Open Diary

This is my life. It's not fun or interesting. I just do what I can to live each day. I live in Honduras but my heart is in Boston. I don't know who am I anymore.

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Paints

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This is a picture taken with some binoculars and my phone.

Took a long time to capture this image. I’m really satisfied with the results

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I would do anything for keeping that smile on your face.

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Funny huh?

Isn’t funny to see how people can and will judge you based on something you said or did on your past? Funny to see how people think they are better than you just because they got an easier way to get out of a similiar problem you have. Why is is to hard for people to just there when you’re needed? I mean, if your someone’s friend and you know that whenever YOU need help, that friend will leave anything and everything he/she’s doing in order to help you. Why wouldn’t you do the exact same thing for them?

Isn’t it funny to believe that friendship is something you have for granite? Because the truth is, friendship shouldn’t be taken for granite ok? People get tired. Specially when you only are their friend for your own benefit.

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Excuse me but

W H A T T H E F U C K

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Mango♥️

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Just looking at you, and not knowing what to say is something I'm not used to. The fact that I could, at one point, share with you everything that I am and everything I was and now. Know, I feel you're unreachable. You're still the person I fell in love with. You are sill you, but our friendship has change. We are so close to each other, yet, so far apart. I feel broken 'cause I'm afraid it's all lost. But I can't do this by myself. I am getting tired that I am the one who reaches and I wish you could also try and reach for me once in a while. The fact that I miss you so much, like, so much that it hurts makes me wonder if I brought that to myself. Where my feeling too pure for you? I know you're used to be treated badly, and I always tried to protect you. But I couldn't protect you from me. The day you told me that I was the reason you felt sad, broke me. I stared to cry uncontrollably. I swore to myself I could never do anything to hurt you, but I did.

[lgabrielaf]

I wrote this a couple of days ago

Dear you, I was going through pictures on my phone today and a lot of stuff that involved you came up. It brought me back to the good times and I almost texted you but then I remembered that you’re just a stranger now. It’s been only a couple of weeks since we last talked. Crazy huh? How in just a months we went from being inseperable to complete strangers. If someone had asked us 4 or 5 months ago if we could see our life without each other in it, we would have laughed and said no; Now here we are. I would be lying if I said I haven’t thought about you or that I didn’t miss you. I do miss you, a lot. So much has happened since we last talked, and I wish I could share it all with you. There has been times where I picked up my phone to text you but then I would remember you’re not that person anymore; And it’s sad because for the longest time it seemed like you’d be that person who stayed in my life for a long while. It’s crazy how much can change in a short amount of time. Today I also saw a post on Instagram. An indirect message for me. This made me mad and sad at the same time. I can't believe you did it. That's a low punch. But I have people who support me on this time of pain. Pain that you cause. I've realize a lot of things lately. I hope you don’t hate me for walking away. I hope one day you understand that I had to or else we would have never known just how toxic our friendship had been. There is quite a few things I know I could have done better and shouldn’t have done, same goes for you. We are both to blame for our friendship being as unhealthy as it was. Though it was so unhealthy, we shared a lot of great memories and I’d like to think it was equally good as it was bad. I’m sorry. I’m sorry we’re not best friends anymore and I’m sorry I had to be the one who apologizes for everything. I’m sorry for any pain I caused. I’m sorry I couldn’t be your person anymore. I’m sorry we couldn’t do everything we wanted to. I’m sorry I tried to hate you because damn did I try. I tried so hard and for awhile it worked because hating you and being mad at you was easier than missing you. But I realize that I could never hate you, no matter how mad I am about what happened. I’m sorry this is how it had to end for us, but that’s life for you. Not everything goes the way it should or how you want it to. But I would like to thank you. Thank you for being my person for as long as you were. Thank you for being patient with me while I learned how to trust another person. Thank you for the memories I will never forget. Thank you for caring enough to break through the walls I had worked so hard to build over the years. Thank you for being the person I could run to for everything and anything. Thank you for being the person I could count on. Thank you for being the person I could confide in without the fear of judgement. Thank you for teaching me how to love and be loved. Thank you for showing me that I can still trust others and be trusted. Thank you for proving to me that people come into our lives for a reason and though they may not stay, the lessons learned are a blessing. I would like to say I can see us being friends again in the future but I’d only be spitting out false hope. It would never be the same and if I happen to see you one day, I’ll smile and walk away. My heart will break a little and all our memories will hit me like a train but I’ll feel grateful for the time we did have together. Some people aren’t meant to stay in your life forever and unfortunately I learned you are one of those people. They say some people only come into your life to teach you a lesson and leave, but the most important people leave a mark. Well you left a mark and I am thankful for you coming into my life when you did. I know you may never see this but I needed to get it off my chest. There were a lot of words unsaid and a lot of words I wish I could have said. I guess I’m writing this to get a small sense of closure for myself. I hope you and your family are doing well. I hope you get everything you want and more in the life you chose for yourself. You’ll always hold a place in my heart. Sincerely, Your Ex Best Friend

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Midnight thoughts

Even if I make eye contact for a split second, it means the world to me. You kept staring at me with your gorgeous eyes, but little did you know that were also killing me inside. Those eyes that make my heart beat faster and also skip a beat at the same time. Those eyes that looked at me with such care and finesse, but now look at someone else in a way you never looked at me, and never will. I was faced with the coice of leaving right now and never seeing you again, or staying and feeling the pain of you not loving me. I stayed. I just couldn't leave. I couldn't see myself without you. It still hurts when I see you. I still miss you, more that I would like to admit to myself. It comes to haunt me in the middle of the night, when I'm laying alone with nothing but my thoughts. It hits me when I'm driving by myself. It comes anytime it wants to...but it's happening less and less. You're happy. It's not because of me. I wish that it was, but I'm happy for you. All I want is to see you happy. I'm happy too, most of the time. I have good friends, a good life. I'm learning that i don't need you for my happiness. I think that this is letting go. This is moving. I feel like I'm finally ready to accept it and move forward. It feels so good...yet...it does hurt seeing you around his arms. But don't worry... It will pass. -Lizzie G. Flores

[lgabrielaf]

I look up to the sky And I only see immensity This is the beginning I have confidence that everything will come out And I know when the time comes I will know how to win I do not have time to lose There is so much new to do

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Too cliché, but it's true

Is competing you to the moon too cliché? On a night like this, with a bright full moon upon us, I'm think that you are like the moon. So beautiful and mysterious at the same time. It's so hard to reach, however it's not imposible. And those few people who have landed on the moon are so lucky, same as the people who had the opportunity to know you in your fullest. The moon and you have so much in common that you haven't realized. Although I believe that same line have been used too many times. I also believe that even though it's been used several times, none of them have the same passion as mine. Everybody can see the moon, except that we can only see one side of it and not the entirety. Same applies to you. We can only see one side still I want to explore every side. Even the dark side of the moon. -Lizzie Flores, 2017

[lgabrielaf]

I wish I could just tell you what's on my head. Instead, I just look for the easy way out. I'm telling you lies. "I'm fine", "it's ok", "don't worry". That's bullshit! Ok? I'm not fine. It's not okay. And please, please worry. 'Cause I'm not sure how much will I be able to keep myself together. You see all happy and that shit when I'm with you, and I'm not faking it, because when I'm with you I'm genuinely happy. The problem is when I'm alone. When no ones watching. When I'm all by myself and my horrible, horrible thoughts. You know, they said it would hurt to love you. And they were right. It does hurt. More then I could ever imagine. But at least i tried to be brave enough to tell you, and at least you were kind enough for not destroying me, not consciously at least. I am the one who's destroying herself. Every time I think of you, I feel happy, yet I can also feel my heart wanting to stop. Why am I not good enough for you? Will you ever answer that question? Or is my time almost over?

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