HEAD CANON| NANAMI AS YOUR LOVER WHO BROKE YOUR HEART
Part 3 (Finale): The truth
Note: English isn't my first language so might contain mistakes. Might be ooc. Suggestion to Read part 1 and 2 before continuing this is you're new. #ANGST warning
If we get a hundred likes on this post as well, I'm going to post an epilogue of this series. Tell me do we need it???
Part 2 isn't getting as much attention as first guys, helpp •́ ‿ ,•̀
SUGGESTION TIME!!! Which character should I do next? And do we need angst or a happy ending???
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The reality is your body overworked itself. You maximized all your powers at once and your body wasn't strong enough for that. You were never trained to use your full powers. Your body wasn't used to bearing that much power. So naturally, when you used your powers all at once without ever knowing what they were or what they did, your body lost all it's strength. Your brain cannot take the after effects.
"Y/n.. y/n keep your eyes open. Look at me. You will be fine." Nanami says still in that composed tone but the way he's holding you betrays the hints of how desperate he is now.
"Nanami.." your voice breaks out in choked whispers, every word coming out with drops of blood. Even breathing has become hard now.
You reach out for his arms, your fingers weakly holding them, your eyes barely opened, tears prickling at the corners.
"Why.. why did you do that? What ..did I..lack?"
"Why was I not enough?" There. That question. The question that has been eating you alive all these months finally out now.
And Nanami? He wasn't even trying to stay composed anymore. He's holding onto you so tightly, his head dropped lower and tears falling down his eyes. God, you were enough for him. More than enough actually. You were all he ever loved and wanted.
"..then why? Your voice sounds so broken it feels like stabs to Nanami's heart.
The reason he did that wasn't because he stopped loving you.
It was because he loved you too much.
Ever since he entered your life, you had slowly stopped caring about proving yourself. The cruel words of others no longer affected you because you had someone who accepted you exactly as you were. You no longer pushed yourself as hard as before because, with Nanami beside you, you finally felt enough.
But to Nanami... that wasn't enough.
Every time he saw people look down on you, every time they called you weak, he wished you would prove them wrong. Not for their sake, but for yours. He wanted you to become stronger—not because he was disappointed in you, but because he wanted you to survive and to prove yourself.
And somewhere between that..
Grade One sorcerers don't retire.
Nanami knew that better than anyone.
He knew that one day, his own death would come. And when it did, he was terrified of what it would do to you.
He knew how deeply you loved him.
And he couldn't bear the thought of leaving you with that pain.
So he made the decision that broke him the most.
He believed that if he walked away, you would stop relying on him. You would grow stronger. You would learn to protect yourself, even if it meant hating him for the rest of your life.
The woman you had seen that day was never someone he loved.
She was simply the owner of a small bakery he visited regularly. After injuring her shoulder, Nanami recommended her to a doctor and she had asked Nanami to accompany her there because she trusted him. There had never been anything more between them.
When you misunderstood what you saw, he wanted to explain.
He wanted to tell you the truth.
But then he thought it was the right moment. He wanted to leave you anyway so be it like this.
If he cleared the misunderstanding, he knew he would never be able to leave you. And if he had to break up with you himself, he knew he wouldn't have the strength to do it. Hearing those words coming out of his mouth would have left you devastated and he couldn't hurt you like that, not even in his dream.
Not because he had stopped loving you.
But because he loved you too much.
Yet in trying to protect you, he had done the very thing he feared most.
He had broken your heart.
And now, as he held your fragile body in his arms, he realized that leaving you hadn't protected you at all.
His biggest fear was losing the person he loved, and in trying to protect her from that future, he became the reason she spent months suffering—and still couldn't save her in the end.
The truth is Nanami never stopped loving you. Everyday he woke up with the thoughts of you and every night he went to sleep with imagining your face. But he thought it's better this way because to him, it looked like he finally protected you by keeping them away. But seems like he was wrong. He hurt you then and you are hurt now too. Him leaving didn't change anything because either way you got hurt.
You were left brutally heartbroken when he left you and now you were the one dying too. Again the irony. How he once used to think he'd die and you'll be crying over him is now actually you dying and him breaking.
As he finishes telling you the real reason finally, you could only manage to let out a weak smile. "Idiot.."
"Look at me. Stay. God, I never once hated you. I still hate myself for hurting you like that but please, please stay with me. Please y/n.. please I need you..."
The man who never showed overdramatic emotions or lost his composure was now holding you desperately and begging the heavens to save you, to give you life.
"Please, y/n.. I love you.." and as those words left his mouth is you taking your final breath. That smile still staying on your face because during your last hitch was those words coming in your ears and in your last moments you finally know that the man you still loved after all that never really stopped loving you.
You couldn't say those words back but god and heavens knew you never fully stopped loving him. And as Nanami sat there, holding your lifeless body against his chest the tunnel fell silent. For the first time in his life, the man who always kept his composure cried without restraint. And as your soul reaches the sky, you linger a moment longer, looking at him with a smile and quietly promising to yourself that you'll look after him for all the years he'll live forward.
Nanami lived for another forty-five years after that.
Every single day, he carried your memories with him.
He never loved another woman.
Partly because he was afraid it might disturb your soul...
But mostly because his heart had always belonged to you.
There was simply no room for anyone else.
On the days when exhaustion weighed heavily on him, a gentle breeze would suddenly brush past him.
It always felt as though you were quietly comforting him.
And on the nights when regret, guilt, and longing became too much to bear, one particular star always seemed to shine a little brighter than the rest.
As if you were telling him...
Those small moments were enough to bring a rare smile to his face.
Nanami continued moving forward with life.
But every night, before closing his eyes, he carried one silent wish in his heart.
That hope alone was enough to let him sleep peacefully.
One quiet night, as he slowly closed his eyes to rest, it felt as though Heaven had finally answered his prayers.
He saw a bright figure and a face that was even beautiful that it already was and her face now had angelic features. He takes her hand as she extends hers to him, he gets up from bed and follows after her to wherever she was leading him. And together they move forward to big steel, magnificent gates. And when they two finally stepped inside, hands in hands?
Nanami took his final breath.
A peaceful smile rested upon his face.
The woman he had longed to see for forty-five years had finally come to take him in his last moments. To bring him home.
You stepped into eternity.
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End of part 3 >.<. Please tell me how was this for my further writings.
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