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my own poetry to you darling by olivia.r.o

[letters-my-darling]

view:

I looked at you like you were the last thing I could ever see . an innocence , with a child's trust , fufilled in you . it's like receiving your first animal and never wanting anything but for it to be happy and safe . I was that way with you . you looked at me with use . I was an object you wanted to dismantle and remake into your way of perfect . I let you . now I have to find the pieces marked with my own signature and not yours .

- your’s truely , o.r.o

[letters-my-darling]

notice : i noticed how you unnoticed me . i saw you slowly remove me from your life as if i was a habit you needed to break . like rain from the sky you built up and poured out all to me . but then you stopped . for the sun showed it’s rays and i didn’t see you again . you left without reason or knowledge of why . you just stopped pouring and evaded my sky .

yours truely , o.r.o

[letters-my-darling]

lonely : my heart beats a hollow sound . the blood that rushes through my warm veins is quiet . it's an echo . a feeling that you aren't whole . I have felt this feeling since I was young . it's not changed by the people around you , only disguised . it's an inner feeling . it isn't sad . it isn't any emotion . there is no emotion to feel . it's a house of Mirrors that make appear more then just you but are only false hopes . it is quiet . just a tap and the glass shatters , but fallen shards aren't heard . the realization that the extension of a hand would go through and not stop on a tangable substance . it is blank . it is there . it is always there .

yours truely , o.r.o

[letters-my-darling]

wait: 6:00 am for you but only 3:00 am for me . flashing light emerges itself on my screen & the lowered volume on my headphones muffles an I love you , I whisper it back as you ask why I'm up still . softly my lips part and my eyes crease open to whisper one last phrase , I will wait for you .

yours truely , o.r.o

[letters-my-darling]

tension: next to you I sometimes am , and that's when it's it strongest . the thought of secrecy and hidden acts of love are so close . brushes of skin and playful touches . they make my heart smile . intimacy without the removal of clothing , the feeling of want and safety . but my heart is also sad . no matter how tender the moment or how calm our togetherness is , we can never be .

yours truely , o.r.o

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strength: my eyes hurt from tears I've never cried . from all the times I felt the burn of my tear ducts fludding , clawing at my eye lids for freedom. they fill my eyes and blur my vision . but yet , they never fall . they sit and wait on the edge , arms stretched out to release and fall upon my cheek . to free every last scream I've held in . to just fall , to just feel . the burn of anticipation . the closing throat feeling that try's to trick me into shutting my eyes . to stop my thinking . to feel .

yours truely , o.r.o

[letters-my-darling]

how: show me . show me in cheesy jokes and cheesy love things . show me your thoughts and your smallest interests . show me play by play your stories , don't skip on the details . show me your heart . show me your emotions and why & how they got there . love me the way I have always loved you . show me .

yours truely , o.r.o

[letters-my-darling]

captivity: i crave the trees . the tallness of the pines and crunch of leaves . silent breeze sing to me with your voice . show me streams of light through your branches and open to me a life of tranquility . stop time around me for a moment . to sink into your untouched beauty . feel my hearts beat and dance with it in your breeze .

yours truely , o.r.o

[letters-my-darling]

look: i hope one day you look at her the way i looked at you .

yours truely , o.r.o

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expression: the cold sheet upon my skin . the darkness of the room interrupted by the dim light of silent love untold by many . left to be read . not heard . compassionate literature and language that shifts the mind . only to be left to letters on a phone or the ink of a pen . the place where you understand . there's no questioning , no changes , just perception based on need , want . writing isn't just a form of language . it allows those who are afraid of spoken words , afraid to studder , or fail , to express what they were never truely received .

yours truely , o.r.o

[letters-my-darling]

intertwine: laced fingers to my knuckles and palm . heads resting close to hearts . eyes blank stare , processing serenities view to the mind . calm sincronized breath . bodies near enough to feel the warmth being excreted though one another , knees numb to the involuntary actions of the brain . feet rock side to side to form a circle . hold me . be with me . dance with me .

yours truely , o.r.o

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cloudy: im not the same anymore . the warmth in my chest the would greet me each morning has faded . the happiness , the deep fuzzy feeling I used to get , gone . nothing but thunder storms and lighting bolts flow threw my chest cavity . the drizzle of the rain or the flood of emotion that I keep locked away . it builds higher and higher filling my rib cage , until It pours out the sides . maybe one day it will dry up , and I’ll find the sunlight to dry my damped heart .

yours truely , o.r.o

[letters-my-darling]

poetry: to those who write words that touch souls and give light to the dark . you show much more then you feel . you breathe the chemicals of strength and beauty to those who crave to be understood . to those who read words to let them know there’s something more then just what is shown by others . let these words give hope to you and be the step that lifts inspiration & renewed vision . give to others the words of love and show yourself whole . but to those who can do both , they have been on both sides , they have shown and felt but write to someday show and feel again .

yours truely , o.r.o

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home: this house is quiet . not just with sound but with love .

yours truely , o.r.o

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darling: your exquisite . you captivate my eyes just by walking in a room . but how you make me sad my darling . you’ll never understand the way you make my heart smile , or that a few minutes with you could be worth a fortune . my darling you shouldn’t look upon yourself so sadly . you are the lights glow and the moons stars . beautiful you reflect upon water and give the breeze a soft dance .

yours truely , o.r.o

[letters-my-darling]

puzzle: our hearts get broke and shatter into pieces . each piece forms each letter in there name . when we try to put the pieces back together but they don’t fit the same way .

yours truely , o.r.o

[letters-my-darling]

message: you sent me a paper with a drawn image of a clouded moon pouring rain drops . I asked you what it ment and you said to me , the moon shows how far my love for you goes . the clouds are for all the times I think about you and the rain drops are for each tear I cry . come home to me .

yours truely , o.r.o