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[last updated 17.03.2026] --- أتبكون على شيئاً مضى؟ اقسم لكم لو كان خيراً لبقى

˙⋆✮ my name is luci !!

˙⋆✮ my special interest is tuberculosis :D

˙⋆✮ free palestine and fuck ice

˙⋆✮ jisung biased, sunoo biased, jungkook biased, jiung biased

˙⋆✮ currently very hyperfixated on: skz, especially minsung :D

-` my interests ´-

⋆˚꩜ movies: dead poets society, the social network, bottoms, challengers, the breakfast club, when harry met sally, call me by your name, tick tick boom, little women, saltburn, the perks of being a wallflower, the princess bride, brokeback mountain, we live in time, lady bird, star wars, the chronicles of narnia

⋆˚꩜ tv shows: community, heated rivalry, criminal minds, normal people, daisy jones and the six, stranger things, bbc sherlock, parks and recreation, glee, brooklyn 99, bbc ghosts, fleabag

⋆˚꩜ books: the secret history, six of crows, shadow and bone, the marauders, red white and royal blue, the mortal instruments, franny and zooey, on earth we’re briefly gorgeous, the goldfinch, the hunger games, cleopatra and frankenstein, funny story, fun home, malibu rising, the pairing, the dutch house, ninth house, the cruel prince, blue sisters

⋆˚꩜ music: phoebe bridgers, noah kahan, gracie abrams, jake minch, adrianne lenker, leanna firestone, stray kids, lucy dacus, eve christina, dear evan hansen, masie peters, ethel cain, olivia rodrigo, hozier, paramore, billie eilish, louis tomlinson, jeff buckley, conan gray, the front bottoms, modern baseball, beach bunny, lorde, boygenius, sam fender, sabrina carpenter, sombr, one direction, chappell roan, renee rapp, MUNA, charli xcx, harry styles, enhypen, nell mescal, audrey hobert, niall horan, boygenius, missy higgins, june henry, bears in trees, p1harmony, bts, seventeen

⋆˚꩜ musicals: in the heights, heathers, next to normal, hamilton, dear evan hansen, wicked, waitress, mean girls, mamma mia, the greatest showman, spring awakening, beetlejuice, six, 21 chump street, hadestown, hairspray, matilda

⋆˚꩜ my otps: wolfstar, minsung, jegulus, stucky, firstprince, trobed, hyunlix, kanej, anderperry, destiel, helnik, dorlene, rosekiller, seungbin, sunsun, wesper, juardan, ghostwalker, janeford, pandalily, byler, hollanov, superbat, zoyalai, patrochilles

-` find me on other platforms ´-

˚˖❀ my ao3

˚˖❀ my spotify

˚˖❀ my storygraph

˚˖❀ my pinterest

˚˖❀ my letterboxd

˚˖❀ my book review instagram

˚˖❀ my airbuds

thank you to my favourite bug @greendragon995 for my wonderful bio 🙂‍↕️

#intro post #blog intro #introductory post #lowk forgot how to use tumblr #all about me #books #music

computer why do i start to resent every person that i care about

#ngl i have a sneaking suspicion ive made almost this exact post before

a really healthy practice i’ve been unintentionally really getting into is something i’ve named emotional mithridatism. essentially microdosing being ghosted and building up a tolerance to it. this isn’t on purpose! and it really sucks a lot! but it’s kind of working?

i’m going to react badly to being not contacted for a period of time either way, but this emotional mithridatism stuff means that its taking longer and longer for the upset to start.

like, over the summer, i’d start experiencing the hurt, say, two or three days after not being contacted. by the april school holidays, i was up to a week - which means that now, i don’t start getting properly distressed for at least a week.

in the same way that actual mithridatism is awful while you’re taking the poison but does you a lot o good in the long run for your immunity, this emotional mithridatism is awful to experience but definitely going to be beneficial for me in the long run.

#new episode of luci intellectualises not being interesting enough to text #this is a long winded way of me saying it’s taking longer for me to get upset over being ghosted #idk i think i’m just used to it #which is a good thing?#i think?#not a good thing because i’m being ghosted #and it does hurt in the end #but at least i’m delaying that hurt !!!#exciting things going on over here

“situationship” but the situation is that i’ll never be wanted

f4nd0m-h0pp3r

guys I’ve been diagnosed with “:3” it’s terminal

dreamy-xo

it’s just me n my rejection sensitivity and strong emotional reactivity against da world

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“The crimson corsair and the sinister secret of the binary star”

Ive got 2 major works and one assessment coming up and bro i put two solid days of work into this. No time for anything else. Probably going to get this printed on a shirt i love it so much

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I put Thought into this. Annotations are under the cut

my thoughts on olivia rodrigo’s “you seem pretty sad for a girl so in love”

as someone who has been a rabid fan of olivia since 2020

dated 16 . 06 . 2026

i historically have this issue with olivia rodrigo's albums + songs where i just really do not like them on the first listen and then grow to really really love them so i knew that was going to happen with this album so i had to give myself buffer time. needless to say it happened.

now lets talk about the singles. "drop dead" was certainly a very clever choice because not only was it extremely sonically fun, but it tricked all of us in the same way that conan did with released "this song" as his lead single. i've seen people say that "the cure" wasn't a very good second single choice but i truly disagree, i think it was exactly what she did with the lead singles off of guts but the inverse - "vampire" [sad] and "bad idea right?" [upbeat] for guts, and then "drop dead" [upbeat] and "the cure" [sad]. its a proven formula and it worked very well. "the cure" is probably my favourite song off the album. i relate to it very heavily, i think the lyricism is excellent, and its musically interesting and textured. overall 10/10 on the singles.

in terms of title - i didnt *adore* the deviation from the four letter word formula, but ive grown quite fond of it. i think calling it something as long and distinctive as "you seem pretty sad for a girl so in love" was a really good marketing move because by *god* did people talk about it. i love the cover photo, her entire discography is very aesthetically aligned.

putting "drop dead" at the start of the album was a good idea, not only because its fun and interesting but because it signals very clearly that this is a chronological album. ive seen people call this a concept album and theyre stupid because it is NOT, but i do have a very strong appreciation for a chronological album. i truly believe "drop dead" is the ONLY actual love song on the album. its very cute and fun and silly and the versailles/king louis references are so fun. vocally and melodically its great and again a good lead single choice. +the music video is great.

putting "stupid song" second is visionary. it not only immediately takes us from the psychedelic dystopia of the first song and drops us into her lovesick delusion, but it also follows a clever melodic and lyrical path. the album starts reasonably upbeat and the songs get less energetic as you get further through - "stupid song" is similar enough to "drop dead" that it doesnt feel like a huge jump, but its close enough to "honeybee" that it keeps the album flowing well. i think this is my favourite of the new non-single songs off the album. the lyrics are just personal enough that it feels like a real emotional song, but just vague enough that i relate to them deeply. the swell in the first chorus into the upbeat second verse works perfectly. its also i think an inherently delusional song, and continues on from "drop dead" perfectly.

third song - "honeybee." this is a sweet little song but it doesnt stick out hugely to me. id say probably my least favourite on the album, but i can see it growing on me. i like a cute little piano love song but its a bit boring.

next "maggots for brains." almost certainly one of my favourites as well, i will do a ranking. this is also one of my top ones for relating to lyrics. the melody and music feel very 2010 coming of age soundtrack, i really really really love that. if i could sum up this song it would basically be "i am so enamoured by you that i dont know who i am without you" and i am a veteran of that. i think the song is really excellent at portraying how her love makes her almost sycophantic, and also at how that insane love impacts her entire life. all she can do is think about the person she loves its literaly ruining and running her life, she cant even write. i love the guitar break and how the music strips back in the last chorus. also the way that the song isnt necessarily just about her love but about how shes pretty broken in of herself and the withdrawal of the person she loves just highlights that even futher.

i know she described "u + me = <3" as the only real love song on the album but i DISAGREE. the only real love song is "drop dead" and this song is literally about delusion. THEYRE ALL ABOUT DELUSION. i also think this song is very melodically soundtrack-esque and definitely weirdly kat stratford core ??? theres one lyric in the second verse that i truly hate because its just structured so weirdly. honestly theres not a lot to say for this one. shes deeply in love at this point and its certainly reciprocated, but shes clearly losing her MIND over it and it comes through in the music. its very clear how shes forcing herself to believe that she so in love which means she must be so happy and so fine and so not deeply mentally unwell. the title is sawr cute though.

"my way" is actually SUCH a curveball in the middle of the album and i love love love love love it. not only do i appreciate a bitchy olivia because its super fun, but musically its pretty new. the electronic sounds, particularly in the intro, when paired with the louder guitars with more distorition than we've heared before really hammers home the message of the song. i love so many of the lyrics particularly the bridge and the way she delivers them. i keep repeating "youre being fucking weird !" over and over its such a tacticle delivery i feel it in my teeth and tongue. i dont think shes a pop punk or rock artist by ANY means but i know she loves a lot of artists in those genres and i love how delicately and purposefully she borrows from different genres. also shout out to dan nigro for the whole album but PARTICULARLY this song. the production is so clean and perfect for literally every song. the way that he uses instruments and lets them work with each other and pair with the lyrics is awesome and so admirable and i just know that they were in the studio bitching and picking out all those synths. i really do love the synths theyre so textured and crunch and they add so much to the song. i lava this song

someone i talked to said "purple" is the worst song on the album but hes wrong. i dont love the first verse, its a little clunky, but its such a gorgeous song. i find it so funny how she went IM NOT MAKING A PURPLE ALBUM !!! and then called a song purple. i like how it builds in verse 2 and doesnt stay a static song. the line "i had big dreams til i tied myself for you" in a love song is diabolical work.... of course shout out to the obligatory colour references. number one "your red and my blue now i see the world in purple" is obvious, it makes sense. and of course SHES blue and not him because shes the one whos been defined by her melancholia her entire life, SHES the blue one. later in the song "melt with you til it all turns black" because now that shes with him colour doesnt matter because hes fixed her yayyy hes fixed her lets all yay forever !!!!! it makes perfect sense that she put "the cure" next because this song sets up the wow im loved properly so im fixed paradox which "the cure" addresses

im not sure i can accurately verbalise how important "the cure" is to me right now. i have a big issue with thinking that because i finally have a relationship that makes me feel good about myself and makes me actually want to be alive, that means im cured and no longer mentally ill. hello youre not cured. hello "the cure." hello youre still mentally ill and youre not a failure when you behave like youre mentally ill just because you have a friend who actually cares about you. this song is essentially the paradox of "why am i still so unhappy when im in such a wonderful relationship?" which is literally the title, you seem pretty sad for a girl so in love. also i know she loves the band the cure and she literally features robert smith on a song later, so fun word play. essentially this song is the worst thing ever. i am obsessed with the build, the way she belts in tandem with her lyrically losing her mind as the song ends. the final result of lovesick delusion.

if i could kill one song on this album with a gun it would be "begged." i know im saying wow this is me to almost every song, but this song is very much me. i have a stupid thing i do where any affirmation or affection or love i receive is immediately discounted and rendered useless in my mind if i have to ask for it. thats the central point of this song. im getting so much love from you and it makes me so happy but how can i accept my relationship as okay if i only get those things when i specifically ask for them. i love the sitting quietly and watching movies line. "im patient, youre learning, pretend its not hurting" is very painful unfortunately. this is the part of the album where things start to visibly go downhill for the relationship - prior to this its just been "all in her head" - but its a very nuanced perspective on a relationship where the two people just arent aligned. ive seen a lot of people with ROCD compare it to their experiences and obviously i dont have OCD but i relate to a lot of ROCD experiences so. make of that what you will. i can link this song to a relationship, but weirdly also to my dad. goated

i really didnt adore "whats wrong with me" at first but then i managed to make it about mental health and chronic illness rather than a boyfriend and now i love it. i dont know much about the cure but featuring robert smith on this is so awesome for her because she loves them so much. "went to the doctor and she said i was fine" is me. "i think youre whats wrong with me" hurts so deeply when you realise that in "the cure" she was asking herself why he cant fix and save her. anyway this song has a really nice mellow guitar part and robert smith's voice blends with olivia's and the track super well. this song is also super heavy on the ROCD imagery so a big shout out to her for that. the constant reassurance checking of whats wrong with me both in relationships and in terms of my mental and physical health is certainly super fun and cool.

one of the less super cool interesting ones for me but maybe "less" is one of the saddest songs on the album. shes basically accepted that the relationship is over, and he has too, but shes trying to fight for it to keep going and hes being noble and trying to ease her pain by ripping the band aid off. "if loving me means letting go and wishing me the best... i wish you loved me less" hurts sawr much. i also like the stripped back piano track, and how she changes the ending lines in each chorus. theres lots of specific details in this song that make it feel incredibly personal and thus even more painful. she literally mentions intrusive thoughts in this song and i think she means it genuinely and not in the tiktokified way.

NOTHING could have prepared me for the transition from "less" to "expectations." this is the SAD end of the album and shes thrown in this upbeat dancy anthem ??? yes i love !!!!!!!!!!!!! this song is a very clear attempt to "whoooooo im so happy im so fine im single and freeeeeee" her way into forced healing which aint gonna work. but it holds up exceptionally well on its own. we gotta let her have a rebound who does drugs. ive had the chorus stuck in my head basically all day its so fun it makes me want to dance so bad. i keep saying "I WONT SETTLE FOR A GUY WITH A FAKE JOB !!!!!!!!" again shout out to dan nigro for the production on this the instruments are perfect. the lines right before the chorus make me want to head bang so hard. this whole song sounds like fireworks !!! and fireworks are fun !!! except fireworks are actually hiding the fact that shes in a lot of pain. but fireworks !!!

finally - "cigarette smoke." an immediate comedown from "expectations" but a good album closer nonetheless. i think it wraps up the album well and does a good job of marrying the idea that you can have loved someone so much and they can have loved and helped you and things just. didnt work out. and thats okay. melodically its bittersweet. good closer.

so basically its a really really really really really good album.

my ranking:

the cure

stupid song

begged

maggots for brains

expectations

drop dead

my way

u + me = <3

purple

whats wrong with me

less

cigarette smoke

honeybee

#drop dead #olivia rodrigo #the cure olivia rodrigo #or3 #yspsfagsil #you seem pretty sad for a girl so in love #i really love this album #guts forever my favourite though

happy june 15th to those who celebrate [me and no one else and im also not celebrating at all]. im sorry for what june 15th has done to my tumblr, my dms, and my mental health. #neverchange