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BEDJLY 1/2/3

I was pestered to do this, PESTERED.

Good lord lets try and remember what I did.

1 - After the fun day I had yesterday, I had a very quiet day at work. I was a bit irritated but none the less. I cannot remember anything that happened.

2 - Today was a LOOONG day. started early, all I bloody did was clear tables for 9 hours. It went very slowly, and I swore many times in my head. Got some free sandwiches AND free ice cream from Ben next door. Amazing. I then just lazed, ate a very nice mexican inspired dinner and went to bed.

3 - Shorter shift today, felt a lot better after a nice sleep, and the shift wasn’t too bad. Stayed a little longer to help close, and walked back in the sun after talking to Jack about boardgames. I then just lazed, watched some youtube videos, checked off a lot of my to-do list (planning London, sorting my amazon wish list, thinking about gyms) and just relaxed. NEW CITT update! I much prefer the webtoon to the series, but I’ll consume both. Went on OkC again and talked to some nice people! Now it’s past midnight and I’m downloading miitomo app. Wish my poor phone luck.

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BEDJ 30

(I actually have a good day to talk about today!) (Also it’s technically the last???)

I had a jam-packed planned day, so let’s dive in! I woke up pretty late, feeling really tired? even though I slept for a long time? Hate it when that happens.

Had coffee with dad in a coffeeshop (Moochoo) that I forgot about, very artsy and quiet, very Bristol. Had a very nice hot chocolate as I looked at the art on the walls. I planned to stay in town till I met James for lunch, but not knowing his arrival meant I just walked home, which was only 5 minutes. Went back after like 15 and met James at BTP.

It was SO nice, we caught up, gossiped and just had a blast. We hadn’t spoken in 2 years but there was so awkwardness at all, we just dove in chatting like we used to. We updated each other and talked health/diets/relationships/life and it was a blast.

After a long lunch I came back home, relaxed for an hour then went off to bowling with mum. I wasn’t sure what to expect. It was a bit weird but mainly chill. I played with mum, her boss and we were supposed to be joined by someone else, but they never turned up so we took it in turns to take her turn. It was pretty fun! I’ve always liked bowling, plus we had free food/drinks (even if it was really unhealthy) and it made me want to go bowling with friends back at uni!!! I was a little quiet, but the conversation was easy and there was some laughs. Went food shopping with mum after, picked up dad from meditation and I went home and did some gym research as I am so unhealthy and out of shape at the moment.

I’m currently listening to Hamilton and having a gif war with Fred.

I know that this is actually the last day of June, but I hope to keep up with this (BEDJLY, BEDA, BEDS, BEDO, BEDN, BEDD) you never know!

If this is the end, bloody hell I managed all the days. Good one Ella!

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BEDJ 28/29

Not only am I late, but I’m bumping two days together again! Oh well

28 - Yesterday was interesting, I had work early and opened up, and after making a bad coffee was given a coffee lesson (was a little patronising but ah well) and the shift went on. I finished and was in a good mood, so regardless of the MEGA rain, I got an iced berry red tea from BTP, posted the shorts for the vinted buyer, and bought a nice skirt! Walked home, and sat with the computer with dad for a few hours. So even though I was in an okay mood, I’d dealt with a lot of patronising and being told how to do things at work, so I was irritable. Mum was suggesting ways I could alter my skirt, but I was at my limit with advice so I kinda snapped at her. I was in a bad mood so after dinner I just went on a long dog walk with Oliver as I started to question myself and my lack of relationship and just put myself into a dark funk. I offloaded a little to a friend, and just kept reading the cheese comic. I ended up having a cider and watching chelsea with mum, which was nice. Then I was just so tired that I went to bed early.

29 - I woke up LATE. I remember waking up early to close my window and pull my warmer duvet on, as I pleasantly slept. I woke up feeling very well-rested after having LOADS of dreams (a part of one I took drugs with a friend and swam in a pool?the other was this weird class trip with people from my old school, but they all found me very annoying and our teacher/leader was like off the rails and taking us on this crazy trip, till one of my old best friends called to go home and kinda broke the fun atmosphere) and just relaxed downstairs. Went up for a bit, then Grandad David came round (out of the blue as per) so I quickly got dressed and awkwardly chatted. Then after a quick lunch mother, father and I zoomed off to the reclamation yard (we need a new door) and it was AMAZING. so many cool things, quite eeery. Didn’t find a door, but we decided to go to Whole Foods and picked up some drinks, some weird popcorn and some potatoe things for dinner. Also stopped by Dunelm Mills as I wanted to get some dress fabric, but couldn’t decide on what to get. Read more the Cheese comic (mum says I am consumed by it) did some drawing, then had a nice dinner. Watched half of Versailles but I was mainly on my laptop. Fred got back to me about my unloading and we had a nice chat. I washed my hair and watched a bit of Adzie’s livestream (she is a nice, cool gal) tomorrow I have a lot of plans; coffee with dad, lunch with James, bowling with mum. Looking forward to it!

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BEDJ 27

I was going to not do one today (and instead just do a recap tomorrow) but ah fuck it.

Today was a day off, so I slept. Slept till midday which hasn’t happened for quite a while. I was actually a bit annoyed at myself about this, as I just slumped around the house with no plans. I never know what to do with myself when I have an ounce of free time.

I ended up photographing some more clothes I wish to sell (I am dissatisfied and disassociated from all my clothes at the moment) and went into town to donate some books for dad. I wanted to pick up an issue of Molly Makes (it had the mycakies blogger in one of the issues) but I missed the issue I was after, drat. I then ventured into the local fabric store (aka the Aladdin's cave) as I want to find a fabric for my first dress, but I had no idea what I wanted so I just left. I then stood in the street wondering if I should window shop or walk or something. I just went home.

I finished off my SALAD collage and talked BWH details with Fred. I also ended up finding a new webtoon comic called ‘Cheese in the Trap’ through a comment on a new beauty vlogger I’ve found. Funny how that happens. Through this vlogger I also had a phase of trying out hairstyles. Recently I haven’t been too happy with my appearance. I’ve put on a bit of weight since being home, my skin is okay but my hair is just my main source of irritance. It’s wispy yet thick, long yet not long enough. It’s always been live this, and as I have to scrape it back for work, it’s been looking ugly so I don’t look the greatest. I wanted to find a cute style for work but none of the tutorials worked for me (they never fucking do) and I nearly got to the stage where I get majorly pissed off at my lack of beauty (and skills) but I just gave up and had a nice dinner. Watched Sewing Bee and kept reading the odd cheese comic. I have a bad habit of skim-reading so I keep missing the plot. Ah well.

I have work early tomorrow so it’s back to my weird routine.

Night all!

#bedj

BEDJ 25/26

I am REALLY slacking with these.

25 - Yesterday just ended up being a bitter day. 9 hour shift, had time for a nice bath in the morning but it’s tiring. Not used to more casual workplace environment (my last job was stricter, more structured and I had more breaks :/) the shift ended with me not doing things right and ugh. I felt so stupid and annoyed. Went to bed early after barely eating dinner.

26 - Marginally better, nice people at work yet I still seemed to get on peoples nerves. Had a creative spurt so I made a collage for SALAD and a theme list for BWH, juggling these two might be interesting. I had an intense need to be filled with emotion earlier, and I didn’t satisfy it. I want to go out and look pretty and kiss people. Going to bed soon so I can relax tomorrow.

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BEDJ 23/24

I’m really starting to fall off the bandwagon! But I push on. I’m going to talk about two very contrasting days.

23 - Sigur Ros day! I had a nice little lie-in, and then got dropped off by mother (she was on her way to work) so I could print out her ticket for Sigur Ros. I went to the library, and let me tell you, I used to have a very committed relationship with the library. But then I lost my card and it went to shit. So I got a new one! I felt so old when they told me they had wifi, wtf, they barely had new books last time I visited. Times change. I tootled off home, but voted on my way back at my very old primary school, very odd. Satisfied with my decisions, I walked back and bumped into dad walking Oliver. I aimed to have a bath as soon as I got back, but I loitered upstairs not having a bath. Bathed, decided what to wear, and then we were off to Bristol. I felt off though, like, just off. I read Nina Stibbe’s fiction book, and we arrived. We walked around a little bit trying to decide where to have a drink, but my parents were being fussy and I was feeling not myself so it was just a weird time. We ended up at a Prezzo, where I had a disappointing mint tea (fucking twingings shit) and then a nice risotto. I think I was just nervous, but I was feeling weird and my mind was playing tricks, so I ended up chatting to myself in the toilets. Weird times. Then, Sigur Ros. The weather wasn’t spectacular, but it was dry. Damn it was cold, we only dressed for a warm evening, and brought a blanket. We aimed to find seating...but so did like 100 others. So we sat on the floor for a while, before the amphitheater seats started to open up, so we shot in there. Then, after a weird opening act, the concert started. Wow. I stood in the crowd for a little at the start, listening to the one song I knew the most (Starálfur) and I had a few spine-tingling moments, and a realisation of adulthood, but nothing really shook me to my core. I sat with my parents and listened to the intense music, with the crazy light show and squawking seagulls. We could see people across the bay listening to the music for free which was amusing. It was nice, cold, but nice. We are prepared with knowledge for outside concerts, and I appreciate Sigur Ros so much more. The encore song was amazing, I need to find out what it was. After a nice drive home, I literally just went to bed, as I sadly had working in the morning.

24 - Contrast. Brexit. We’ve Left. I’m scared, worried, downtrodden and angry. I walked to work and was thrown into it, making coffees properly for the first time and just getting the job done. I was tired, and wanted to go home, but I stayed on for a bit longer as I was supposed to help out at the sister restaurant, but ended up not doing so. Unorganised, but I got a break so ho hum. Walked home through town, bought some very expensive stamps and envelopes and just settled into the sofa, reading Brexit news and turning off. I wanted to get some work done for my two new independent projects (SALAD with Millie, and Birds With Hats with Fred) but I was just not up to it. I got a bit irritated, so I just went upstairs and started a new Netflix film ‘The Fundamentals of Caring’ which is lightly nice. Had homemade pizza, and now I’m writing this, a little out of personal expectation. I’m tired, and I’m woking 9 hours tomorrow. Wish me luck.

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BEDJ 22 (My 20th birthday!)

And then I was 20!

I had a really, really lovely day today. Like, it was completely good, and that doesn’t happen often. I rose later than I have done the past few days, relaxed in bed for a bit and then was beckoned down to see the birthday spread. Discussed the plans for the day, had a bath, and I finished watching the OITNB finale...wow. Then, we moved onto Broadway! We went to this nice little coffee shop, and I had an interesting pouring hot chocolate. Pottered around, didn’t get the full experience as we had to dash home (Miles had to be fed, but was no where to be seen when we got home so) Mum set up her traditional birthday tea (crisps, sandwiches, cheese and pineapple, the whole lot, I love her) and I was given some lovely gifts (flowy trousers, pretty earrings, cooking book, dress pattern, postcards and the traditonal malteasers )

We then all relaxed a little bit, before taking Oliver on a walk near the nearly refurbished Daneway pub. The walk was so green and quiet, with the weather all day being grey yet warm. Oliver had a ecstatic time jumping into the river, which I haven’t witnessed for a while! But then he stank. We went to The Bell at Saperton nearby, and we were supposed to have a relaxing drink, yet Oliver attracted a LOT of flied so we skedaddled off early. Then, another treat meant getting a takeaway, so we had an indian from Robi’s (My dad has been going there for over 20 years, very loyal) and watched Versailles and MIC.

I had a lovely day, I had a lot of kind birthday messages from friends and promises to meet up, which is so good. Sigur Ros tomorrow!

I sign this as a 20 year old, an age which I already feels suits me. Here’s to the next 10 years.

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BEDJ 20/21 (aka, my last eve of teen)

I did not forget yesterday, but I was so damn tired from travelling that I decided to postpone till now.

20 - The day started early, as I hauled ass to get my half 7 train, the first of 6 in my long day. The first lot of trains went pretty well, I mainly read. I planned to work on SALAD prep but I mainly continued my Brian Wilson biog book (so good, also happy birthday) and I hadn’t even finished when I docked into a rainy Bournemouth at 11am, ready to hop on a bus, then another, to get to university. Was odd to be back, but comforting. The exhibition was really good, like stupidly good. I especially enjoyed Photography, Film (they had a god damn set), Illustration, Fine Art and of course Vis Com. Saw Sally (shared a smile) and Sarah (we had a nice chat) but I was left to my own devices as I comfortably floated around. I finished earlier than I planned (like, a whole hour) and I was debating what to do, so I just went back to the house. I stayed for an hour (it had this boring, low vibe to it as it was so clean and empty) and packed up some clothes/art supplies/belongings and then jumped ship to the train station. I originally wanted to get an earlier train than planned to Southampton, so I could hole up in a Costa. But, me being me got spooked, so I just sat at Bournemouth, finished the Brian Wilson book in the sunny waiting chairs. Very idyllic. Then my last set of trains came, nearly missed my connection to Bristol, bought a vogue and bookmarked lots of pretty things I want to draw. Very tiring. I literally just had dinner and went to bed.

21 - Today I had another early start as I had work, which was pretty steady and I made a few coffees for customers! Rising up! But it was infuritating, as the pot washer did a horrific job. It was short staffed so I stayed on a few hours longer. All fun and games, I like my job but it’s still stressful/tiring. I was supposed to meet up with Millie for SALAD but I was tired so I declined. Got home, climbed into bed and watched OITNB for hours. Fish and chips with Sewing bee for dinner. Bought another ticket for Sigur Ros so mum can come! I am now discussing with Morgan and George about my turning 20, tomorrow, 4:04am...holy. I’m going to make a video of myself tomorrow. It will be good, hopefully. MY LAST EVE OF TEEN.

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BEDJ 19

Oh gosh I need to write this, also oh gosh I’m nearly 20. But none of that now, I need to write about my day.

Woke up too early for my liking for what felt like a very long day at work. Nobody told me, but there was a ukulele performance in the cafe in the morning (a ukulele festival was happening a breath away at the town hall) and every table was full. I was stuck on table duty which I don’t mind usually, but dodging ukuele enthusiasts and having to deal with customers who don’t understand that a busy cafe means longer waits and more confusion. I felt put out to put it kindly, I feel like the staff, however lovely don’t really trust me/believe I do a good job/feel like I’m in the way. I am not good yet, I fret and I try to brush things over and I forget things. I’m not great. And even though I like tidying, I feel like I keep getting shoved on to it to keep me out the way. Also I’m quiet, I just like to get on and I don’t try to make conversation because I’m trying to make a good impression by working hard. I haven’t really found friends at work, that sounds worse than it is but I just occasionally chat but nothing else. This doesn’t help my self esteem, and I found myself telling myself horrible things that I’m not good enough, that I don’t deserve people loving me etc. etc.

I was scheduled to work at the ice cream shop next door, but I was hoping that someone forgot so I could go home 2 hours early...nah. This meant that I didn’t get a break because the schedule didn’t suggest so. I was tired, but I really enjoyed working next door. Sure, I was pretty crap, but it was more friendly and it was nice to have a conversation instead of being told to do something and being left alone feeling like an idiot. It was banterous and amusing, but I was so glad to finish.

Today is actually fathers day, so we trooped back home (the parents picked me up as they were in town) we dished out the gifts (umbrella, backpack, framed painting) and had some nice food. I then resumed my daily routine of lying on my bed watching netflix and letting my mind be absorbed. Watched the last episode of the Dick Strawbridge chateau renovation and now I’m packing/prepping for my journey to and fro from Bournemouth tomorrow...wish me luck.

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BEDJ 18

I had my shortest shift ever at work today (3 hours) but I was so tired (I did stay up reading...) ? Like really fatiguey, no idea why. Maybe it’s all the yoghurt I’ve been eating... I just hope I feel more awake for a considerably longer shift tomorrow.

My mood is still kinda low, after work mum and I met up in town to try and get dad some last minute gifts for fathers today, but I was so out of it that I just bought something online instead.

I just lulled around watching OITNB, ended up going to The Range (the weirdest shop around, the pet section smells so odd) with mum and walking around endlessly. Today was mainly a nothing day, and I now plan to have a bubble bath and turn in early. Not much to report.

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BEDJ 17

I feel so self centred as I write this. I’ve felt a bit odd today, leading on from last night. I drew out and added colour to the start of the birthday card for my friend, and I was a bit disappointed in the work I had done and my mood just dropped. This morning I finished the card, pretty pleased with the finished product. Posted it off, walked Oliver around looking for an alternate post box to our local one. Then dad convinced me to go to town with him, and I ended up buying some Moomin books, Nina Stibbe’s fictional novel and some world stamps (for illustration inspiration) as well as helping with the shopping.

In-between all this I’ve been watching the new OITNB episodes that came out today, and I’ve been thinking a lot about internalised racism as a result. The way that society treats people, and the amount of power that white people have is crazy (I’m a white woman) and I am not perfect, not wholly good. I am problematic and I am working towards being a better person.

I get very affected emotionally by what I watch/read/consume, and this week has already been very immersive (Pulse shootings) so that might be why my mood is quite low.

I semi-passed up on a opportunity to go to Oxford tonight to visit a friend of a friend who goes to university there, but wasn’t completely hooked as I have work tomorrow and now I’m annoyed at myself for not going. I pass up too many opportunities. In my defence I’m not quite feeling like myself (my appetite is whack at the moment, eating too much) and I am skittish, I worry and I did not want to wake up early to leave Oxford for work.

I also went shopping (again) and let Oliver run around one of the hedged parks in Pittville which I haven’t done for a while, he has got a lot older but still does crazy 8′s!

I’m really enjoying writing these daily updates on this blog. Usually I can only keep a habit up for a few days, but I’m proud of myself for keeping this up. It’s light-hearted yet personal, and it kind of means something. I know I’ll enjoy looking back on these days, regardless of how trivial they are. I now have an overwhelming urge to read Scott Pilgrim, but alas my books are in Bournemouth.

P.S At my mum’s work they have a skeleton, and two of the departments have this little fun way going on where they dress the skeleton up, this is what my mum did.

#bedj #a scattered update

BEDJ 16

Back at work today after 3 needed days off. You know when your body just feels tired? That happened. Also the original till system is being updated at the moment, so we have this old fashioned, simple cash register type deal and it’s making everyone stressed out. It was a pretty quiet shift compared to last night.

I came back home to my parents looking through old photographs. Oliver got jealous at the lack of attention so I got him to sit next to me on the sofa and he licked my entire face. Thanks O. Then I was bored. Like, I did my usual scrolling and checking and I was bored. I did some SALAD research, wrote a letter to the current tenants of our new house and decided to make a card for a friend. Mum tried sushi for the first time! She is now no longer scared and was like ‘is this it?’ so I’m awaiting round 2. We watched Versailles ep 2 and man it’s a crazy intense show, I’m not quite sure whats happening most of the time, as its quite slow paced, but its so pretty and the costumes and music are to die for.

I had a nice bubble bath with my favourite scent (radox shea butter and ginger, which I’m finding a hard time finding more of) and now I’m making a little playlist of emotional songs before I crack on with the card skeleton. Late night creativity of bloody course

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BEDJ 15

Hello Hello,

I woke up rather late today, but I am feeling rather tired as of late. I walked Oliver in the rain (It’s raining, a complete weather change) and then debated about going to the university of Gloucestershire degree show (it closes on Friday, so I was either going to go today or Friday on my day off) and I decided to go as the rain relented. Long story short, I was disappointed. Some shows are like that, and I wasn’t really that impressed by any of it. I liked the presumably Fine Art section but nothing really wowed me. I have selective taste now, an awful art critic. I ended up walking all the way through town and buying some fancy food at M&S. I debated buying some more art supplies from the closing down art shop, but the clerk made me feel a bit uneasy so I left empty handed. I then spent the afternoon reading Brian Wilson’s book ‘Wouldn’t It Be Nice’; I’ve become rather obsessed with Brian Wilson after watching ‘Love & Mercy’ so I’m reading his emotional, self-penned book. I debated saving it till next week where I’m on a lot of trains, but my curiosity beat me.

Then I got my rota for next week. Next week is rather busy for me, as it’s not only my birthday, but I’m going down to Bournemouth and going to a concert as well as working. I was supposedly granted 4 days off work next week, but I was given two out of four free. I instantly panicked, as one of that days I was working was on a planned day; the concert. I instantly sorted it out and swapped shifts, but I was so worried that I wouldn’t get it free or that I would get reprimanded for asking for too much time off. It reminded me of how much I can worry, and how quickly my mood can change. I felt rather crap about myself, but Morgan chatted me through it.

I’ve been thinking about myself and my image at the moment, and I’m realising that I am not significantly good at anything, nor am I ‘special’. I don’t really excel in anything and I don’t have any burning passions. I’m just ordinary.

#wrong blog #bedj

BEDJ 14

chuffed that these are still going, go me!

Today was comparably quieter than my Bristol trip yesterday! I woke up relatively early, which I had not planned but I rolled with it. I just relaxed in my room till I got up, bathed and walked Oliver. Then I walked Dad to the supermarket and it POURED with rain. Then we watched Love & Mercy together. That film. Wow. I had no idea how horrific Brian Wilson’s life was. I felt very sad and solemn. Then I kind of drifted around watching more Ouran, listening to the Beach Boys, researching into more Love and Mercy stuff and listening to the emotional soundtrack. I didn’t get to the art show today but I am aiming to tomorrow.

Short but sweet, and on time!

#bedj

Hello hello! This is technically late but I’m here!

Today was my exciting Bristol trip with my best pal, Millicent/Millz/Mille

We had a little list of firm things we wanted to do, but only achieved one of them! Turns out going on a Monday meant lots of arty place were closed...clever of us! We got lunch after the train at The Three Brothers (No HP link but there was a fish tank) and then we wandered to Spike Island, where we planned to go to the actual Spike Island but it was closed. This was perhaps a sign, because we were very much inspired regardless by the city itself. It was nice as we chatted, caught up and generally joked and discussed the different levels of aesthetic as we walked around the varied city. We popped into a few shops on the highstreet, and then walked up to Clifton where we found the gem of the day; Papersmiths. We were in there for a while lets just say. I picked up a card for fathers day, a black pencil, a yellow hexagonal rubber, a design notebook and a tiny little cut card. Apparently we were seconds away from one of my dads favourite cafes but alas I had no idea. Then we just wandered back, somehow found ourselves back on the highstreet, and we popped into our favourite local cafe chain; BTP. We chatted, did a little drawing and I was surprised by a sudden seagull. God I love BTP, the Boston red berry tea is my FAVOURITE (I had it iced and its l o v e l y). Then the day wound down as we got our train home. Then I spent my evening just relaxing, watching more Ouran, and a lot of tv with the parents (Sewing Bee, First Dates Aussie, M.I.C)

Looking forward to a few more days off, and I am hoping to go to the local uni art show tomorrow! Feeling more inspired and positive at last. I think I just needed a chat and a travel. Love ya Millz.

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BEDJ 10/11

I completely forgot yesterday, so I’ll try to remember a recap… I worked.

10 - I did some more drawing (my motivation is limited to 2/3 days and I HATE it) My shifts mean that I work through the middle of the day, so really work is my day. I’m very boring at the moment.

11 - Today, work was SO busy, like, INTENSELY BUSY. We have 2 festivals in walking distance, and it was fucking insane. It was very busy, and I really struggled to find my place in the setup behind the counter. I almost cried at one point because it was rather overwhelming and frustrating. I hate doing things wrong, but I also hate being told what to do multiple times. I felt a bit like a kid, but you really just have to bit your lip and do it. I didn’t have a break for 5 hours, and to be honest I didn’t really notice till I was being very slow and weak. The shift ended and everyone was really pally with each other which is great. Dean the pigeon keeps coming back. I should have mentioned this, but we seem to have a resident pigeon which we have named Dean. I hobbled home as per usual, booked some train tickets to Bournemouth and had a takeaway. My life is painfully boring, this is all I’m doing, I feel so boring and useless. I NEED A PROJECT, I NEED SOMETHING. damn, ella, damn.

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BEDJ 12

I continue this writing journey!

Today was a slightly odd day, I woke up at 4am with stomach cramps (aka I was in the bathroom for a while) and caught on my subbox, as you do. Then I woke up a few hours later, HATING my uterus to get up for work. I managed one paracetamol before I started retching. I’m normally okay with taking pills but not recently hell no.

Work was busy, still fitting into the unspoken system when it’s the weekend, so I mainly kept out the way and tried to help. I was relieved to finish, and dashed out. 6 straight days. I haven’t done that for a while, and even though I could probably plough on, I am so incredibly grateful for a few days off. Millie and I have planned a day at Bristol tomorrow (Salad ideas, Spike Island, Bristol Lido...) and we’re very excited. I am so desperate for inspiration and spirit lifting so I am very optimistic (also means I will have an interesting blog post)

I spent the most of my evening lazily watching Ouran, and browsing the internet for clothes and the like. I was very disturbed by the Pulse Shootings (50 dead, 53 injured) in Florida, and I was scouting the news. Utterly horrific. There needs to be gun control, there needs to.

I don’t normally comment on these kind of events in public, in fact I very rarely voice my opinion on issues because I usually don’t see the need to, or that my voice doesn’t mean much in the scheme of things so I keep it to myself.

I watched a fab programme with the parents about Dick Strawbridge’s French chateau renovation and I was captivated. I also did some drawing! Bloody hell.

I’m 20 in 10 days, and seeing Sigur Ros in 11. Holy.

#bedj

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