Kay

Despite everything, it's still me

[lelkokkay]

Intro post. If u wanna be friends or moots write a comment. Reposts and comments are highly appreciated.

I'm Kay. I'm 17, They/them. I have diagnosed Autism and ADHD This blog is about my experiences with trying to live with these conditions and about my special interests and hyperfixations.

More about my interests:

My special interests are writing (currently writing a few stories and developing new ocs), drawing, kpop (my ults currently are BTS and skz but I stan and listen to many different groups), games and Korean and japanese culture.

My current fandoms are Stranger things, alien stage, kpop, project sekai, sanrio (especially kuromi) and Nintendo games.

I'm currently looking for more friends, so feel open to reach out to me, especially if you are open to a future possible queer platonic relationship ^^

Dni: emotional instability, proshippers, sh/ed and nsfw accounts, homophobia, transphobia, ableism.

[redscare1917]

Maybe it´s just my PMS but I´m feeling ALL the grief today and I´m spiraling.

The show is over. The fandom is very, very slowly going to fade away, it´s a painfully excruciatingly slow death. It´s slow and painful and sentimental. It feels like when you as a child could barely keep your eyes open but insisted on saying "Just ten more minutes, I don´t wanna go to bed yet"

Jane killed herself? She is a 16 year old girl who has been physically and mentally abused for all her life and then she commited suicide to end the cycle of abuse. She is dead. She is literally dead. She died alone, cold, abandoned, she never got the life she wanted, not for a single day.

Will is moving on and Mike is going to rot staying the same person he´s always pretended to be. He is not breaking out of the cycle, he will become a husk of his father- bitter, repressed and aching while Will is going to make it out. He´s moving to the big city, finally living his true self and expressing it as a whole, finding new love, community, acceptance and pride. Will is going to heal from the wounds, from the trauma and he will find himself, his true essence, he will get to know himself truly this time.

He´s gonna make it. Mike isn´t.

And this will haunt him for the rest of his life, forever. He will never heal. He will end up conforming to the suburban-nuclear-family-conservative-american-dream while forever yearning for what slipped away beneath his fingers, the life he could have had. He´s gonna drink his bitter coffee in the morning, mindlessly staring at the newspaper and he´ll move on to staring at the road ahead he´s driving on to staring at a computer screen for 8 hours in a cubicle to staring at the TV, all with empty eyes, fully checked out, knowing he will do this tomorrow and the day after and the day after for the rest of his life.

I know we never know the whole story of what happens after that, this is obviously just what they canonically implied. But the mere thought of it is horrible. And even if they find their way to each other, it´s still really fucked up. It´s fucking breaking my heart that they didn´t got together much much earlier, I am deeply grieving those excuriating and horribly painful years they spent repressing and hiding it, this is literally ripping my heart apart add tearing it into a thousant pieces. Year after year it´s not happening, time is flying and they can never get those years back, no matter what they do now.

Anyways. I´m very sad today, I think you can tell.

[umeposting]

being able to say that one of my favorite idols is openly nonbinary feels so surreal for 24 year old me. i've been an idol fan since i was so young and now as a nonbinary adult one of my favorite idols is also nonbinary.

they are nonbinary and their career isn't in danger, the scene welcomed their new identity with open arms, they are so respected and loved by their peers. i can see myself in someone in the idol scene, i have NEVER felt so represented and loved. so many idols are showing support, i feel so welcomed for the first time ever. having idols hold flags and read lines to show support is one thing, but seeing a nonbinary idol receive such a warm welcome when they come out feels so much more special.

when i first became a fan of an idol group, i hadn't figured myself out yet. i went through that entire process by myself, i had no nonbinary representation to look up to. just a few years ago this would have been career suicide, it would have been so fucking scary to even imagine this happening, but so much has changed. so much will continue to change. there will be more queer idols. we will always exist. we will always be loved.

it's such a scary time in the world to be so authentic, but i am so proud of cocona and alphaz. we have built such a beautiful community, it is so special that we can share this together and i'm so happy to be here. moments like this remind me that everything will be okay one day because we will always have each other.

[sihain]

Having a queer character believe he won't find love and proving him right is not good writing.

Having a character grow up in solitary confinement and then ripping her away from the only family she's ever known to live a life of solitude once again is not good writing.

Having a character be in love with his best friend and then just compare it to a high school crush is not good writing.

Having Eleven say that Mike has always been the person who truly understood her after showing us in the previous seasons that he only sees her as a superhero IS NOT GOOD WRITING.

Having two girls be abused by a man with power for the majority of their lives only to leave them dead and alone as a direct consequence of the trauma they suffered IS VILE WRITING

[teambyler]

Stranger Things Finale and Byler

None of us are wrong. The Duffer Brothers, Shawn Levy, Netflix are wrong. This was the most elaborate queerbait in media history. The responsibility is on them. Don't ever forget that.

All the evidence is that Mike is not straight, has feelings for Will, and is grieving over the loss of his first love.

And El's imagined happy ending did not include a romantic future with Mike.

BYLER IS REAL.

They stoked in us a hope and fire that will not burn out. The subtext was ABSOLUTELY planted and is there. They just didn't deliver. No network corporate execs have the right or the ABILITY to quell our fire to want want to be human and free.

They absolutely knew we exist and who we are when they played David Bowie's "Heroes" during the credits. They gave a nod to heroism, but weren't heroic themselves. What some corporate suits and the Duffer Brothers do does not dictate what WE do.

EDIT: The fact that Will's coming-out journey played NO role in the finale is bad writing. I said it. Like wtf.

EDIT 2: After seeing comments, I rewatched Mike putting his D&D book next to Will's. Mike shows the most emotion he has all season, looking at Will's book which takes up half the frame, and breaks down when placing his own book next to it. It was a nod to Byler. The Duffers never ruled out Byler; Will's painting is on his wall. It was cowardly, but the writers made Byler live on in subtext.

If Byler were canon, it would have been a fictional story after all. What would have mattered is what we did with it after. And for us, BYLER WILL ALWAYS BE REAL.

-teambyler

[humunanunga]

[wickeddreamerr]

[withlovemike]

“it [the coming out] was just so much pressure (...) and having the whole cast standing there watching like a press-conference was nerve-wracking.” —Noah in the most recent interview on Will’s coming-out.

NOAH the actor said it felt like a fucking press-conference. Noah the gay actor for a gay boy said there was a lot of pressure to deliver. what the actual fuck was that writing

[boyfriendsmalec]

He even talks about essentially disassociating while doing the performance and not really processing anyone else being in the room or what they were doing like they really should've gone with an intimate coming out scene between Will and Joyce alone (and Mike could've accidentally overheard it too)

[turnways]

Actually, yes, at some point as an adult iIt is your responsibility to learn about history and politics outside of what you were taught in traditional k-12 education

[sweetyamz1]

Indecisive Flag

The Indecisive Flag is a flag representing individuals who find it challenging to settle on a single, stable gender identity, orientation, or label. It's a celebration of fluidity, experimentation, and freedom to explore multiple aspects of your identity without the need for permanent commitment. Those who resonate with the label Indecisive may shift between identities or orientations frequently or may feel resistant to being “boxed in” by any one label.

[lelkokkay]

can we pretty please be friends? 🥺

Let's get to know each other first :) text me

[lelkokkay]

Check out my works! These are wallpapers with different idols inspired by different fanfiction!

If u have any ideas of what idols with which aesthetic I should do u can write them in the comments, maybe I will do some of them <3

[lelkokkay]

for the kpop, 21? Rn I only know hot sauce, spaghetti and xo

Thanks for the question! I know skz miroh and back door, also tamed-dashed by enhypen, sheesh by babymonster, forever young and dududu by blackpink, eve psyche and Bluebeard's wife by le sserafim and Armageddon by aespa <3

[horreurscopes]

having ocs is like she's my daughter. she's my power fantasy. i'm giving her everything i hate about my personality. she's a war criminal. she's never done anything wrong in her life ever. i love her. i hate her. i'm making her life miserable. who did this to her. she's unlikeable but everyone should like her. she's baby. she does cocaine in the bathroom

[lelkokkay]

Do you like Pjo?

Never read it or watched it sadly. Maybe I will do it in the future

[lelkokkay]

Guys send me asks please just talk to me about smth or ask me about smth

[ruhaniya]

no matter how traumatized i am, i still choose to give the purest love i can give.

[lelkokkay]

Yeah but I kinda regret it sometimes