dixi et animam levavi

“I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in my life. And I am horribly limited.” ― Sylvia Plath

[autumnoiir]

[vile-lithium3]

[my-dailydreams]

[enchantedbook]

'Vampire Hunter D' by Yoshitaka Amano

[goth-queen]

[lunamonchtuna]

— Susan Sontag, from As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks 1964-1980 (via lunamonchtuna)

[goth-queen]

[machinesindecay]

you slip away like silk through my fingers gather on a lake drift far from the peer toward a setting sun (you always were a night creature) I watch you go while trees rustle behind me whispering what we used to be an illusion in a dream a wish, a hope that never came to be and though I can see you, drifting toward that horizon, my fingers are cold my hands are empty and I am alone. I always will be.

[a-quiet-green-agreement]

…a kind woman, wilted and very lonely. And solitude had made her even kinder, she practically apologised. Lonely people are often afraid to let their solitude show. Some are ashamed. Families are so strong. They have all of advertising on their side. But a person alone is nothing but a shipwreck. First they cast it adrift, then they let it sink.

– Fleur Jaeggy, from “The Heir,” I Am the Brother of XX (And Other Stories, 2017)

[mournfulroses]

Albert Camus, from a letter to María Casares featured in Correspondance, 1944-1959

[fairytaleprincessart]

[deviika]

—Fyodor Dostoevsky

[devils-queen]

666

[enchantedbook]

Art by Jorge Mascarenhas

[enchantedbook]

Art by Nikita Chan

[perfeqt]

“Take wrong turns. Talk to strangers. Open unmarked doors. And if you see a group of people in a field, go find out what they are doing. Do things without always knowing how they’ll turn out. You’re curious and smart and bored, and all you see is the choice between working hard and slacking off. There are so many adventures that you miss because you’re waiting to think of a plan. To find them, look for tiny interesting choices. And remember that you are always making up the future as you go.”

— Randall Munroe, xkcd: volume 0

[life-spire]