Tell me, why must common people cling to ethics, hurt those who dare to question? Do they care not for scientific advancements? Thank you,

@thetruescholar

Ah. A new name in my inbox. How wonderful.

"Common people", as you say, my dear Scholar, cling to ethics for comfort. It is comforting to have "wrong and right" of one's own understanding, to be able to say "I did what I thought was right, what was ethical" in various situations. And they hurt those who dare to question because they do just that - question. People do not like their opinions - for those are, essentially, what ethics are - questioned, their morals challenged.

As for scientific advancements... I have observed that it depends. Some scientific advancements are cared for, while others are not. Ultimately, it comes down to comfort, dear Scholar. But I am curious: why ask about scientific advancements? Do you have scientific advancements in the works?

[thetruescholar]

How pathetic of common people, can they find no comfort in use? Ah, but thank you, I understand further why this world falls to ruin. My existence as a clone, as a scientist, goes against all common ethics hold dear. I am no better than the man who I am cloned from.

I had once been a wonderful engineer, dear doctor. How I once was useful, and rewarded greatly for such. No longer can I study what I wish, no, research in cybernetics is barred by “ethical concerns”. No longer do I have the protection I once did. I learned my lesson well, this world has no place for my studies. For how I have been punished for my studies, I will never walk properly again.

I have another question, dear doctor, why do common people seek to impose their will over my words? Why must they attempt to force such things as love and kindness over me unasked? Why do I go unrespected? Why do they believe such path of life is happiest?

[lecterslair]

No, common people find little comfort in use. But a clone, you say? How fascinating. Tell me, was it a voluntary cloning? A voluntary cybernetic transformation? Something tells me that it perhaps was not, with the way you speak so bitterly of the man you come from.

An engineer. How wonderful. And yes, cybernetics do indeed have ethical concerns. But should that truly stop you from at least mentally conducting research? Cataloguing things mentally about cybernetics and organising them in such a way that your knowledge grows? My memory palace is useful for such a thing as that. Many things, I remember because I have stored them away in my memory palace. Do you have such a thing of your own, dear Scholar? Perhaps that would stave off some ethical concerns. After all, there is no such thing as a thought crime.

But you have been punished, you say. Perhaps you wish to share more about that? My door is always open.

Ah. Yes. I believe common people find comfort in fleeting things. Kindness and love are fleeting, but provide comfort. It is momentary, but it is still comforting. Ergo, common people seek it for a momentary relief from things less comforting, less fleeting. They believe such a path of life is happiest because one cannot see clearly when grasping for a fleeting thing. All that matters in such a moment is managing to grab hold of the fleeting feeling of love and keeping it close for as long as one can. Common people impose their will over your words because that is what is most comforting to them, and they rely on such comfort to live.

[thetruescholar]

My existence is involuntary, as is yours. How the equipment used to grow the flesh I and my brothers are made of is improvement to current.... natural.... practices of similar results. I have no cybernetic enhancements, how ironic to not apply my work to myself, yet I see no purpose to waste such creations on a disposable clone. No matter, the man I am cloned from has failed to hold his end of my loyalty. How shameful he has become, for he has abandoned noble pursuit of science to indulge in more... flesh based desires. He has disgusted me, his boss has disgusted me worse, I refuse to allow myself to fall to the sin of love as they have. And please, Dr Lecter, just Natalia is appropriate to refer to me by.

My work, my methods, they were once truly impressive. I am skilled to dedicate myself fully to my studies. I have dragged many soldiers from the brink of death, ripped from the hands of the reaper if I had must. I have just one question for your solution to my current situation, what scientific benefits are there to thought experimentation? Surely you must understand the importance of the physical aspect of building and testing cybernetics? Ah, no, I should not ask such. You understand the minds of common people more than I ever can. Until proven otherwise, there is certainly no harm to "thought crimes". Thank you.

I find no benefit to kindness nor love, not for I. I have lived my thirty-nine years without desire for such. Love is disease I am made immune to, how I am saddened to watch all who I was loyal to fall to its sickness. For my immunity to such, I am punished. I am deemed heartless and cruel to care only for usefulness and results.

I suppose to those who cannot understand value of use, they cling to such unchartable, fleeting concepts as love. How I wish I only could make others understand the way you have understood me. No matter, if I am not beaten, I am pitied. Neither option is optimal, I can only avoid those who dish me such treatments for so long. Please, Dr Lecter, what must I do to make others understand the value in usefulness!! What must I do to convince such common people that I cannot feel their love nor kindness, how must I phrase myself to prevent their attempts to harm or fix me!

[lecterslair]

Natalia, then. A wonderful name. Its meaning is akin to "birth," no? To my knowledge, at least. Quite fitting for you, I think. Even if not, it is a lovely name.

Yes, an involuntary existence. Although in my case, it is not an entirely unwanted existence. But no cybernetics applied to yourself? Come now, dear Natalia, it would not be a waste. You may be a clone, but I have no doubt that you are wonderful as you are. However... when I take a moment to think about it, I understand why, I suppose; some creations transcend us mortal beings. So perhaps they should not be wasted. I confess, I am quite torn on the subject. I have never encountered things such as cybernetics, you see. I feel as though I must take some time to form an opinion on such a thing. But either way: you are not less worth anything, or "disposable," simply because you are a clone. I have no doubt that you are positively magnificent, and your existence in itself is quite a feat, is it not?

You seem to be quite the hero, if one may allow oneself to call you such, Natalia. Saved soldiers from death, ripped them from the hands of the reaper? How very heroic of you. I applaud your efforts. Humans are so fragile; we need someone to save us from certain things. Thank you for doing so, truly. Now, in terms of scientific benefits, when it comes to thought experimentation... is experimentation not in itself a benefit to scientific study? No matter the experiment, and no matter whether it goes wrong or goes right, it has helped further someone's knowledge in a specific area. In this case, I would certainly say one would be furthering knowledge in scientific pursuits, regardless of whether it is physical experimentation or thought experimentation.

Ah, yes. Humans do tend to see those incapable of love as "heartless". Let me assure you, Natalia, you are neither heartless nor cruel. Finding no benefit in love or kindness is not a weakness. In fact, it may allow you to focus more greatly on your research, no? You should not be punished for such a thing. I promise you, there is no judgment on my side for it. I understand. And I understand that, yes, people cling to the fleeting feeling of love in compensation for not being able to understand people such as you - those who understand the value of knowledge. Unfortunately, I do not think most humans will ever understand the value of usefulness. It is a foreign concept to many; I confess, I was a foreigner to such a thing during my childhood. But I have been... enlightened, perhaps one would call it.

Common people have somewhat of a saviour complex. They strive to save others, most likely to compensate for their lack of being able to save themselves, and their lack of being satisfied simply with who they are. It is a part of human nature. One cannot really prevent it. But rest assured, dear Natalia - I will not attempt to "fix you." You are, in my eyes, wonderful as you are.

[thetruescholar]

How ironic, no? I am not a creature born of a mother, I was incubated within a machine. My existence resembles such of a robot, if not for my flesh based composition.

I know well of such transcendent beings, I will tell you there is little hope for human based lifeforms to fully transcend human desires. I am unsure on my transcendence, I belong not with humanity. Humankind is designed with love and warmth, I know and need nothing of such things.

How sweet of you to recommend self enhancement, you would believe such an injury would be demanding of aid.

She pulls up one side of the hem of her long skirts, up to her stitched up knee. Whatever surgeries had to be done to remake that joint has left it stiff and aching. No pain shows on her face about it, either she can't feel it or she's learned to hide it.

Oh you are much too kind to me, I did only what must be done for largest sample pool of subjects. No injured soldier would refuse my experimentation, if they had such choice at all. My status was earned; I am rightful to enjoy it. I hope those who lost their ideals crumble without my aid. They are undeserving of my efforts.

I find most enjoyment in learning process of my work, such results should be shared. Forbidden knowledge is a concept causing more harm, only dictated by that pesky love of common people. How sad I cannot convince others of such value in their usefulness to this noble cause, no? I was worshipped for my work, demonized for my methods. How pathetic of common people to attempt separation of results from methods.

How inspiring! There is hope for enlightenment in others? How happy I am to hear such! To think I had accepted complacency with factors I could not control, ah thank you for your hope. My work may continue outside walls of mental containment.

At being told she's wonderful as she is, she tries to hide her eyes with the puffy sleeves of her dress shirt. That seems to have touched that abandoned heart of hers.

[lecterslair]

Yes, rather ironic. But it does not take away from the fact that you were born, be it from mother or machine.

Human desires are human desires for a reason. We can do little to transcend them - they are part of us and always will be. But feel no shame for transcending them; one is no less human for not feeling love or warmth. You are simply as you are.

Ah. Would it be appropriate to say that such a stitched-up knee is beautiful? I certainly find it so. Aid is aid, no matter the result. Have surgeries helped with whichever injury you sustained, assuming you did sustain one? I should hope so. Nonetheless, it is beautiful.

Well, now, even if it were simply "what must be done," it is no less heroic. You are most definitely entitled to enjoy your status; status is something to be enjoyed. And, ah, do I sense some anger? It is most justified, I expect. Do not shy away from it if so. Those who lose their ideals or do not see value in your work should know how hurtful it is to your cause, to you. And, indeed, how pathetic. The method is necessary for the result, after all. One cannot separate the two.

There is indeed hope. Perhaps not much, but it is better than no hope at all, is it not? And you are most welcome, although I feel as though I should not entirely take credit. It is simply something I have observed from personal experience. And do not hide your feelings, dear Natalia. You are wonderful as you are, and any reaction you may have to that statement, to such a fact, is a reaction you are well within your rights to have. Certainly, you need not hide anything from me.

[lecterslair]

I’m about to graduate and I’m really scared, any words of encouragement for a future anthropologist? Thanks <3

- 👽

An anthropologist. How wonderful. I wish you much luck in your graduation, and in your academia and work beyond graduation. I trust anthropology is your passion, yes? I hope so, dear 👽; passions are always more entertaining to live one's life by.

You need not be scared, 👽. I am sure everything will go according to plan, and you will find much joy in anthropology.

[lecterslair]

Hello, Doctor. I would just like to share that today I ate a bowl of cashews with raspberries. I thought of your advice while eating it.

Hello, dear Anonymous. That is wonderful to hear. Hopefully my advice has been of some use to you. Even if not, I am glad to hear you were able to eat something - even as small as cashews and raspberries. Small steps lead to grand results, after all.

[lecterslair]

you have the most unusual people in your inbox dr lecter. do you often attract strange and interesting people

I would not call them particularly... unusual. Rather interesting, as you say. And I suppose I often attract such people, being in my line of work as a psychiatrist. However, that does not mean I do not enjoy it; rather, I find conversations with interesting and somewhat strange people to be the most productive.

[lecterslair]

Hannibal. I believe I'm in Midgard now. Huh. It took an eternity and no time at all.

Ah, dear Hel. I was wondering when I would next hear from you. How wonderful to hear that you are in Midgard. On Earth. May I ask how you managed to get here? I am most fascinated by the idea itself. To be able to travel through different realms... it is beyond most human comprehension.

Regardless, it is wonderful to know you are here on Earth. Perhaps I should prepare for a dinner party; we discussed such a thing a while ago, did we not? I would be honoured to cook for you. Consider it a warm welcome to Midgard, my dear Hel.

[lecterslair]

So it is. But I have no desire to change it. I'm not satisfied nor motivated.

It was an orange cat with bright yellow eyes. It's a stray in the area, not very friendly but not hostile. I found it lazing and sat down with it for awhile. Showered it with attention. I don't really know what I was doing. I don't encounter animals often. I tried lifting it and almost got bitten. I did manage the second time around though.

- 🎬

Ah, yes. A lack of motivation. I confess, I find myself thinking in a similar way; I am not motivated enough to change my ways for the time being.

An orange cat. How wonderful. And bright yellow eyes, you say? That sounds positively beautiful, dear 🎬. Sitting down with it must have been quite calming, yes? I know I, myself, would certainly find it calming to simply sit with it. I find it quite tranquil in general to sit with a companion; if one truly finds comfort in one's companion, the silence is not awkward.

I hope the cat did not hurt you. "Almost" bitten implies that it got close. Perhaps it gave you a scratch? I hope not.

[lecterslair]

Dear Hannibal, I must ask such an accomplished psychiatrist a question on human behavior. Tell me, why must common people cling to ethics, hurt those who dare to question? Do they care not for scientific advancements? Thank you,

@thetruescholar

Ah. A new name in my inbox. How wonderful.

"Common people", as you say, my dear Scholar, cling to ethics for comfort. It is comforting to have "wrong and right" of one's own understanding, to be able to say "I did what I thought was right, what was ethical" in various situations. And they hurt those who dare to question because they do just that - question. People do not like their opinions - for those are, essentially, what ethics are - questioned, their morals challenged.

As for scientific advancements... I have observed that it depends. Some scientific advancements are cared for, while others are not. Ultimately, it comes down to comfort, dear Scholar. But I am curious: why ask about scientific advancements? Do you have scientific advancements in the works?

[thetruescholar]

How pathetic of common people, can they find no comfort in use? Ah, but thank you, I understand further why this world falls to ruin. My existence as a clone, as a scientist, goes against all common ethics hold dear. I am no better than the man who I am cloned from.

I had once been a wonderful engineer, dear doctor. How I once was useful, and rewarded greatly for such. No longer can I study what I wish, no, research in cybernetics is barred by “ethical concerns”. No longer do I have the protection I once did. I learned my lesson well, this world has no place for my studies. For how I have been punished for my studies, I will never walk properly again.

I have another question, dear doctor, why do common people seek to impose their will over my words? Why must they attempt to force such things as love and kindness over me unasked? Why do I go unrespected? Why do they believe such path of life is happiest?

[lecterslair]

No, common people find little comfort in use. But a clone, you say? How fascinating. Tell me, was it a voluntary cloning? A voluntary cybernetic transformation? Something tells me that it perhaps was not, with the way you speak so bitterly of the man you come from.

An engineer. How wonderful. And yes, cybernetics do indeed have ethical concerns. But should that truly stop you from at least mentally conducting research? Cataloguing things mentally about cybernetics and organising them in such a way that your knowledge grows? My memory palace is useful for such a thing as that. Many things, I remember because I have stored them away in my memory palace. Do you have such a thing of your own, dear Scholar? Perhaps that would stave off some ethical concerns. After all, there is no such thing as a thought crime.

But you have been punished, you say. Perhaps you wish to share more about that? My door is always open.

Ah. Yes. I believe common people find comfort in fleeting things. Kindness and love are fleeting, but provide comfort. It is momentary, but it is still comforting. Ergo, common people seek it for a momentary relief from things less comforting, less fleeting. They believe such a path of life is happiest because one cannot see clearly when grasping for a fleeting thing. All that matters in such a moment is managing to grab hold of the fleeting feeling of love and keeping it close for as long as one can. Common people impose their will over your words because that is what is most comforting to them, and they rely on such comfort to live.

[thetruescholar]

My existence is involuntary, as is yours. How the equipment used to grow the flesh I and my brothers are made of is improvement to current.... natural.... practices of similar results. I have no cybernetic enhancements, how ironic to not apply my work to myself, yet I see no purpose to waste such creations on a disposable clone. No matter, the man I am cloned from has failed to hold his end of my loyalty. How shameful he has become, for he has abandoned noble pursuit of science to indulge in more... flesh based desires. He has disgusted me, his boss has disgusted me worse, I refuse to allow myself to fall to the sin of love as they have. And please, Dr Lecter, just Natalia is appropriate to refer to me by.

My work, my methods, they were once truly impressive. I am skilled to dedicate myself fully to my studies. I have dragged many soldiers from the brink of death, ripped from the hands of the reaper if I had must. I have just one question for your solution to my current situation, what scientific benefits are there to thought experimentation? Surely you must understand the importance of the physical aspect of building and testing cybernetics? Ah, no, I should not ask such. You understand the minds of common people more than I ever can. Until proven otherwise, there is certainly no harm to "thought crimes". Thank you.

I find no benefit to kindness nor love, not for I. I have lived my thirty-nine years without desire for such. Love is disease I am made immune to, how I am saddened to watch all who I was loyal to fall to its sickness. For my immunity to such, I am punished. I am deemed heartless and cruel to care only for usefulness and results.

I suppose to those who cannot understand value of use, they cling to such unchartable, fleeting concepts as love. How I wish I only could make others understand the way you have understood me. No matter, if I am not beaten, I am pitied. Neither option is optimal, I can only avoid those who dish me such treatments for so long. Please, Dr Lecter, what must I do to make others understand the value in usefulness!! What must I do to convince such common people that I cannot feel their love nor kindness, how must I phrase myself to prevent their attempts to harm or fix me!

[lecterslair]

Natalia, then. A wonderful name. Its meaning is akin to "birth," no? To my knowledge, at least. Quite fitting for you, I think. Even if not, it is a lovely name.

Yes, an involuntary existence. Although in my case, it is not an entirely unwanted existence. But no cybernetics applied to yourself? Come now, dear Natalia, it would not be a waste. You may be a clone, but I have no doubt that you are wonderful as you are. However... when I take a moment to think about it, I understand why, I suppose; some creations transcend us mortal beings. So perhaps they should not be wasted. I confess, I am quite torn on the subject. I have never encountered things such as cybernetics, you see. I feel as though I must take some time to form an opinion on such a thing. But either way: you are not less worth anything, or "disposable," simply because you are a clone. I have no doubt that you are positively magnificent, and your existence in itself is quite a feat, is it not?

You seem to be quite the hero, if one may allow oneself to call you such, Natalia. Saved soldiers from death, ripped them from the hands of the reaper? How very heroic of you. I applaud your efforts. Humans are so fragile; we need someone to save us from certain things. Thank you for doing so, truly. Now, in terms of scientific benefits, when it comes to thought experimentation... is experimentation not in itself a benefit to scientific study? No matter the experiment, and no matter whether it goes wrong or goes right, it has helped further someone's knowledge in a specific area. In this case, I would certainly say one would be furthering knowledge in scientific pursuits, regardless of whether it is physical experimentation or thought experimentation.

Ah, yes. Humans do tend to see those incapable of love as "heartless". Let me assure you, Natalia, you are neither heartless nor cruel. Finding no benefit in love or kindness is not a weakness. In fact, it may allow you to focus more greatly on your research, no? You should not be punished for such a thing. I promise you, there is no judgment on my side for it. I understand. And I understand that, yes, people cling to the fleeting feeling of love in compensation for not being able to understand people such as you - those who understand the value of knowledge. Unfortunately, I do not think most humans will ever understand the value of usefulness. It is a foreign concept to many; I confess, I was a foreigner to such a thing during my childhood. But I have been... enlightened, perhaps one would call it.

Common people have somewhat of a saviour complex. They strive to save others, most likely to compensate for their lack of being able to save themselves, and their lack of being satisfied simply with who they are. It is a part of human nature. One cannot really prevent it. But rest assured, dear Natalia - I will not attempt to "fix you." You are, in my eyes, wonderful as you are.

[willgrahamsballsack]

thank you for the tag!! @armadillocrossing (restarting it over so the post won't get too long)

favorite movie, favorite album, favorite book, & a song lyric that describes you!

tagging: @tiredegggo @shagaraldurr @challengers @will-grahams-larynx @willgrahamsdivacup @willgrahamsprostate @hannibalshairytits

[willgrahamsprostate]

Thank you so much for the tag @willgrahamsballsack, ily <3

Tagging (no pressure ofc <3): @hannibalshairytits @hanniballectersuncutcock @cl1ffs @the-cookie-monster-tm @bespeluha @tiredegggo @asadstatue @willgrahamsupperlip @willgrahamscervix @ephemeratal @challengers

[cl1ffs]

Appreciate the tag. :)

[ Feel free to do IC, OOC or to ignore it entirely. :> Anyone else interested is also welcome to join in. ] Tagging: @w00den-antlers @little-pink-ribbon @1nvictus @author-aiden-galvin @sleeping-with-shadows @l0st-1n-space @through-the-starz @feline-in-a-bowtie @tours-by-adam @hunteddoe @angeliclooms @spideysharkk @straysandempathy @behindthecounter @vizlas-retirement @historyteacheroftheyear @lecterslair @sad-snail @helachill @chiltonpsych @starlit-adam @the-dr-butterfly @tattledtales @houroftickingtime @miss-bedelia-du-maurier @margot-darling @spaceman-raki @respect-the-tats

[helachill]

favourite movie: carol (2015). lesbians. cate blanchett

favourite album: lana del rey's born to die. first album i had cds of

favourite book: the last one i really enjoyed was Lorelou Desjardins' How To Be Norwegian

song lyrics: "Say my name / and every colour illuminates / we are shining" (spectrum by florence + the machine) because i feel like a rainbow, prism of colours

tagging: @lecterslair @spideysharkk <3

[lecterslair]

Ah, what a wonderful little game. I shall add my two cents.

Favourite film: Quite a difficult question - there are many films I enjoy. However, as of the current moment, I will have to go with "12 Angry Men".

Favourite album: "Piano Concerto in E Major" by Moritz Moszkowski. The sheet music is something to marvel at, and hearing it played is simply wonderful.

Favourite book: I will have to say "The Divine Comedy" for this one, by Dante Alighieri. It is a book that has followed me throughout my life and been with me in various stages of my personal journeys. It is also simply an incredible story, erring on the right side of autobiographical.

Song lyrics: "It's strange what desire will make foolish people do," from the song "Wicked Game" by Chris Isaak.

[lecterslair]

Thank you for the advice. I don't wanna make a sign-off because I am almost ashamed of this eating disorder (I starve myself. I'll try the almonds I think) of mine... I think I just needed to hear (well, read) someone acknowledge it. Thanks once again.

Of course. You need not be ashamed, but it is understandable. Eating disorders are a problem for many people, yet there is such a stigma surrounding them that the shame those with them feel is not surprising.

But yes, please, try the almonds. I can also recommend other nuts, such as cashews or walnuts, and fruits and berries, such as an apple, dates, or blueberries. The apple may be a bit much to start with, but blueberries are quite a safe bet, as you can simply eat a small handful.

Anytime, dear Anonymous. And if it is of any encouragement, I, for one, will not judge you if you do decide to make a sign-off. I would simply consider it an act of trust for you to allow me to peek into what type of person you are (as I consider these emoticons people choose for themselves to be somewhat representative of one's personality). However, do not feel any pressure; my door is open to anyone, sign-off or not. You are very welcome, my dear Anonymous.

[lecterslair]

Late response. Apologies. I have been well. Nothing much happening in my life either beyond the usual. Wake up. Clock in. Clock out. Bed. A monotonous routine. Am I happy? Up for debate. There is comfort in predictability yet time has been slipping away from me. 7AM looks no different from 7PM.

I saw a cat today. On my way to work.

- 🎬

It is perfectly all right, my dear 🎬. Monotony has found me in these past few weeks, too. There is nothing wrong with it. In my own case, while I cannot say I find happiness in said monotony, I am quite at ease. It is not so taxing, having a monotonous routine, which I greatly appreciate.

Ah, yes. Time does have the tendency to slip from one's grasp in monotony, does it not? Everything blends together, and one loses track of the times of day. I, too, find myself having trouble discerning between the A.M. times and P.M. times. They seem so frightfully similar.

How wonderful. Tell me, what did the cat look like? I trust it was beautiful. People have the tendency to more greatly wish to talk about things they see when going through the motions if said things are easy on the eyes.