Leo Hunter Thomson

@leohunter2020

Always remeber, It's okay not to be okay. Leo Hunter, 21.

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The call had come in the middle of an otherwise ordinary day, turning everything upside down in a matter of seconds. Their surrogate's waters had broken early, and within what felt like moments, Isaiah and Leo had found themselves racing through the hospital doors, adrenaline and excitement carrying them forward. The hours that followed had blurred together into a haze of nervous pacing, half-finished cups of coffee, anxious glances at clocks, and constant updates from nurses. Every minute had felt impossibly long. And then, somehow, it was over. The twins were here.

Now, standing in the quiet hallway outside the nursery room where their babies were waiting, Isaiah found himself frozen for the first time all day. The frantic energy that had carried him through the last several hours suddenly vanished, replaced by something softer, heavier. His hand reached for Leo's automatically, squeezing it tightly as he turned to look at him. For a moment, he simply stared. There was so much love in his chest he thought it might split him open. "Hey," he said quietly, his voice rough with emotion. "You know that whatever happens after we walk through that door, we're gonna figure it out, right?" A breathless laugh escaped him. "We're gonna be exhausted and terrified half the time. We'll probably spend the next year wondering if we're doing everything right. But those babies," His eyes flickered toward the room before settling back on Leo. "They're already the luckiest kids in the world because they get to have you as a father."

Isaiah stepped closer, lifting their joined hands between them. "I've wanted this for so long," he murmured, his thumb brushing over Leo's knuckles. "And you're going to be incredible, I can feel it. The late nights, the diapers, the tantrums, the first steps, the parenting, all of it. You're going to love them so much that nothing else is going to matter." His smile widened, watery and genuine. "We're about to go and meet our kids." Then, with a nervous laugh and a final squeeze of Leo's hand, Isaiah glanced toward the door. "Ready to go meet the two people who are about to completely ruin our sleep schedule for the next god knows how long?"

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Leo had luckily had the day off when the call came in. He had been quietly putting away clothes he had washed as he prepared for the arrival of their babies. He was excited; they were pretty much ready, just a few small things left. However, as Isaiah informed him the babies were coming, Leo panicked and ran to the car with their hospital bag and no shoes. He, of course, realized before they drove off and went and got his shoes. At the hospital, Leo was a mess; he couldn't count how many half-cups of coffee he had had, and he didn't even like coffee. He also kept finding himself at the vending machine buying things even tho he had no appetite at all. His pacing always ended in Isaiah's arms, listening to his man assure him everything would be fine. Because Leo kept running all the what-ifs through his mind and freaked himself out for no reason.

After getting the news that they were finally here, Leo just stood there with his husband in disbelief. Could it really be? Were they dreaming? Leo could feel his worries melt away, his panic state vanishing as he held Isaiah's hand and looked him in the eyes. " yeah, i know baby, We will figure everything out together," Leo said with more certainty than ever. He wasn't doubting one bit for the first time. He chuckled with Isaiah and looked at the door as his man did, then back at him. He listened contentedly and nodded his head," and because they get to have you as their father as well. They are so lucky. You have always taken such good care of me and i know you will take even better care of them." Leo smiled so wide, tightening his grip on Isaiahs hand. He bit his lip softly, taking in the moment, their last moments as only husbands. After they walked through the door, they would officially be husbands and fathers; their lives were about to change for good, for the better.

"yeah, it has been your dream for the longest time," he smiled so wide as he knew his husband's dream was coming true. Leo of course, dreamt of it too, but kids weren't something he had ever thought about before meeting Isaiah, it was a dream that had formed for him as the two of them talked about the future, then got married. The longing for a bigger family had only grown with their relationship for Leo. He listened closely to his husband speak and he couldnt helt but smile " thank you baby. you are going to be a wonderful dad. we can do this all, the good and the hard, together." he smiled so wide at Isiaha and kissed him softly " we dont need sleep, we will be okay" he assured Isaiah as he nodded " im ready baby, lets go, lets go" he said pulling his hand a bit. Excitement had completely taken over everything in his body; he wasn't nervous, he wasn't scared, he wasn't thinking a thousand things. Leo's mind was quiet. All he wanted was to meet their babies together right now. He opened the door, almost pulling Isaiah with him.

Isaiah watched Leo the way he always did, attentive, steady, quietly absorbing every shift in his tone and expression. When Leo mentioned the ice cream, Isaiah’s lips curved faintly, his hand brushing Leo’s arm. “Then we’re getting you vanilla ice cream,” he said simply, like it was already decided. And when Leo teased about getting tired on the beach, Isaiah didn’t miss a beat. “Then I carry you, or we sit. Doesn’t matter where we go, as long as you’re there.” Hearing Leo suggest calling his parents mom and dad softened something deep in him, his thumb brushing over Leo’s hand. “Yeah, they’d love that. Can you already imagine how they are going to react to the news of having grandbabies?"

When Leo spoke about forever and hoping for more good than bad, Isaiah’s gaze held his, calm and certain. “Even if it’s not all sunshine and rainbows, we’ll still be okay. You and me, we’ve already been through the worst parts.” And when the doubt slipped through Leo's mind, Isaiah answered instantly, his hand firm against Leo’s face as their foreheads touched. “Yes. You are going to be more than alright.” His thumb grazed under Leo’s eye. “They’re already lucky. You love them like this already and you've not even met them in person yet. Besides, you have nothing to prove to yourself, me or anyone else."

At the mention of night shifts and chaos ahead, Isaiah let out a quiet chuckle, lacing their fingers together. “We’ve been training for this without knowing,” he murmured. “And I’ll take the worse shifts if it gets too much.” When Leo spoke about being chosen, Isaiah’s expression shifted, more intent, his grip grounding. “I picked you because you were one of the only firefighters that night we first met that was brave and selfless and of course hot, and I’d do it again. Every time.” There was no hesitation in him, just a quiet, immovable certainty. Leo caught his attention that first night and he hadn't thought of anybody else since.

Outside, with fresh air replacing the sterile stillness, Isaiah stayed close, their hands still joined. At Leo’s excitement about “two mini Isaiahs,” he huffed a soft laugh. “That sounds like trouble,” he said, glancing over before softening. “though I wouldn’t mind if they both looked like you instead." His thumb brushed over Leo’s knuckles again, grounding, steady. “Either way,” he murmured, voice low and sure, “they’re ours. I don't mind who they end up looking like. You. Me. Doesn't matter to me. We'd love them all the same. Our little ones. Our mini-Kings."

Leo found comfort in the way his husband always watched him, it grounded him, brought him peace. " I like that, but first we need dinner, what do you fancy?" leo wondered with a smile. " you´ll carry me baby?" awww your cute, but i dont think you can handle all this" he teased tho they both knew Isaiah easily could. " i can totally imagine that, mom is going to cry for sure and i think dad will be at loss of words" he chuckled " can we go call them right now? do we call mom or dad first?" he thought out loud. He didnt want anyone to be upset but they couldnt tell everyone at the same time.

" As long as we are together, which is forever so we will be okay" he agreed with a smile. " you are right, we have been through the worst, it cant get that bad again," he said then pushed the thought away. He did not wanna get stuck in that loop of toughts again. Leo listened to his husband's reassuring words and took a deep breath, taking it in. It was true, Leo already loved them so much and they were only tinytiny beans at this point. " you are going to be the best dad in the world" He told Isaiah with a smile. " i sure am lucky to get to rais our chilren with you" he said as excitement started really taking over.

Leo looked at his husband and tilted his head." I believe that deep down we knew all along. " he chuckled and kissed isaiah softly. " oh no you are not, we will take turns, we are in this together, baby, and we are having two, you can not take all the hardest shifts alone. Who knows if we can even take the night shift alone, maybe we both need to be there, i mean they are two after all" Leo thought out loud. Hearing Isaiah talk so foundly of Leo that night they first met always warmd his heart and he never got tired of hearing it, even to he always blused at the words. " i love you so muc Isaiah, i am the luckiest man alive Isaiah, you dont even know" he looked his man in the eyes with the widest of smiled, the certainty in his husbands voice always made him feel like a million bucks.

With the fresh air, Leo started to physically feel better as well. Emotionally, he felt good after his talk with Isaiah. Leo was now only filled with excitement and happiness. " I know, pure trouble, pure adorableness and fun" he said squealing with excitement. " right, i dont think that will be any less trouble" he smirked. " Maybe we get one of each" he suggested. " i wouldnt be too mad about it, fuck it, lets be honest, we dont care what or who they look like, i just hope for happy healthy babies." He of cause wouldnt mind however they turned out, but imagining and thinking about it was exciting and fun. " Our mini-kings. Oh baby, I´m so excited, can you believe it, not even 9 months and we will have our mini-kings" He smiled even wider " mini-kings, i think thats my new favorite word, " he was almost bouncing with joy at this point" come on baby lets go. "

Isaiah could see it all over Leo’s face, the awe, the fear, the overwhelming love. It mirrored his own heart, but where Leo felt the fear creeping in, Isaiah felt an almost electric steadiness. Yes, it was terrifying. Yes, it was bigger than anything they had ever done. But it was theirs. When Leo admitted he really, really wanted ice cream, Isaiah let out a warm laugh, brushing his thumb along Leo’s cheek. “Ice cream?” he repeated softly, eyes shining. “We’re about to become fathers of two and that’s your biggest craving? I love you.” He leaned his forehead against Leo’s. “We’ll get the biggest cups they have. Two spoons. Celebrate big."

At the mention of walking on the beach barefoot, Isaiah didn’t hesitate. “Yeah,” he said immediately, voice gentler. “Shoes off. Pants rolled up. Just us and the waves. I’ll hold your hand the whole time"” His grin widened slightly. When Leo joked about it being dangerous to go home alone together, Isaiah huffed a soft laugh. “Oh, it’s absolutely dangerous,” he murmured playfully. “Two husbands. No responsibilities for a few more months. That’s a risky situation.” He brushed their noses together before nodding at the idea of the photos. “Fridge and mirror. So every morning we wake up and remember this moment. Remember that we're becoming parents."

At the question of who to call first, Isaiah thought for a second, but his eyes never left Leo’s. “Honestly? I don’t care who we call first as long as I get to keep looking at you like this for another minute.” His thumb traced slow circles at Leo’s jaw. “But maybe we start with the people who believed in us from the beginning. The ones who knew we’d get here. My parents, Violet and Sky?"

When Leo said he couldn’t imagine taking this step with anyone else, Isaiah’s expression softened completely. “Good,” he whispered. “Because I couldn’t do this with anyone else. I don’t want anyone else. It's always been you to me." Then he felt it, the slight shift. The fear in Leo’s eyes. Isaiah didn’t pull away. If anything, he held him steadier. “Hey,” he said quietly, firm but gentle. “You don’t have to hope. I’ve seen you. The way you love. The way you care. The way you already worry about doing it right.” He pressed his forehead to Leo’s again. “Bad fathers don’t worry about being bad fathers. They just don't care. You’re already proving you’re going to be incredible." When Leo said he hoped he could be half as good as Isaiah would be, Isaiah shook his head slightly. “There’s no halves here,” he murmured. “We’re a team. And our kids? They’re going to have two fathers who chose them. Who fought for them. Who already love them more than anything.” His voice softened further. “That’s more than enough.”

As Leo told him he’d be the best father in the world and kissed him, Isaiah kissed him back slowly, deliberately, not rushed, not overwhelmed, just full of certainty. “We’re going to be okay,” he whispered against Leo’s lips. “Scared sometimes. Tired definitely. Covered in spit-up and sick in a couple of months ? Absolutely. But okay.” His hands stayed cupping Leo’s face, grounding him. “And I’m not letting you carry the fear alone. Not now. Not ever. You are the love of my life. My soulmate. The person I was always meant to find." His thumb traced along Leo’s cheekbone, eyes warm and steady. “I would choose you in every lifetime. In every version of this world. In every possible future.” He let out a soft breath, almost a small, disbelieving laugh. “And the fact that I get to raise our babies with you? That I get to watch you become a father? That’s the greatest gift I’ve ever been given.”

Without trying or realizing it, Leo did depend on his husband for stedyness, to deal with and regulate his emotions. Isaiah's presence, smile, warmth, understanding and gentleness it was all Leo needed. He didn't need to talk about it constantly; he didn't need to be asked all the time. Which Leo loved with Isaiah, the man was there for him no matter what in ways most people wouldn't understand. Isaiah read Leo like a book and knew when he just needed him there and in what way. To leo that was magic. He didnt understand how Isaiah knew him so well, but it was extremely valuable. Leo couldnt help but chuckle at Isaiahs comment " What? i cant help it. I really really want vanilla ice cream, and i dont think we have much time for it once they come into the world. Its gonna be hectic," he said with a wide smile. He meant it in the best way.

Leo smiled as Isaiah talked about the walk on the beach. " what if i get tired?" he asked with a smirk. He knew he wouldnt but he was too tempted to see what he would said. " yeah, two husbands with a few more months of no responsibilities and freedom. We better use the time well before our lives change forever," his smiled even wider " i like being reminded first thing in the morning, tho i could never forget, you know what i mean" he bit his lip " and as time goes, we can add to the pictures as they grow," he said with excitement.

" you can look at me all you want love" Leo assured Isaiah, tho that didnt help his question at all " yeah those four were the once who came to my mind too. i think we call mom and dad first tho." he suggested. To Leo, isaiahs parents were just as much his as Isaahs and they were the only parents Leo had at this point. He however, had never called them mom and dad, till now.

" its us two forever baby, we go through life side by side, through it all, good and bad" he looked isaiah in he eyes" but hopefully most good from now on, we are done with the bad things" he then said hopeful. He of cause knew life wouldnt just be rainbows and butterflies from now on, but they had been through so much really rough stuff and Leo really hoped they were finished with the hardest things. That the hard things to come wouldn't be as bad. Leo teared up at Isaiah's response as the fear had hit Leo " you... you really mean that? you think i´ll be an alright dad?" he rested his forehead against his husbands. " i want them to have the best life. I want them to be diciplined and polite, but also have the most fun and get everything they want in life" Leo looked his husband in the eyes "i really do love them already" he agreed

Leo kissed back softly and filled with love " we are going to be okay" he repeated, assuring himself more than anyone else " he giggled a little bit " good thing our schedules at work keep us up at different hours of the day, we are in a little bit of training for the night shift, with twins" he chuckled

" you know, i´m really glad you found me and picked me, cuz back then i was so blind to everything thats good for me. Like a relationship.... that wasnt even a thought in my head" it was sad, but true. Back then Leo didnt really think of a future; he hadnt really wanted anything that could build a steady future. He was only living to survive to the next day, then he met Isaiah and everything changed. Leo leaned in to Isaiahs hands as he cupped his face, a soft sigh of comfort as he felt his warmth and Isaiahs thumbs on his skin " i feel the same way my love, it really is the biggest gift to get to do this with you and see you blosom into worlds best father. " he smled, Isaiah had yet again managed to pull him away from state of panic and fear.

After they got the pictures and the ultrasound was over. Leo hugged their surrogate and her husband. He thanked them yet again then took Isaiahs hand and walked out. He couldnt take being there much longer. The sterile smell was making him feel so faint. " i cant believe this" he then commented as he walked out of the building. " how? oh my god, do you think we will get two mini Isaiahs running around the house?" he asked so excited. " that wouldbe so cool"

He laughed softly under his breath, the kind of laugh that came straight from his chest, and wrapped his arms around his husband like he never wanted to let go. Hearing Leo say the words out loud—twins—made it real, and Isaiah couldn’t stop smiling.

In a few months, they wouldn’t just be husbands anymore. They’d be parents. Four, just like Leo said. The thought made Isaiah’s heart feel full in ways that he couldn't even explain. Isaiah laughed again, pressing kisses along Leo's cheek without even thinking about it. Bigger meant louder, messier, fulle and more love than he’d ever imagined having. One was lucky, two was beyond anything he could have ever imagined.

When Leo said they needed to celebrate, Isaiah grinned wide, eyes shining as he looked at his husband. He was already thinking about the future—nurseries, names, late nights, and a life that felt brighter than anything he’d ever dreamed of. Celebrating felt like the only possible next step. “Oh, we have to make this big,” he said happily. “Like dinner somewhere nice, lots of food, dessert we definitely don’t need, and maybe taking a walk after and just talking about names and everything we wanna do for them.”

He smiled wider, completely in love, brushing his thumb along Leo’s cheek. “And when we get home, we celebrate just us,” Isaiah added, voice warm and full of promise. “Ultrasound pictures on the fridge that we can stare at, calling people we love, and just soaking it all in. Because this is our beginning as a family.” His eyes softened as he looked at Leo, excitement bubbling over. “However we do it, I just wanna do it all with you. I wouldn't want to raise a family with any one other than you, Leo Hunter King."

Isaiah’s expression softened even more as he looked at Leo, joy giving way to something warm and tender. He smiled, the kind of smile that came from deep in his heart, and cupped Leo’s face gently. He let out a small, happy laugh. “You know,” Isaiah said quietly, “I already know you’re gonna be an amazing dad.” His eyes shone as he kept talking, completely sincere. “You’re patient, you’re brave, you're strong, and you love so deeply. Our kids are gonna feel so safe with you. They’re gonna grow up knowing they’re loved every single second, just like I feel, everyday I'm with you."

Leo couldnt describe how he was feeling. He had a good set of mixed emotions, everything was double now, the love, the laughs, the cry, the amount of bottles and dirty diapers. It wasnt a bad thing, no not at all, it was amazing but it was also really scary to Leo. He had been really worried already and now there were two babies. However, hearing Isaiah laugh so genuinely and be so happy made Leo able to push those thoughts away.

" yeah? i like that, celebrate big. Good food and all. But i really really want ice cream" Leo admitted, right now that was what he wanted most of all, after being alone with Isaiahof cause. " can we take a walk on the beach with our shoes off?" Leo asked, he loved the feeling of the sand on his toes.

" home just us? that sounds dangerous" leo joked with a small chuckle. " yeah i wanna put it on the fridge and one on the mirror over the vanity in our bedroom," he added " who do you wanna call first?" he then wondered. Right now he was totally forgetting time and place, in his head it was just the two of them and they were for sure not in a fertility clinic. Leos eyes were locked on his husband " i cant imagine taking this step with anyone other than you my love" he agreed with his man. This really was a dream come true

Feeling Isaiahs hands cup his face, Leo just melted and became one with him. However, as his han man started complimenting him and telling him how good of a Father he would be, fear set in and was wisible in his eye. " i really hope so" he whispered " if i can be half as god of a father as you will be, i think we will be really good" he said. " your going to be the best father in the world" he said and kissed him softly.

Jesse let out a tired chuckle as he slid into the passenger seat, running a hand over his face before glancing at Leo. He shook his head slightly, a soft smile creeping in despite the exhaustion. “Yeah, it’s… it’s going,” he said with a tired laugh. “The little one’s good—healthy, loud as hell sometimes.” He shook his head. “And no, definitely not sleeping through the night yet. I don’t even remember what that’s like anymore. I can't remember the last time I had a good night's sleep if I'm being honest." He leaned back in the seat, exhaling. “We’re up every couple hours. Feedings, diapers, walking around trying to get Millie to settle.” A small smile tugged at his mouth. “Odette’s doing amazing though. She was made to be a mom." He gave a small, serious smile. “Honestly, man,” he said quietly, “Odette and Millie… they’re my whole world now.” He let out a soft breath. “Everything’s different. I don’t just think about myself anymore. Being a dad, just for this short time, it’s matured me. I gotta be responsible now. There’s this tiny little person depending on me for everything, and I can’t screw that up.” He paused, then added with a light chuckle, “Doesn’t mean I’ve got it all figured out, but I’m trying." Jesse cleared his throat, shifting in his seat before glancing back at Leo, a faint grin breaking through the seriousness. “But enough about me,” he said, nudging Leo lightly with his elbow. “How’re you and Isaiah doing?” He raised a brow, interest genuine.

´Leo listened to his friend talk about life with a tiny one and even tho he knew it was tough, it sounded tough as hell, he couldnt help but envy him. He couldnt help to envy how easy the whole process had been for him and Odette and that they had a little one at home already. It was such a beautiful thing and he prayed to god that soon him and Isaiah would be in their shoes, unable to sleep at night cause they had to take care of a litle noisey poopmachine. " i know its tough and going through it all on no sleep is hard but just promise me to not to forget to enjoy it. " he reminded his friend. " oh yeah? i bet she is, she seemes like the perfect woman to fill the shoes of a mother. Odette is so patient and kind." Leo smiled " yeah ? your whole world? i bet they are, i´m so happy for you man. Its hard but so worth it i bet" He listened carefully as Jessie spoke " so your finally growing up man?" he teased" naah, but the beautiful thing is that you dont have to have it all figured out, its what makes everything fun, to learn, and figure things out. especially together with the person you love" he told him and smiled at the thought.

" isaiah and i?" Leo thought for a bit biting his lip, unsure if he should say but Jessie was one of his best mates and coworker " well...i mean.... we are trying to start a family" he admitted and bit his lip.

Leo didnt notice at first, but once the stinging sensation hit him, he realized he had taken up an old habit, a habit he though he had managed to shake, but apparently not. It was triggered by fear, fear and stress and Leo was not prepared well enough for anything being wrong with their baby, their future. He could feel his nails break the skin as his fist tightened. Leo quickly moved his hand to the front pocket of his hoodie, he couldn open his fist, it was stuck, his muscles frozen. Isaiah could not see.

" yeah, it does sound double" leo agreed with a whisper, he did not understand anything of what was happening but it was certainly not normal, something was wrong and Leo kind of didnt want to know right now. He didnt want their dream to be crushed.

For a second, Leo looked at the screen, then the nurse. But it didnt take long till he looked back at his husband with tears in is eyes. " im sorry baby" Leo had kind of just figured at this point that this didnt work out. The fetus wouldnt make it.

Leo took a deep breath as she told them to wait, he didnt realize he was holding it. He looked at the nurse work, he looked at the probe, then back at Isaiah as if Isaiah understood everything that was going on. " whats happening?? " he finally whispered, voice shaking

When he hears Isaiah say 'two' Leo just got even more confused, he looked at the screen, then at his husband, back at the screen and again at his husband " two what? what do you mean two? what is that?" he asked speaking fast.

"wait what? two as in two babies? twins?" Leo asked Isaiah as he heard the nurse. He needed it confirmed by Isaiah, he couldnt believe it, it was a big thing to take in. Leo sat there in disbelieve looking at his husband. He bit his lip softly then stood up to stand by his man

Isaiah’s face broke before the words even finished leaving Leo’s mouth. The shock was there, sure—but it was drowned out by something warmer, brighter. He stood up quickly and pulled Leo straight into his arms, laughing softly under his breath as he hugged him tight. “Hey—hey,” Isaiah said, voice thick with excitement. “Did you hear that? Two.” He squeezed Leo like he couldn’t help it, like the joy had nowhere else to go. “Two heartbeats,” Isaiah continued, pulling back just enough to look at him, eyes shining. “Two babies. We’re having twins.” He shook his head with a breathy laugh, disbelief and happiness tangled together. “I can’t believe it,” he said, smiling wide now. “I mean—wow. That’s… that’s incredible.” Isaiah leaned his forehead against Leo’s, still holding him close.

“That’s our family,” he said softly. “Bigger than we thought—but perfect.” Then he hugged him again, tighter this time, pure happiness in the way he held his husband. Isaiah couldn’t stop smiling. It felt like his chest might actually burst. He kept one arm wrapped tightly around Leo while he leaned in, pressing soft, happy kisses along Leo’s cheek, like he needed the contact to make it real.

He glanced at the screen again—their screen—and his eyes softened completely. Then Isaiah looked over at the surrogate, emotion clear in his voice when he spoke. “You’re amazing,” he said honestly, almost breathless. “Really. Thank you… thank you so much.”

Before she could even respond, he turned back to Leo, kissing his cheek again, then again, a quiet laugh slipping out of him. His eyes flicked back to the monitor. He pulled Leo closer, forehead resting against his temple, still smiling like he couldn’t believe his own life. “Those are our babies."

It took Leo a second to realice what the words really meant cuz he was in disbelieve. It slowly started to sink in tho and as Isaiah laughed so softly under his breath giving Leo a hug. He couldnt help but laugh softly with him. Leo gave isaiah a one arm hug back " yeah, i heard baby, they are two, we are having twins" he said exitedly. Leo was way more on the down low with his happiness compared to Isaiah but that was just how the man was. As isaiah looked him in the eyes. Leo stared right back in to his husbands eyes " can you believe it? In a few months we will be 4" he said with glee. Leo loved how his man was holding him so close and he couldnt help but give him a soft kiss. Leo who had been so worried they wouldnt be able to have kids, their kids, and now here they were going to have two. It were wonderful news.

" the bigger the better right? " leo asked. His voice rather quiet but still showing so much joy and excitment. Leo smiled so wide and as isaiah kissed along his cheek he couldnt help but to laugh more and louder. Isaiah brought him so much joy and seeing him this happy really warmed leos heart " our twins" he said giggling more.

Leo looked to where isaiah was looking as he spoke to their surrogate. Leo just smiled letting his man talk. He was so cute as he spoke. Leo just bit his lip as he smiled. Oh how adorable his man was being right now. He couldnt get over it. Feeling another kiss on his cheek, he couldnt help but giggle " babe" he giggled more then looked at the screen and back at his man. " yeah, those are our babies" he confirmed and kissed isaiah deeply.as he pulled away he asked if they could get photoes. Turning back to isaiah he commented " babe we need to celebrate" he was trying so hard not to bounce off the walls with joy

the twins were asleep, and romeo was busy correcting exams and projects for his class, so when leo said he wanted to meet, she didn’t hesitate to invite him over. if there was one thing skylar loved, it was her coffee — she worked at a coffee shop, and after months of limiting herself during pregnancy, she was thrilled to finally enjoy it again. “but this is the best coffee i can make you,” she chuckled, “if i could, i’d get an iv just to have it in my system forever.” she smiled, holding the cup. “i like it with vanilla — want to try adding some? or maybe caramel, it might mask the bitterness?”

Leo wasnt the biggest coffee drinker but he would take a cup every now and then just cuz of the company. He knew Sky loved it and so he would have a cup with her. He hated he tase tho " hm... maybe both will make it better?" he suggested tho honestly he had no idea " what do you think? do people order that?" he asked her knowing Sky knew way more about it than him. Leo just figured the more different tastes and sugar, the less coffee taste there would be

Isaiah’s head tilted slightly at Leo’s whisper, the faint tremor in his voice drawing his attention away from the monitor’s shifting lines. The room was filled with the rhythmic thud of the machine, yet there was something about it—an odd distortion, like the sound was bouncing back on itself.

The beat wasn’t clean; it almost echoed, as if coming from two different places at once. His brows knit together, confusion flickering across his face. “Yeah… I hear it too,” he murmured, his tone low, uncertain. His gaze flicked toward the nurse, then back to the screen, and finally to Leo. “Why does it sound like that? It’s… almost doubled."

The sound seemed to grow stranger the more he focused on it, the repetition of each beat layering faintly on itself, hollow and distant. Isaiah’s stomach tightened. Without a word, she adjusted the probe, the gel gliding smoothly over the surrogate’s skin as she angled the screen toward her.

The nurse’s eyes widened slightly. “Wait a second,” she said under her breath. Her tone changed—no longer casual, but threaded with quiet surprise. She traced a few more motions with the probe, then nodded slowly as a faint smile began to spread across her face. “Oh,” she exhaled softly, glancing back at both men. “That’s why it sounded doubled.”

On the monitor, two small sacs glowed faintly against the dark backdrop, each pulsing with its own steady rhythm—synchronized yet separate, two distinct heartbeats filling the room. Isaiah stared, his earlier tension replaced by stunned disbelief. “Two?” he asked, almost under his breath, his voice caught somewhere between awe and confusion.

The nurse nodded, her smile now warm and certain. “Two,” she confirmed gently. “You’re hearing both heartbeats. Looks like you’ve got non identical twins.”

Leo didnt notice at first, but once the stinging sensation hit him, he realized he had taken up an old habit, a habit he though he had managed to shake, but apparently not. It was triggered by fear, fear and stress and Leo was not prepared well enough for anything being wrong with their baby, their future. He could feel his nails break the skin as his fist tightened. Leo quickly moved his hand to the front pocket of his hoodie, he couldn open his fist, it was stuck, his muscles frozen. Isaiah could not see.

" yeah, it does sound double" leo agreed with a whisper, he did not understand anything of what was happening but it was certainly not normal, something was wrong and Leo kind of didnt want to know right now. He didnt want their dream to be crushed.

For a second, Leo looked at the screen, then the nurse. But it didnt take long till he looked back at his husband with tears in is eyes. " im sorry baby" Leo had kind of just figured at this point that this didnt work out. The fetus wouldnt make it.

Leo took a deep breath as she told them to wait, he didnt realize he was holding it. He looked at the nurse work, he looked at the probe, then back at Isaiah as if Isaiah understood everything that was going on. " whats happening?? " he finally whispered, voice shaking

When he hears Isaiah say 'two' Leo just got even more confused, he looked at the screen, then at his husband, back at the screen and again at his husband " two what? what do you mean two? what is that?" he asked speaking fast.

"wait what? two as in two babies? twins?" Leo asked Isaiah as he heard the nurse. He needed it confirmed by Isaiah, he couldnt believe it, it was a big thing to take in. Leo sat there in disbelieve looking at his husband. He bit his lip softly then stood up to stand by his man

The shift had just finished and Leo had made plans to hang with Jesse today. He knew Isaiah would be home in no too long, but he missed his friend and he knew his man would be home when he got there later.

The shift had just ended and him and Jesse had made plans to hang out today " hows it going with the little one?" he wondered as he opened the door to the car " still wont sleep through the night? " he wondered

Sky and Leo - Coffee?

Leo had been working on himself a lot lately, work still wasnt the same after he had been away for so long, but Leo couldn't pinpoint what it was that made it feel so different. But that did not matter cuz all he wanted right now was to spend some quality time with his best friend

" Sky, noooo, thats way too much sugar. I dont think the coffee will get any better by adding loads of sugar," he said with a soft laugh as they were trying to make a coffee Leo would actually enjoy. He could drink a cup of coffee every now and then, but it was so far from a go to favorite drink. " i swear, if you add more things to it, it wont be considered coffee anymore." Leo laughed.

Isaiah stood just behind Leo, one hand resting lightly on his waist, the other tucked into his pocket to keep from fidgeting. The hum of the ultrasound machine filled the quiet, a low, steady sound that somehow made his pulse feel louder in his ears. Their surrogate reclined comfortably on the table, her husband seated close by, holding her hand with an easy tenderness that made the whole scene feel grounded. She was all warmth and calm, smiling up at the nurse and at them as the woman rolled her stool closer with the practiced ease of someone who’d done this a hundred times.

“Alright,” the nurse said, her voice soft but cheerful, “this is going to feel a little cold.” The gel made a faint sound as it was squeezed onto the surrogate’s belly, glistening under the light.

Isaiah shifted closer behind Leo, his thumb absently tracing the line of his hipbone. His gaze flicked between the screen and Leo’s face—the tension in his partner’s jaw, the anticipation written across his expression. The room fell quiet again, the soft movements of the nurse the only sound besides the hum of the machine. Gray static flickered on the screen, then began to take shape. The nurse adjusted the probe, the faint static on the monitor shifting until suddenly—there it was. A rhythmic, rapid thump filled the room, clear and alive.

For a second, Isaiah forgot how to breathe. His heart seemed to skip entirely, stuttering in his chest as that tiny, perfect sound filled every corner of the space.

“There we go,” the nurse said softly, smiling toward the screen. “That’s your baby’s heartbeat.”

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Leo sat there looking around. The sterile environment of hospitals still to the day freaked him out. Something that sat deep within him but he refused to let it win. Leo was not going to miss this moment for anything. He was not going to let his father win. This moment was his, his and Isaiahs and nothing was going to ruin it.

Leo looked around nervously, he looked behind him at Isaiah. Thats all he needed for ease. As soon as he heard the nurse's chair move, he looked back at her, watching her every movement. Leo couldnt wait to see this, he was so excited, and the fact that they would get to listen to the heartbeat made it even more special. Leo took a deep breath as he watched the nurse put the gel on. Even tho Leo was excited, he was also worried and prepared for anything that could go wrong. Or he liked to believe he was.

As the hum of the machine got over taken by the sound of a steady beat, Leo squinted his eyes a little, not to look at the screen, but in more of a focused way. A tick of his, if Leo got concentrated on sounds, he would squint his eyes and turn his head a little to the side in the direction of the sound. There was something wrong. This did not sound right; this was not a normal heartbeat. At first, he thought maybe it was the baby and the heartbeat of their surrogate, but that didnt sound right. Leo looked at Isaiah, he heard the doctor, but he didnt get it.

" whats wrong? it dosnt sound right Zaya" leo whispered hoping isaiah had all the answers for him. Leo was freaking out on the inside. Was the baby not going to make it? why did its heart sound so strange?

Isaiah could barely keep it together. The moment he said the words—they were going to be dads—he watched Leo crumble in the most beautiful way. Tears filled his husband’s eyes, and Isaiah’s own vision blurred instantly. This was it. This was the moment he'd dreamt of for so long—not just being a father, but becoming one with Leo. And now, sitting there, witnessing the love of his life light up with disbelief and overwhelming joy, Isaiah felt like his heart had never beat louder or fuller. Leo's words hit Isaiah like a warm wave. He smiled, eyes wet, his chest shaking with a soft, joyful laugh. Seeing Leo shift from confusion and fear to radiant, glowing happiness made Isaiah feel like he could finally breathe again. He had wanted this so deeply, so completely. And now it was real. It was happening.

Leo’s excitement was contagious. He listened as his husband did the math out loud and Isaiah let out a soft laugh, one hand still cupping Leo’s face, the other resting over his heart like he was trying to hold in the emotion threatening to pour out. “Yeah,” Isaiah finally whispered, his voice thick with tears, “just four more days, baby. Our whole world is going to change for the better."

Isaiah held Leo close, heart full, eyes still glassy with emotion, and he just listened—really listened—as Leo started rattling off his excitement. Isaiah couldn’t stop grinning as he nodded along with every word, his arms still wrapped around Leo’s waist. “Yes, yes, all of it,” he said, his voice thick with joy. “We’re gonna babyproof everything. Like, everything—I’m putting those outlet covers on tonight just to feel useful.” He laughed, wiping another stray tear off his cheek with the heel of his hand. “And we’re picking out paint samples. Oh my God, what color should the nursery be? Wait—do we go with a theme?” He leaned back just enough to look at Leo’s glowing face, completely swept up in the shared vision of their future. “And we have to tell Violet ,” Isaiah added, suddenly lighting up even more. “She's going to be so excited. Can you imagine Ayiden's reaction already too? He's gonna do a little fist pump in the air - I bet"

The word dad had a double emotional feeling attached to it for Leo. On one hand, it filled him with excitment and joy, on the other, it was the most terrifying word out there. Right now, Leo however could only associate it with good. Him and the love of his life were going to become dads and Leo couldnt even think about anything bad at the moment. It was all rainbows, butterflies and roses. Nice smelling roses. Their dream was coming true. Or were they getting ahead of them selfes? who knew? what was for sure was that right now in the moment, no one cared either. Leo looked at his husband, both teary eyed and he just smiled the widest smile at Isaiah.

" Four more days" he repeated. Leo was unable to be still, constantly shifting where he was sitting " but baby.... how... how is it going to work, do we like have to go somethere to like and office to... you know... in a cup?" he asked all flustered not sure which words to use about it. He hadnt really thought about that part.

Being in Isaiahs arms was Leos favorite place to be. thats where he felt safe, comfortable and oh so loved. He never got enough of being in Isaiahs arms. his warm embrace, leo could feel himself melting. " Tonight baby? we dont even have coveres aaand may i add.... its gonna be a while till the baby even starts crawling after its born, we have like months to take care of that" Leo pointed out giggling, but deep down he was melting at how adorable and protective his husband was. " ooo yes paint samples are fuuun" Leo agreed then thought for a bit " a theme? hm.... oo how about like a forest with those cute baby animals, you know the once with the big eyes, the like innocent looking baby animals" he said, all wheels in his heads turning fast " OOOOO and we can do the walls green, thats like a gender neutral color cause we dont know the sex and we can paint the celing like blue with couds" He suggested with excitement " yeah Sky and Violet, they need to know but i dont think we should tell anyone else yet, cuz i mean... we have no idea how long this will all take from right now and i really dont want to jinx anything" he said realistically. Ideally they would have a baby in 9 months but they knew the risks, sometimes it didnt take the fist times, sometimes it was time consuming and exspensive as hell. " oh my god yes, Aid is gonna be the most excited i bet, and so happy, i can already imagine him fist pumping" Leo said giggling

Isaiah had read a lot of emails in his life—contracts, offers, rejections, schedules—but none like this. As he sat there, eyes scanning every word with focused precision, his husband’s gaze weighed on him. Isaiah could feel Leo watching him, analyzing every twitch of his face, every breath. And for once, Isaiah didn’t offer the usual calm, collected response right away. His face was unreadable—not because he was hiding anything, but because he was overwhelmed. Inside, Isaiah’s heart was racing. He had read the words three times already just to be sure. Confirmed. Match found. Moving forward. Words that carried the weight of a thousand prayers. His eyes welled up, not from sadness but from the uncontainable mix of joy and disbelief.

“We have a surrogate. We’re going to be dads,” Isaiah repeated, almost in awe of his own words. “Me and you.” His thumb brushed across Leo’s knuckles, and he let out a soft, disbelieving laugh. “This is really happening.” When Leo looked up at him through his tears and called it the biggest honor of his life, Isaiah felt his heart tighten in the best way. “It’s ours, baby,” he said softly. “It doesn’t matter how—we made this happen together.” At Leo’s final question, Isaiah turned his eyes back to the screen, glancing over the details once more. “Yeah,” he said, voice steadier now. “The next step is a video call with the agency and the surrogate. It says it could be as soon as next week. Then contracts, screenings… everything starts moving quickly from here.” His eyes returned to Leo’s. “We’re really doing this. Our family is finally starting.”

Isaiah couldn’t stop smiling now, the kind of smile that aches in the best way. The tears in Leo’s eyes mirrored his own, and he felt the sheer force of everything they’d hoped for, everything they’d worked toward, rushing to the surface. Overcome, Isaiah gently brought his hands up to Leo’s face, cupping his cheeks with such care, as though holding something fragile and infinitely precious. Then, without hesitation, Isaiah leaned in and pressed his lips to Leo’s—slow, deep, and filled with every ounce of love in his body. He pulled back only to kiss him again, this time on the cheek, and then again just beside it. And again. And again. He kissed over Leo’s cheeks, his nose, his temples, his forehead, everywhere he could reach, giddy and overwhelmed and in awe of the moment. His breath caught on a laugh as he buried his face against Leo’s neck for a second before pulling back to look at him, his eyes glowing. “Ahh, I love you so fucking much."

Leo felt really uncomfortable not being able to read his husband. Leo wasnt the best people reader, but Isaiah, Leo had learned to read him pretty well, at least to the extent of hints of what was going on with him. He wasn't as good as isaah was at reading Lee but Leo did want to believe he could read his husband. Now, however, he couldnt and it had to be because Isaiah was trying to figure out how to be strong for Leo while he was broken himself, right? This wasn't a match, it couldnt be, or else he would be jumping with joy, right? Leo´s mind was working overtime trying to figure this out. He just could not put it together. Leo was lost and it was uncomfortable, he was becoming more scared and sad with every second.

Until Isaiah confirmed what Leo had doubted would happen today. Seeing his husbands' teary eyes brought tears to his own as he processed what his husband was saying. They were going to be dads? They had a surrogate? They really had a surrogate, they were going to become dads. " we are going to have a baby my love" he told Isaiah, He could barely believe it, but Isaiah didnt lie and he said so. " We are starting our own little family, zaya" Leo could not contain his happyness right now. As he was overcoming the doubt and hesitation, he was realizing this was happening, this really was happening and he was so happy. He listened carefullly as his husband read and told him what was next and that is could all start, the ball could start rolling as soon as next week " wow, baby can you believe it, next week... its thursday.... thats like 3 to 4ish days baby, any time after like 4 days" he said trying to grasp how soon they could really start the process. Leo looked isaiah in the eyes again with the biggest, most genuine smile " baby, our family is really starting" he repeated with a giggle. he was so happy he couldnt contain it. he felt his husbands gentle touch on his chin. It was something so welcme to Leo, it was a touch that grounded him, comforted him, made him feel oh so loved, but this time it felt as there was even more behind it. Leo felt Isaiahs lips on his and kissed back , softly and deeply. Leos head followed as Isaiah pulled back, he didnt like that isaiah stopped the kiss, but as soon as isaiah started kissing him all over, Leo couldnt help but to break out in giggles and laughter. The joy was unbelievable. Seeing the glow from Isaiah brough Loe even more joy, he wasnt sure how to handle it, he looked at the love of his life with the widest smile and tears falling down his face " I love you to baby, so so much, more than life itself" he told him, his eyes not leaving Isiaahs face.

" We need to celebrate" he then told Isaiah, " oooh and i need to tell Sky, and we need to how, we need to make the nursery and babyproof and.." le was speaking fast with so much joy and excitment

Isaiah scanned the email with practiced efficiency, eyes flickering over paragraph after paragraph of formalities and well-structured pleasantries—three long blocks of polished nothing. Then the words that mattered struck him like lightning: Successful. His breath hitched. His heartbeat stumbled and then surged with a rhythm unfamiliar to him, heavy and urgent. They had been matched. A surrogate had agreed to carry their child. Their child. He couldn’t stop the tears from gathering in his eyes, couldn’t hide the tremble in his chest as he looked at his husband, Leo. The man he had chosen again and again, now staring back at him with hope mirrored in his gaze. His forehead gently pressed to Leo’s. One tear traced a slow, glistening path down his cheek as he whispered, voice unsteady but certain, “We’ve been successful. We have a surrogate we’ve been matched with.”

His fingers found Leo’s, trembling, lacing together like they’d done a thousand times before, but never like this. This was different. These were not the hands of men just in love—they were the hands of fathers-to-be. Happy tears blurred Isaiah’s vision as his mask slipped entirely. The cool, composed exterior he always wore gave way to the raw, radiant truth of a dream blooming into life. “Fuck,” he said on an exhale, laughter and tears tangled in his voice, “we’re gonna be dads for real, huh? It all got so real so fast.” He gripped Leo’s hand tighter, grounding himself in the moment. “I couldn’t think of a greater honor in my life than to raise your children.”

Leo watched his husband carefully as he read the email. For some reason, Leo couldnt read him now, he wasnt sure if it was good or bad news from the look on Isaiahs face. It felt like an hour of reading tho Isaiah was a quick reader, a man of many talents, one of being good at sorting through what's not important in long texts. Something Leo was bad at, he read everything from a-z and he was kind of a slow reader as well.

He was shaking and holding his breath as his husband read the mail.. A tear? Leo noticed a tear and immediately connected that to bad news, but the longer he looked at the tears welling up in his husbands eyes...the more uncertain he got. Isaiah didnt look sad, his eyes didnt give him that feeling. Leo felt his husband's forehead touch his and leo bit his own lip. What did that letter really say? Then he heard his husband speak and he couldnt believe his ears " w-what?" he asked, had his husband said it was successful? that they had a surrogate? or were his ears fooling him?

Leo felt Isaiahs hold on to his hands, lacing their fingers and Leo couldnt help but smile, now sure that he had heard right as his husband spoke again. Leo noticed how isaiahs expression changed and how his whole body language changed, he wasnt as collected as usual, he was more raw, his emotions on his sleeve. He seemed happy and relieved and like he was on cloud nine, Leo felt the same way. This had to be the best day of their lives so far after their wedding day. Leo couldnt help but let the tears fall. This had been their dream and now they could move to the next step towards this dream of theirs. Soon, if things worked out, they would have a tiny little human, their little baby. Whose it was didnt matter to him, he just wanted a family with his husband. " wow" he replied, " i cant believe it" he then added, a hint of laughter and a lot of joy hidden in his voice. " yeah, its really happening and its happening fast. We are going to be dads Isaiah, me and you, we are going to be dads for real," he said as his voice broke and tears fell. It was hard to believe this was really happening. " i so agree baby, it will be the biggest honor of my life to raise your kid" he said looking him in the eyes trough the tears " does it say whats next? or when it will happen or anything?" Leo wondered, his forehead still against his husbands, eyes locked on Isaiahs.

Isaiah stirred slowly at first, the world dragging him back from the thick fog of sleep. He felt the familiar weight of Leo curling up against him, the tremble in his husband’s body something he couldn’t ignore even in half-consciousness. The urgency in Leo’s voice pulled him faster into awareness. “Mmm—baby?” Isaiah blinked his eyes open, voice rough with sleep. He instantly turned towards him. The bedside clock glowed faintly—just past eight. Too early for this tone. Leo’s whisper wasn’t just a nudge; it was full of nerves, panic coiled beneath each syllable. “What’s wrong?”

His eyes adjusted, and now he could see it—Leo’s expression, barely holding together, his lip caught between his teeth, eyes wide and glassy. Isaiah’s heart beat once, hard. He sat up halfway, hand moving to cradle the back of Leo’s neck, thumb brushing gently just below the hairline. “Is everything alright? Are you okay?"

His gaze shifted down to Leo's phone. That’s when Isaiah saw the subject line on the email. His heart gave a small jolt. “Oh…” Isaiah exhaled, slowly, eyes flicking to Leo’s. He didn’t need to ask why Leo hadn’t opened it. He felt the same weight pressing in now. “You haven’t looked yet.” Isaiah sat up fully now, back against the headboard, gently coaxing Leo up beside him. He took the phone carefully, not rushing. His other hand stayed firmly on Leo’s leg, grounding him. “Okay,” he said, voice soft but firm. “We’re doing it together. Just like we said.” With that, he opened the email. The moment of truth. Time to find out if they had a match or not.

Leo watched as his husband slowly as he, for what felt like hours, woke up and gathered what was going on. Leo didnt have too many words at the moment, he was kind of frozen with fear and hope and joy and so many other emotions. Listening to his husbands rough morning voice was something Leo loved tho, he found is so hot.

The fear was not hiding in Leos eyes, it was clear as day. Leo was terrified. As soon as Isaiahs eyes caught his, leo didnt look away. Leo found so much comfort in looking in his husband eyes. " i havnt looked" leo confirmes. Voice shakey, eyes locked on Isaiahs. Leo followed his husbands lead and sat by him eyes still not leaving isaiahs face. Leo was relieved once he felt his husband take his phone and he rested his hand on top of isaiahs who had his on his leg. It felt comforting, in a way told him that no matter what was in the email, they would be okay. " together, always," leo confirmed and took a deep breath " what does it say?" He asked, assuming his husband had opened it, leos eyes still locked on his face.

As Leo waited for his husband to sart reading their mail, He held his breath, it wasnt on purpose; he didnt even notise he did. Leo was beyond nervous. He looked at his husband looking at his phone, leo looked at the phone for a split second before looking back at Isaiah, more of a ' arnt you going to open it and read it' kind of gesture. Leo didnt know what to do if they didnt have a matc. Leo was always doubting, thinking he wasnt good enough, he didnt want to be ahinder for isaiah to have kids. He needed this to work out, so badly.

Baby time? - Isaiah and Leo

Leo had been a big ball of nerves since their last appointment with their fertility doctor. They had narrowd it down to 3 possible women to hopefully carry their child if everything went according to plan. Leo prayed that one of them. Their doctor had reached out to the women and now they just needed to hear from their doctor and see if they were a match, if they were willing to do this still. Leo had not slept much lately, at all. Waiting for the email from their doctor was killing him.

Lately Leo had not taken many shifts at the fire department; he was still desk-bound and he hated it so much. However, he had not been cleared for duty and it was making Leo slowly lose interest in showing up at all. This morning Leo had called in sick after another sleepless night. At 6 am he had gone out for a run, at 7 am he had decided it was time to turn around and head back home. right before 8, leo stood outside his and Isaiahs house planning on sneaking in and back to bed to cuddle his husband while he slept, his husband who had come in late last night after a long shift and passed out by Leos side.

Leo opened the door too their house as he looked at his e-mail. There it was, an email from their doctor, cc-ed to Isaiah. Leo could feel his heart skip a beat. he didn't dare open it, he was too scared and worried and he needed to open it with Isaiah too, they were in this together. Leo slowly made his way to their bedroom and crawled up in bed cuddling up to Isaiah " Baby, baby wake up, you need to wake up right now" he whispered, trying to stay calm but he was shaking bed, so was his voice. " Isaiah" he bit his lip

at his words, skylar couldn’t help smiling at her best friend. "maybe we are going all out, what else can we do? this is a reunion, we deserve to have a nice hot chocolate," she smiled, a giggle falling from her lips. at his words, a soft smile tugged the corners of her lips. "it’s not your fault, sometimes we shut people out without even meaning to," she said softly, "i don’t think you’re a bad person for that, leo," she assured, "sometimes we do it without thinking about it," she promised, a soft smile on her lips. "i mean it’s not a science so we don’t really know, what we know is that we are now together," she smiled, her hand reaching to squeeze his. "okay, i’ll bother you next time." the thought of being walked out of somewhere in cuffs made the blonde shake her head, that wasn’t going to happen. she would be so ashamed. at his last words, the girl’s eyes opened wide. "oh my god, leo?" she chuckled, "he might put you in handcuffs? why would he…" then the girl felt her cheeks burning, "oh, you mean in bed?"

" that is true, this do be a reunion of a sort" leo agreed as he prepared himself a cup as well. He wasn't as smiley today as he usually was. It weighed heavily on him how he had not reached out to his best friend after everything went down. He knew she didn't mind, she understood, but Leo was still frustrated with himself; he knew Skylar only made him feel better. Sometimes Leo felt as he was only out to sabotage for himself. That he didn't feel like he deserved to be happy. He was working on eliminating that state of mind, but it was hard. Her giggle earned a small smile from Leo. " I know you don't think I'm a bad person, and I didn't mean to shut you out, I´m not happy that I did tho, I don't understand wy I did it. It just, it sucks. " he said with frustration at himself. " yeah that's right, we are finally together again. " he took a deep breath and a small sip of his hot chocolate. He looked at their hands for a second then squeezed back " thank you. I need the push" he admitted. Leo just smirked as Skylar seemed to not be biting on what he was putting down there, but as she picked it up, Leo couldn't help but laugh. " yeah, in bed" he chuckled lightly, tho there was a hint of pain on his face as well. He did struggle with being intimate after everything went down and it brought back all the horrible nightmares of his past. Him and Isaiah sure wee working through it, but it took way to much time if you asked Leo. Leo only got frustrated and mad at himself thinking about it. A lot of things about himself frustrated him lately. " don't you ever use cuffs in bed?2 he asked, trying to just keep it light and fun. " do you have those with the pink fluff maybe?" he chuckled

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