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[lesliejen]

I always have been fascinated of how the seasons change. I’ve always wanted to see it for myself - the cold breeze, the smell of flowers, snow in my hands. Listening to this make me yearn about it more, wondering how life would have turned out if I didn’t go back to school again.

But then I realized, if I didn’t listen to that sweet, small Voice, I wouldn’t have “crashed landed on you.” So it’s all good. It’s so much more than the seasons changing.

[lesliejen]

August 21, 2019. That day, I became someone’s girl. I said yes.

While lying in bed, wrapped around his hands. Staring straight, looking behind his glasses, finding his brown eyes in the dark. With a calm voice, finally free of the weight he’s been carrying for some time now, he said, “You didn’t forget it?” Then lightly chuckles. “Will you be my girlfriend?”

I said yes.

[lesliejen]

It’s just plain amazing how God works His wonders in our lives. The waiting, the breaking, the mending - all these. Beautiful memories in my head. His grace, His mercies, His patience - like the surging waves. Breathtaking. His love, His Word, His Voice - still and sweet. Knee-bending. As I sleep tonight, though overwhelmed by my own inadequacies, I see God’s promise of provision and of joy with the road ahead. A road covered with God’s perfect holiness, paved with His pleasurable goodness, fenced with His flawless wisdom and finally closing up to the glorious heavens above where He stands waiting for us!

[lesliejen]

I was eighteen. Full of hopes. Full of dreams. Full of him. I was on the track of becoming what I wanted to be. What I prayed for. He was by my side. I had everything. Or so I thought. But he left. There I was - crying and all rolled up in bed. I was in pain. I felt wasted. I felt used. Then GRACE came down to me. GRACE reached out to me. GRACE saved me again and again and again. So for every pain I felt, I’m thankful and blessed. Pain led me to my knees. Pain led me to the Cross. It led me to Christ. So embrace the pain, embrace the Cross.

[lesliejen]

Today may seem like those normal days one could have. But for me, it’s one more day to run away from people who expects me to be something - someone. But I sometimes ask myself. Don’t I really want to be a doctor? Or am I just being lazy?