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penisennui:

(via Justin Jorgensen) “In 2007 I worked with photographers Williams + Hirakawa to create a concept piece of me sleeping on a sheet cake. I though these cakes looked like pillows, and there’s the obvious play on ‘sweet dreams.’

I wondered if I could fall asleep on a cake and have sweet dreams. I didn’t. It was pretty gross really and wasn’t easy to wash off.

A few years later, outtakes from the shoot were sold to Getty Images as stock photos. I didn’t know this until 2011 when one of those photos made #13 on the wildly popular Buzzffed.com list of “60 Completely Unusable Stock Photos.”

Into 2014, the Getty Image photo continues to make the rounds on Facebook and Tumblr.”

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i can’t believe i leveled up enough to unlock cake pillow guy’s backstory

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I can’t believe the “sweet dreams” joke didn’t occur to me

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awesomepeoplehangingouttogether:

Dave Grohl, RuPaul, Frances Bean and Kurt Cobain

I can’t stop crying. She is a mess just as much as I am and I can’t bare to think of how much this has hurt her. If she just tried to listen and understand my reasoning for this, we would both be in a better place. All I want is a chance for us to be able to have the future we wanted together, we just have to let ourselves get the help we need first for ourselves. I’m calling a therapist for an appointment this morning. I want to marry her, but I can’t marry someone who has said and done what she has for months toward me. I haven’t been to many of my five classes in two weeks and I’m afraid of losing out on my chance to have a good solid comeback for myself academically. This has just been so incredibly hard on me that I can’t bare getting off the couch. She believes that I don’t care or think she matters, but in reality it is the complete opposite: I love her so, so very much. I feel like I’m losing myself and I need help. I just need to get through this. What I want for the future: she gets the help and soul-searching she needs, as do I, and we find each other again once we are in a much better and healthier place so that we can be together for the rest of our lives like we are meant to do. God, I fucking miss her.

#journal 2017 #finding myself

suspend

Sometimes you have to break promises not because you want to but because you have to.

-3 am thoughts (via suspend)

Went to close my eyes for an hour, woke up twice from dreams about her hating me and being so upset. I hate this. In a time like this, I want time to speed up

#journal 2017 #finding myself

Today is hard. I have the present I got her for Valentine’s Day in my closet. I wanted nothing more than to wake up next to her today. But, I love her too much to let us stay in something that was suffocating itself over things that we could not fix in each other. It really is terrible having to let someone go. But, knowing how devastated they are and how blind they are to the purpose behind it all is crushing. I couldn’t bare another day wondering how long the day would go without a meaningless fight that was in reality just a facade to cover the real issues that she refused to look at. She feels it was unfair to make the decision to break up, but what she has no clue of is that I did it because I just love her so, fucking, much. Today is hard.

#journal 2017 #finding myself

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Purpose

I'm basically just back on here to let out my feelings and thoughts, due to my recent/current break up. There's other reasons for my feelings needing to come out somehow, so I figure this is the best medium for that. You don't have to read or respond to my posts, just letting y'all know is all 👋

#journal 2017 #finding myself

First time back in forever!