I hope you see this one day.

So many words I can no longer say to you, but maybe the universe is still listening... #Letters from S

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“I wasn’t self destructive until you left me alone in the aftermath of our love. Now I’m just trying to erase every last trace of you, even if it means destroying the girl you once swore you’d never leave.”

— S

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“I want to drive to your house one more time. So I can relive all the trips we took down those roads, coming back too early from the lake or too late from a party. I want to see your family one more time. So I can tell your mom how much I loved her cooking, and your sisters how much I enjoyed their company. I want to go in your room one more time. So I could spend one last night pretending all this meant more to you.”

— Letters from S

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From the start, I knew we wanted different things; from fate, from life, from each other. So the ending was always going to be this way. But a part of me will always ache, wishing you wanted me enough to overcome all that.

I wanted you enough.

— Letters from S

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“I can’t say that I’m okay. But I know I’m better off.”

— S

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I can’t wait to fall asleep while watching a movie with you. I can’t wait to kiss you goodbye before work and come home to you after. I can’t wait to walk down the street proudly holding your hand. I can’t wait to call you mine.

To the one I’ll love next, I can’t wait to meet you.

— Letters from S

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“I want to drive to your house one more time. So I can relive all the trips we took down those roads, coming back too early from the lake or too late from a party. I want to see your family one more time. So I can tell your mom how much I loved her cooking, and your sisters how much I enjoyed their company. I want to go in your room one more time. So I could spend one last night pretending all this meant more to you.”

— Letters from S

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Do you ever wake up in the middle of the night, aching over the empty space beside you?

Or is it just me?

— Letters from S

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I hope I’m not remembered as the one who couldn’t love you right. Because I’m the one who loved you with everything I had.

— Letters from S

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It used to feel so natural to let love guide my life. But ever since you left, I’ve doubted every feeling, second guessed every intention, and held on to this pain. Because without it, I’m afraid I’ll forget how even the sweetest hellos can turn into the most poisonous goodbyes.

— Letters from S

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The warmth of our love receded the same way as the summer heat in Georgia. You wake up one morning and find yourself chilly, longing for the days the sun didn’t set so fast.

Feel like I’ve been in the dark ever since.

— Letters from S

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I should’ve just let you leave the first time. But I pleaded, and I changed, and I fought so hard for us to work. I should’ve known nothing would’ve been enough to keep you.

It was never your intent to stay.

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Instead of standing beside me to weather the storms, you became one I never should’ve had to endure.

— Letters from S

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I hope I’m not remembered as the one who couldn’t love you right. Because I’m the one who loved you with everything I had.

— Letters from S

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I healed you while you shattered me.

How am I to heal from this now?

— Letters from S

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Instead of standing beside me to weather the storms, you became one I never should’ve had to endure.

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Sometimes, what takes the most effort is forcing yourself to stop trying.

— Letters from S

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I can’t wait to fall asleep while watching a movie with you. I can’t wait to kiss you goodbye before work and come home to you after. I can’t wait to walk down the street proudly holding your hand. I can’t wait to call you mine.

To the one I’ll love next, I can’t wait to meet you.

— Letters from S