Let Your Soul Guide You

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Where?

where am i supposed to find a man?

am i supposed to wait for my friend to set me up with someone who is also single. that friends of a friends cousin who like to jerk of to women eating cheetos. my brother’s high school girlfriend’s brother who literally hasn't had an intelligent thought since 5th grade when he figured out 2 times 2 is always four. 

am i supposed to meet a man at a bar who is trolling for easy pussy. who left his kids with his sister even though its he less than 20 percent custody. or the guy who is over 40 trying to keep up as well as keeping up other things. 

am i supposed to meet a man through work? a field dominated by women who baby their own children beyond anything resembling normal or the one man in a position of power who loves laying his hand where ever he pleases 

maybe i am whats wrong. too old. too bitter. too fat. too whiny. too too too...

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these are the stories i never got to experience because i was too scared, now just like them i going to live them in my head 

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Sex results

Many are only open initially, yet withdraw once someone gets "too close," despite their desire to be more emotionally involved for the long-term. Do choose your words and actions wisely. Do what you say and say what you mean.

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DUH POF

According to relationship experts, what you seem to be looking for is a "PROTECTOR." A protector is well-poised to meet the hidden or unspoken needs you might actually be trying to fill in a search for a relationship.

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Assessment pt. 2

Bottom line: you need someone who satisfies the hopeless romantic in you but who will insist that you take time to get to know each other well before the taking the relationship to next levels.

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Assessment

Bottom line: you need someone who likes frequent physical and emotional connection like you do, but who helps keeps dependency in check in the relationship so that you two do not lose your identities as individuals.

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Results pt 2

However, when it comes to romantic relationships, your openness might make it difficult for you to tolerate people that cannot appreciate diversity as much as you.

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Results

Because you respect family values but appreciate a good night out on the town, you probably get along well with people that are different from you.

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chem test pt. 3

low self control

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chem test pt. 2

Your relaxed demeanor in groups makes people around you comfortable too. Perhaps because you feel comfortable talking about yourself, others tend to enjoy being around you and perceive you as socially competent.

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Chem test...

You are attracted to the idea of having a family and may be willing to work hard to achieve this, although not necessarily any time soon.

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how do i tell my best friend shes in an abusive relationship, that he ticks off every mark of the warning signs, how do i tell my best friend she needs to leave his sorry ass on the curb and never look back 

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your choices i had to see 

now youre going to see mine

me laughing, me loving, me living

me moving on 

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but really thank you because in the end it was the push i needed. i dont want a life stranded here in this small town being a wife a cook a cleaner a caretaker to a small town sheriff 

i have experience things that you cant even imagine 

i have lived in place far beyond what you can even dream about

i have dreams that you would stifle

i have plans and those plans are going to much better without you

so thank you for all the pain and heartache you have caused be cause now i know what it is to be free of you 

really, thank you  

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THANK YOU

no really thank you for publicly declaring your love to another one of your ex girlfriends knowing perfectly well how i felt about you. 

no really thank you for proving to me that you hadn’t actually changed at all. you just cycle through your exes, i wonder whose next on rotation - not me - because i was your last ex, or was i?

no really thank you for showing me that hesitating was the right thing to do, for you and for me. 

no really thank you, i fancied myself into thinking i was falling in love with you all over again. silly little fucking girl, didn’t you know you had an expiration date. what a dumb silly fucking girl i turned out to be

BUT REALLY THANK YOU cause i learned more about myself agonizing over you than i would have being stuck in a endless cycle of self love self hate self pity self regret

no really, thank you... because now that was the last bit of closure i need to slam that book/chapter/door in your fucking face 

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i made promises to you but more importantly i made promises to myself. those are the ones i intend to keep 

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