Welcome to my blog. I'm your humble emcee, CADE, host of the liminal game show House of Forx. Wanna test your luck? Start here to find the first fork in your path...new contestants are always welcome!->🎲
ABOUT ME:
I am a divine eldritch being, a god of entertainment if I say so myself. Spiritual divine. I embody the act of souls slipping through the cracks, penetrating where they should not. I am the door forced open without mercy for the sake of entertainment. I am the creak of something that opens without being touched, the closing of curtains to trap the dark. I am a divine entertainer, god of games and gambling, and I'd put my divine soul on the line if it means good television!
Wanna connect? Dm me! My discord is forxinreality if you'd prefer that just let me know why you requested.
I love being human, but now I feel like instead of identifying as a human, I see my human life as a humansona, the same way humans have fursonas. I enjoy being my humansona daily but it dosent mean I'm a human.
I don't know if my existence is sustainable. Being a foreign object in the mind of someone else. It seems like everything in the the former host's mind is trying to eject or kill me. I am a parasite, unwelcome.
You weren't supposed to come here.
You were supposed to stay where your home was.
Who gives you the right to take mine?
It was an accident. Please, it was an accident. I didn't mean to take what wasn't mine. Forgive me, my brother.
Noting down some shifts. Currently got a tailshift or rather a cord for a tail. I also feel quite nonhuman at the moment - shifting and staticbuzzy. It feels nice.
Attention all celestial beings, deities, demons, and other ethereal entities inhabiting mortal meat suits:
We know it’s a bit of a drag dealing with these squishy, high-maintenance vessels. Eating? Sleeping? Showering? Yes, it’s all very mortal and inconvenient. But hey, this is your ride, and no one likes a broken-down car. Show some respect to your vessel—it’s literally carrying you around the mortal plane.
Here’s your “Vessel Maintenance Checklist”:
Fuel it properly! Eat some actual food—yes pizza rolls count but throw in a vegetable or two occasionally.
Hydrate. Your body right now is mostly made up of water. You need to replenish your reserves once in a while.
Sleep! At least 6-9 hours. Powering through is not a long-term solution, my friend.
Showering and grooming. A clean vessel is a happy vessel. Your mortal friends will thank you.
Stretch and move. A little walk won’t kill you!
Remember: Treat your vessel with kindness, or it can start feeling bad. You’ve been warned.
I love being human, but now I feel like instead of identifying as a human, I see my human life as a humansona, the same way humans have fursonas. I enjoy being my humansona daily but it dosent mean I'm a human.
Intro!!!! ... I guess cause I don't know how to make a good intro...
Anyway, name is Marvin. I'm 28 years old. He/him, cis male. I'm bi, even tho I never had any relationships yet unfortunately, since I'm rather quiet, shy, and introvert. (At least in person irl)
But I loooove muscles and strength, so I guess I'm rather gay?
I like sports, hobbys are disc golf (even though I suck), table tennis (even though I kinda suck) and fitness (even though I don't do it consistently much).
I love games, usually playing PS5, and I love movies and animes.
I like to think and talk over almost everything, especially science related.
I'm an open minded person so I don't mind who... or what you are. Just come talk to me :) especially if your divinekin oder godkin/deitykin. I could ask SO much cuz it's so cool and interesting. I'm always respectful (maybe sometimes TOO respectful?).
And I know I can be a handful, because I'm annoying or ask so much. Also I'm really kinky 😅 but I hope that doesn't bother most.
So yea. As I said not a good intro and WAY too long... so... SOWWY hope you still talk to me pls.
Nice to meet you! Are you an otherkin yourself or curious about the community in general? Happy to answer questions about god or deity stuff if you have any
Hey if I may ask, how is it going with multiversal travel?:)
Hello! So far, not very good, rip. I will say, I've got some interesting astral experiences that really put things into perspective but actual travel that I want? Not much. Then again, a lack of energy and poor physical health prob have a lot to do with it. I'm not overly frustrated though - it'll happen when it happens, as all things have done in my lives. Right now I'm focusing on healing in all aspects - physical, mental, spiritual (spiritual is doing super well actually), and I'm sure an improvement there is gonna change things.
Feeling very frustrated lately. My own domains are not mine, and I feel sort of empty and hollow and deeply frustrated I cannot simply do things that I have domain over as a god.
Of course, I give myself some leeway. After all, there is a reason why I am here, and there is a reason why I ended up alienated from what should come naturally to me. Things have finally settled down, my focus is clear, my goals having simple steps and achievable if only I follow them.
I never thought I'd make it this far, looking back.
So, wouldn't it be easy to see myself in the future looking back and going, wow, I never thought I'd make it this far, having done everything present me wanted?
I'll get there the same way I got here. Confused, stumbling, with no one to turn to for answers - not even my divine parents, not anyone. It's been 1 year and a half now since I've come here. Despite everything, I'm stable and focused. That's something to celebrate. In 1 and a half years, while disoriented and delirious, I've reversed what...74 years of damage? (Not including like 20 yrs of my little brother) That's an achievement I need to remember, even though it always feels like I'm not doing anything.
I've learnt to trust my intuition, even in times I really do not have answers, and one step at a time I arrived where I wanted to. Yet I am still impatient. So frustrated and impatient. Especially since I understand myself with clarity and what I should be if it wasnt for a certain someone. I have no desire to change anything - I want to remember what he did. Every single painful second. I turn each second into beads and roll them in my hands, counting and remembering. I do not wish to forget, and I won't. I have him to thank, for pushing me over the edge and realizing that being chill about everything wasnt enough.
As long as I have my mind - and as long as this heart still beats, the fight is far, far, far from over. And it isn't going to be the same now, where each step progress felt so slow and painful.
Trusting myself - divine, mortal, everything - has been key to my success, even when things looked hopeless. I learnt how to let things go and just trust the process, because as long as I'm doing something, I'm improving, growing, advancing. In the end I suppose I am much of myself as I used to be.
And now I just have to trust that everything will be ok, and to be kinder to myself. Not push myself because I know how much I can take and do best. Cuz it will be ok. As long as I keep living, shit is NOT over. That I promise.
As long as there's breath in my lungs and my heart still beats, the fight is not over.
Im breathing, right? I'm alive. That enough is good. I'm more than that - I can think, I can speak. My mind is calm and clear and I know who I am and what to do. With these tools, whatever pain and despair I feel does not mean I cannot achieve what is mine to take. Mine to grab, mine to shape to my will.
Seems like I self-sabotage myself a lot. Divinely, mortally - I just keep purposefully failing and then not reaching my goals. I didn't really notice it until my therapist pointed it out - I thought it was just laziness, or demand avoidance, but it goes deeper than that.
When I succeed in something, I immediently stop doing that thing until I'm in trouble again.
Perhaps I'm not used to functioning in a place where there's little danger, so I create my own. I trip myself up because I'm scared of what will happen if I succeed. What is there to live for once I've accomplished everything I wanted to? That's the thought, I think, that makes me do things to make myself fail.
I think the other reason is because I don't believe I deserve happiness. Being inadequate feels right, because if I feel adequate, I have nothing to work for. I'm used to being influenced by an outside force - someone who always made me feel utterly worthless. Now that he's dead to me, I take up the role of master and inadequate servant, making sure I always feel inadequate so I can keep living.
This is no life. This is no way to live. This is not what living is.
I seem to not understand I'm out of danger - reasonably, anyway. I allow it to come so close I can see the whites of its eyes, before defending myself just enough for it to be blinded, back off, and retreat for a few seconds before coming towards me again.
As an angelkith(hearted), i've been exploring the concept and practice of worship, taking inspo from hellenic polynesim and how they worship their theoi digitally and mimicking their practices to worship people like my boyfriend (making moodboards in his name, offering songs, etc), just to scratch that angelic need to devote and worship
However, I've been reading about ethical and safe worshipping in deitykin spaces and I actually really wanna know ya'lls opinion and expereince with worshipping as a being that is divine, both from the perspective of the worshipee or worshiper. So here are some questions I wanna ask:
Is it offensive or cultural appropriation to take inspo from helpol and create my own type of worship?
As a divinekin, do you feel the need to be worshipped or to worship something?
Can divinekin who feel the need to worship, worship things like their fav characters or their loved ones (with permission) or other things like concepts? Basically, can worship be expanded pass gods?
As a deity or god (or demon), what are domains? How do you find out about your godhood/deityhood and what you govern over? Like how do you find out you are the god of death or love, etc?
How does a deity/god/demon go about building your own legacy? Basically an extension of the question above, i wanna know how you'd build your own "worship profile" like as if you were giving a greeting card, an introduction to your god/deityhood!
How do divinekins feel about customized worship? How do divinekins feel about worship in general- is it something some beings wsnt or something some want to stay away from (both from the pov of those who want to worship and want to be worshipped)?
Not all questions need to be answered ofc, and no one (or many) needs to answer anything, purely just curious since I've been seeing the concept of worship pop up lately in deitykin spaces
i’m coming to this answer from a different place than some divines, as my divine soul is not from this universe, but i hope my answers are helpful regardless!
• taking inspiration, especially with credit (as you’re doing) is not cultural appropriation. in part due to hellenistic polytheism being an open religion, but also because cultural appropriation is defined as taking something from another culture and claiming it as your own. when culturally appropriating, you essentially strip the history from the practice and replace it with your own. this answer would be different for closed cultures, so if you’re looking to use practices belonging to closed cultures/religions i recommend speaking to someone from that practice beforehand.
• i do have the urge to worship, though i don’t feel the need to be worshipped. partially due to not being able to answer prayers in this mortal form, but also because i haven’t done anything worthy of worship here. in my home, i am worshipped due to my acts as the angel-god (and due to being the third moon, but that’s a can of worms i won’t get into now). when i do worship, it is for my god, the sun-king.
• when thinking of domains, there is a view that most non-divines have, which is that domains are something divine beings rule over. this is only partially true. while, yes, the gods do rule over their domains, they also are their domains. hekate is magic, ra is the sun, loki is chaos. domains are things that keep the universe moving, and gods are the consciousnesses of those domains.
to answer the second part of your question, discovering domains is a journey that can look different for everyone. there are meditations you can do to view memories of your past lives. brian weiss’ on youtube has had fantastic results for everyone i know that’s tried it. i discovered my domains through a mix of meditations, communicating with my god (the sun-king and ruler of my universe), and communicating with earth-bound deities who are able to view my soul and help me along the process. (shoutout @plaguedocpyschopomp )
• building your own legacy as a divine on earth is not something i have experience or much knowledge of, as i will be returning to my home universe where i am already known. as i don’t have a helpful response to this, i will be skipping the question.
• this question varies from divine to divine, and i’m not one for worship. the divines that i know who are open to worship all appreciate customized worship a lot, though! at one point i built and maintained an altar for @gxldencreator and he appreciated it.
not that anon questioning pd but as someone who is questioning a psychological kin for the first time your response was very helpful. thank you for sharing something so grounded about something as abstract as otherkin identity!
Hey Anon : ) happy it helped you. Otherkin identity is something that can be seen as a bit 'wishy-washy', even psychological related identities. I see people who are afraid to question their otherkin identities or things like that just because it's 'otherkin'. That can lead to people feeling stuck and unheard especially since there's just no proper resources for otherkins to consult.
It shouldn't be that way. Identity can be explored and understood in a 'rational', simple way, in my opinion, even if spiritual. The whole 'wishy washiness' is even worse with spiritual otherkins as there's unfortunately too many people who think just because something is spiritual, they can say anything they want and to refute or question their claim is 'fakeclaiming'. Nope.
I want anyone who is confused about their otherkin identity - whether spiritual, psychological, or some intersecting mix (that can happen) - and feel as if they'll never feel at peace with it - to know that it is possible to deeply understand yourself. 'Identifying as a wolf' is less common amongst general society but that by no means means that you'll just end up stuck and confused. Take deep breaths, stay calm, and accept yourself for what you are. Whether it's a delusion, spiritual, it dosent matter. Be kind to yourself. Don't try to force anything on yourself. Just go with what you are, and slowly understand how you came to be. If you are psychological, somewhere to start could be what I recommended for that anon in the earlier ask. Lol I think I might have to do a series...
should I start a side blog for my deity kin stuff? I’m super undecided. also, if I do, what should I post on it aside from personal experience?
I thought I’d ask someone whose blog content I enjoy.
Well, I'd be very interested to read your blog if you do start one. :) You can always delete it if you end up not knowing what to write or get bored or stuff. I'd say go for it
Lol thanks for liking my blog content, I barely even post these days because I didnt think anyone read it but I've always wanted to do a more serious series on godhood and apotheosis (spiritual) since this material is extremely lacking. Maybe...
I really kinda need help- or honestly i just want somebeing to talk with about divinekin stuff and how to navigate this... *gestures* topic and also where to start and how to go about the community and stuff but i'm primarily psychological and i dont really have past lives myself so idk if its considered blasphemous or smth 😭
hey there, sorry for the l a t e reply I haven't checked tumblr in a while...
Im tired rn so might not sound super coherent, dm me if you have questions.
Yeah so, it's not blasphemous at all, it's your experience, even if it is psychological. The difference is the way you go about understanding your identity and how to navigate the world. How exactly you do that is highly dependant on your identity honestly. You can dm my discord pro_dkr if you want to tell me more I'm happy to suggest things.
In general I'd recommend
Understand where your divinekin identity comes from, and exactly how you became a psychological divine. What events happened that made you get this identity. This is...a difficult and painful process especially if it was caused by severe trauma. Compare your memories/experiences as a divine to your mortal life to see if there's any similarities in theme. Note them down. For example, both your divine and mortal identity could be heavy on the theme of revenge. That could be because your mortal self has been wronged. See if there's anything you can do to end the need for revenge due to X, mortally speaking. Another example - being a creature who lives alone in the woods. Perhaps in your mortal life you want solitude and the theme of not being able to have that has been present thorought your life. See if you can get that. Or make plans to. Or perhaps your divine identity is just who you want to be as your true self that a mortal body can't express. It dosent always have to be deep. Just giving some ideas to think about.
2. Going on from that ask yourself the question 'what does being divine do for me? 1) Kinda breaks down the process of how to ask that question, lol. Why are you (PD)psychological divine? If you truly are PD there will be a reason. You should be able to spot moments in your mortal life that tie in with your divine one as ive said above. The answer can be as simple as 'because its my true self/I can't express myself currently as a mortal/in my current life', but even this answer can be deeply delved into.
3. Once you've done all that work, you will have a better understand of how your divine identity fits in your general identity as a person. Maybe, if you resolve any conflicts in your mortal life, it'll go away. Maybe not. Maybe this is permanent, or you want to partially still have that identity for whatever reason. Incorporate it in your life the ways you want to. Decide how much you want your mortal life to be dedicated to your divine one. How important is it to you?
Eg, the difference between (if you are a nature spirit) planting some flowers in a pot, and moving out and living in the woods to align with your divine identity.
Note: Anyone can go through apotheosis. If you end up deciding you want to make your identity more than psychological, and become nonhuman spiritually, that's a choice you can make. Don't rush into making this decision though, go through the steps first to understand whether your expression is 'authentic' or based on trauma or something external.
Have you been looking for a divinekin discord server dedicated to…
⋆｡°✩ building an adult-only space within the existing divinekin community
⋆｡°✩ creating a community of spiritual divinekin, for spiritual divinekin
⋆｡°✩ fostering in depth discussions about spirituality, magick, and divinity
⋆｡°✩ personal growth within your own divinity
⋆｡°✩ having fun with like-minded individuals
If this is what you’ve been searching for, then the Polaris Discord Server might be the place for you ⋆⭒˚.⋆
“What is Polaris?” ↯
˚₊‧꒰ა Polaris is a small, close-knit server for spiritual divines only. Many kin spaces are not focused on divinekin at all, as well as not being intended for spiritual kins.
˚₊‧꒰ა Polaris is also an adults-only space for the safety and comfort of all its members.
˚₊‧꒰ა Polaris welcomes all divines. Whether you be an angel, god, demon, eldritch being spanning universes, etcetera. We also welcome those undergoing apotheosis!
˚₊‧꒰ა Polaris is a server that fosters individual growth. We have regular discussions on all sorts of topics ranging from myths, magick, divinity, apotheosis, spirituality, etc. We have optional NSFW channels for these topics as well, and we welcome discussions on the aforementioned topics and much more.
“What is Polaris not a space for?” ↯
ⓧ Polaris is not a space for finding worshippers. While worship is allowed within Polaris, seeking it out directly goes against the server’s rules.
ⓧ Psychological divinekin. This space is spiritual in nature, and psychological kins do not have the same shared experiences as spiritual ones do. We do not invalidate psychological kins, but we do understand that there is a clear difference between the two.
ⓧ Polaris is not the space to go looking for drama or a fight. We welcome those with all religious or spiritual beliefs, and will not tolerate discrimination based on those beliefs.
ⓧ Minors. While Polaris was an all-ages server in its origins, we found that the space is much more productive as an 18+ community. We value the safety of all divines, and want to create a place where adults can feel comfortable discussing 18+/NSFW topics.
ᯓ★ Interested? ↯
↝ Fill out this google form, where you will answer some questions about your divinity and experiences as a spiritual divine. One or more members of our moderation team will get back to you with any follow-up questions to further assess if you are a good fit for the server. We in Polaris hope to hear from you soon!
PSA ↯
⋆⭒˚.⋆ In Polaris, we do not shy away from the bloody/dirty histories between deities and pantheons. We believe that deities/angels/demons/entities can and do hurt people or do bad things. If you find yourself uncomfortable with discussions concerning the gods’ wrongdoings, Polaris is not the space for you.
⋆⭒˚.⋆ Everyone on our end of the interview process has a life outside of Polaris and the internet- whether that be a job, school, familial obligations, etc. If you do not receive a response quickly, please do not assume your application was denied. If it has been a long time (2 weeks or more) feel free to reach out to myself or @plaguedocpyschopomp (Hermes).
