They got a lot of fuckin' balls expecting and demanding non-violence when people are forced to suffer an incredible amount of un-fuckin-bearable, inhumane shit.
Idk what it is about Andrea’s cooking, but his food is like crack. Especially since he understood how much garlic I eat. That just upped his culinary game.
Also, he’s caught on to how to make Korean food and now I’m worried he’s going to outdo me at my own game, but is that really a bad thing?
I slept really well last night (like 7.5 hours without waking up in a sweat and getting up without an alarm and feeling well-rested) after finding out that I could take my time going home and then woke up this morning feeling a little bit shite about being relieved about the whole situation.
Anyway, I think life is telling me to go to NY? Maybe? Because apparently my New York State license renewal reminder came in the mail a couple days ago, so I took five minutes to renew my license there this morning, so if California doesn’t need anybody, I can hit NY when school is out if they still need nurses out there.
After renewing my license, I put NYC on the table to my recruiter once uni is over with. We’ll see what comes of it. I could probably head back in August since exams have been pushed back throughout July, instead of skipping all my exams and heading back at the end of June if nurses are being called off nationwide.
I imagine things will change when things open up further.
I feel like I can finally relax and not live in this guilt of not being a helping hand in all this mess.
My recruiter just contacted me today and told me that there aren’t really any needs for nurses back in the U.S. right now. I’m not sure how accurate that is with the current pandemic (so how the COVID units are doing), but census is low all across the country and nurses are being called off since no one is going to the hospital.
Can I... just... live according to my previous plan of staying here until September to finish out exams and whatnot? Is that moral? Like, is it true that there aren’t a need for nurses right now? Can I just live my life as a student without feeling this looming sense of responsibility to go back?
Italy is starting a slight loosening of the full lockdown starting tomorrow. My friends back home are just wary of it; many of them believe that people will exaggerate from being locked down for so long and a second wave will hit, so the lockdown measures will be imposed again.
I think about the fact that I nearly fucking stayed in my tiny house in Italy without understanding how bad it was going to get, and it was only because Andrea convinced me to go with him to his house in the Netherlands until uni opened back up because of how racist it was getting in my village that I am here now, and I am incredibly fucking lucky.
We can still go out when we want and legally we can still see other people outside of our house as long as we are maintaining a distance (we don’t see anyone, but), and of course, I’m not by myself. I have more space to myself and I’m still able to interact with Andrea and his housemate, which is more than I can say for literally everyone else at home.
A world-renowned virologist held a seminar online for my uni last week and she said that Italy could not rely on the EU for financial assistance. (The proposed measures for the coronabonds are being blocked by the governments of the Netherlands, Germany, etc. the countries that don’t need financial aid, of course).
She stated that in her opinion, the practical thing to do is to cautiously open things back up again and have people who are more vulnerable to COVID-19 quarantine themselves and to have the economy restart by the healthy and young and able. Not because economy is everything (!!!), but because in order to be able to have a healthcare system that will have the resources to take care of the people who will inevitably get sick (Italy is wonderful because healthcare is a right not a privilege), and to have pensions that are paid out to the elderly so they are able to survive, etc., the economy needs to be restarted; there needs to be money since the EU seems to stand against the “coronabonds”. (Where the fuck is your humanity, honestly.)
This is in light of the fact that it’s either that or you take loans from the EU with austerity measures as strings attached, and we all know how that goes. (cuts in healthcare, education, all them necessary social programs; FUCK austerity measures).
It doesn’t seem to matter that the powerhouse in question was relieved of some of their debt after WWII despite, yaknow, Fascism/Nazism and the murders of millions of people, so that they could rebuild; but this pandemic isn’t a good enough reason to find some sort of fucking humanity to help out. I mean.
Stay safe out there, friends. Truly. Maintain your distance, wear your masks, quarantine yourself if you feel even slightly sick, wash your hands with soap CONSTANTLY, and don’t put other people at risk.
We finally got our 50kg of pasta today! It only took a month, but now every available storage space that we had is filled with our favorite kinds of pasta!
Andrea and I had only Korean meals today, cooked by yours truly. A couple of months of being forced to stay at home and access to Korean ingredients has done wonders and ya girl is domestic.
Truly believed that cooking was just one of those things that I could never really get no matter how hard I tried until I just broke through this barrier I made for myself and I am so stoked. Andrea is an excellent, truly excellent, cook and he was always the one to cook and I to clean up afterwards and I love his food, but I thought his culinary skills were just natural-born (which they are) and unattainable by a kitchen dumbass like myself.
But! It turns out, like the breakthrough I had maintaining a clean and tidy house several years ago when all of a sudden it was no longer such a hard, energy-consuming thing to do, cooking is fun and all of a sudden easy and just requires a lot of tasting and trial and error and thinking about what could be done to improve the error and remembering mama’s food and what ingredients do what.
Also, what a pleasure it is to cook for someone else without feeling the stress or panic that the food may be inedible, lol. Food is an act of love in my family and it’s nice to be able to express that.
Got Andrea to do some yoga with me today and knew we were in trouble when he started sounding like he was giving birth when we started in child's pose 😂.
Thank goodness I am in quarantine with Bae and not by myself in my tiny house.
Also very exciting. My swiss gomo (aunt in Switzerland) also just pot some kimchi this weekend! I think our blood is calling to store up as much food as possible, hahahaha.
Spent the better part of the day making kimchi with Bae; first time doing it as the Boss and the first time making them with Andrea. Is this adulting?
I’m not sure how it will turn out because we used somewhat unfamiliar ingredients without a clear idea of what portions mama always uses, but I think also mama cooks by feel rather than actual measurements, so I hope I do my ancestors right.
Anyway, it smells okay and tastes familiar though spicier and a bit saltier than I’m used to. The chili pepper powder is a Korean brand, but I forgot to check where they were grown when shopping and they are much spicier (and darker in color) than the ones we smuggle from Korea, so we’ll see how it turns out.
We just repurposed the old peanut butter jars Andrea has gone through and one blackberry jam jar, so we made a deal that every time we have another couple empty large jars, we’re going to pot another round of kimchi. The fridge is small so we only had space to pot one cabbage and one radish to make 3.5 small jars, but we alternate between eating Korean and Italian food, so I think we can pot enough to keep up with our appetite.
Drea thinks we can sell these for 20 euros a pop, considering we spent 7 euros on a tiny packet from the supermarket when we needed a handful of kimchi to make some shit some time back that was gross with no flavor or juice :/.
It’s nice to be able to do things with our hands when we spend the majority of our day reading or working in front of a screen.
:D Quarantine life is looking up. Tonight, we are handmaking mandoo (dumplings) for mandoo gook (dumpling soup) for dinner!
Cut Andrea’s hair the other day. First time cutting hair like totally on my own and did a damn good job, I think. I mean, clearly amateur, but he looks presentable. Now it’s his turn to cut my hair :D
Is that a good idea or have we just been in quarantine for too long?
I woke up to a few Whatsapp messages previews from a friend who was telling me her parents were both COVID-positive and one had ended up in the hospital and my heart dropped straight down to the ground floor. I opened up the messages in a fucking panic slapping Bae awake, but both parents are okay and survived and back home and she’s doing well.
I had planned on going back to the U.S. later this fall to start work before the pandemic hit, but I may have to try to move shit around and go back and work a little bit earlier if I can manage. Seems pretty irresponsible of me to continue living my “idyllic” (albeit quarantined) student life when I am technically a nurse and could help out immensely back home.
I’ll have to figure out the logistics though, I think. The Bay Area apparently has gotten things under control and if I’m working, I refuse to live with the ‘rents to protect them from getting infected, so maybe I can try to renew my NY state license and do some work where it’s actually needed. I gotta figure it out. The ‘rents are dead set on me not coming back to the U.S. until the crisis passes, but 1, can I really sit out with a health moral conscience? Fuck no. 2, I needed cash anyway to save up for grad school and had planned on working this year again, so... what’s holding me back? (Besides fear of death, having to finish out school, and all my shit in a house I am currently unable to move out of).
Anyway, I need to:
at least finish out my lessons and the initial exams I can get at the start of the summer, otherwise I will never graduate
be present to get my permesso di soggiorno so that I can return to Europe as a student, legally
figure out a way to move all my belongings out of the house I have leased once the quarantine in Italy lets up
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