Personal letter to be delivered to Libby Rigby in case of sudden death, dated August 2014.
To my angel, my beautiful girl.
My goodness, I don’t even know where to begin - or how to begin. I just hope, with everything that I am, that you will never get to read this letter. You have lost so many people already, and I promised you I would never be another one of them. Writing this feels awful - it feels like I’m making it a possibility, even though it’s the last thing I would ever want to do. Not because I’m afraid of dying, but because I don’t want to leave you. Both because I don’t want you to deal with another loss, but also for selfish reasons.
-I don’t want to not see you again. The thought alone is enough to make me want to stop writing immediately.
I don’t think I can even remember a time where you weren’t in my life. I still remember meeting you for the first time - you were so cute with your shy smile and big and curious, bright eyes. You were always so smart and full of thoughts. I knew I loved you immediately.
I don’t even know how to explain it, but I was just incapable of not loving you from the get go. I guess it helped a lot that you were actually one of the kindest and most genuine people I have ever met. You just took my heart and melted it in a blink of an eye, and I have loved you ever since.
The fact that Aaron saw it too immediately was just the icing on the cake. I’ve known him most of my life and I have never seen him happier than when he’s with you. I don’t think I could ever thank you enough for making him so happy, and I could never ever thank you enough for being my friend. You’ve been there in thick and thin, even when you’ve been going through shit, and I just… I love you so much, Libby Rigby.
You have to promise me you won’t let this effect you though. I don’t want to be another one to leave you, so please don’t see it as that. Just remember how much you mean to me, how damn much I wanted to stay and how I promise to look out for you from above. Promise me to be the strong, beautiful and warm woman I have always known. And take good care of Aaron, and maybe if you could give Joe lots of doughnuts and an extra hug from me once in a while, I would be very happy.
But most importantly, live your life and be happy, chase your dreams and have cute babies with Aaron.
I love you forever and always, Audrey











