okay, but like, here's the thing. dean wants to be Baby in that he wants to be viewed the way he views her, all without it being explicitly stated. or, he thinks he doesn't want/can't handle it, especially spoken out loud. he wants to be her for everyone in that he wants to be reliable, consistent, a comfort, and a home. he wants to invoke that same feeling of safety he gets from her, but for everyone else, specifically sam. but he wants to be treated like her by cas. he wants to be appreciated by cas the same way he appreciates Baby, but silently. and, more to the point, he wants to be handled by cas the way he himself handles Baby. he doesn't ask her permission before he gets under her hood, for example, and he knows her inside and out. he maintains her. she is, fundamentally, an object that he claims with reverence without ever having any pushback because, well, she's a car. and like, in this metaphor, he IS Baby. so, that scene where he breaks her is him attacking himself, which translates really well because he blames himself for his father's death. but that scene where he rebuilds her is completely unrelated to him at all, and that's cas' role. dean was rebuilt by cas, and he's been wanting cas to maintain him and get under his metaphorical hood (do with that what you will) ever since, but without any of it actually being granted to cas. he doesn't want to pass cas his metaphorical keys. he just wants cas to hotwire him and get the hell in and drive.
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