♕ 𝚂𝚒𝚖𝚙𝚕𝚢 𝚈𝚘𝚞 ♕
The way I felt about him I had a hard time putting it into words. He was like literal magic in a person, and the way my soul wanted to entangle with his was but couldn’t killed me. I’d never believed in that first sight kinda love until I saw him and my soul just went “oh there you are..” He was beautiful, but not just on his person. That soul of his was peeking thru that shell of skin like the sun peeks thru curtained windows in the morning. Kissing you awake gently with sweet little nothings. Begging you to come out, and let it touch your skin, and show you everything you’ve been missing while tucked away in bed.
When he looked at me it was a moment I’ll forever seal in my mind, as a breathtaking beauty. I knew he was going to be my undoing, but god I’d let him ruin me 1000 times if it meant I got to feel that for just a while longer. Like I said he was magic, and I unfortunately was a circle of salt.
I’m not saying he was perfect. Well he was, but even hero’s have flaws. But overall it was me that complicated and ruined everything for myself. When people tell you to always expect the unexpected just prepare yourself for anything. Like there’s a saying like you go into work one day and have an office chair. Now that chair is not a duck but the chances of you coming in and your chair being a duck are never zero. I’ve thought about that a lot recently. How yes my life may not have turned into a duck but I sure found a way to duck it all up.
I met him when my life was already complicated. I felt worthless, pathetic, useless, ugly, and so many other things. I felt trapped in a place because well it was a bad situation. I’d only ever had one boyfriend in my 22 years on this planet, and I waited all that time for a joke of a man. A man that wouldn’t even let me get ice cream with my mom.
It was what I felt I deserved and I was going to sit in it. When I met him he showed me everything I thought I knew was not even breaching the surface of what love could be. He showed me more of that in 12 hours than I’d felt in two years. Now I’m sure most of you would think that makes me easy, but you don’t understand that feeling I felt when I saw him.
He gave me a sense of clarity and taught me to really see. It was passion, it was hot, it was old souls catching up to each other after an eternity of searching for the other. It was everything that I’d dreamed of and read about, and I knew that from the first 30 seconds. He was wild and untamable but it was a beautiful chaos I couldn’t help but want to run feee in.
The way it felt to lay in his arms and just be I wouldn’t need anything else. Just simply him. I thought I could have that and it be obtainable, but the chances of things turning to a duck are never actually zero.
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