i lived;

libby rigby. twenty one years old. library assistant. haverford.

[libbyrigby]

Personal letter to be delivered to Libby Rigby in case of sudden death, dated August 2014.

To my angel, my beautiful girl.

My goodness, I don’t even know where to begin - or how to begin. I just hope, with everything that I am, that you will never get to read this letter. You have lost so many people already, and I promised you I would never be another one of them. Writing this feels awful - it feels like I’m making it a possibility, even though it’s the last thing I would ever want to do. Not because I’m afraid of dying, but because I don’t want to leave you. Both because I don’t want you to deal with another loss, but also for selfish reasons.

-I don’t want to not see you again. The thought alone is enough to make me want to stop writing immediately.  

I don’t think I can even remember a time where you weren’t in my life. I still remember meeting you for the first time - you were so cute with your shy smile and big and curious, bright eyes. You were always so smart and full of thoughts. I knew I loved you immediately.

I don’t even know how to explain it, but I was just incapable of not loving you from the get go. I guess it helped a lot that you were actually one of the kindest and most genuine people I have ever met. You just took my heart and melted it in a blink of an eye, and I have loved you ever since.

The fact that Aaron saw it too immediately was just the icing on the cake. I’ve known him most of my life and I have never seen him happier than when he’s with you. I don’t think I could ever thank you enough for making him so happy, and I could never ever thank you enough for being my friend. You’ve been there in thick and thin, even when you’ve been going through shit, and I just… I love you so much, Libby Rigby.

You have to promise me you won’t let this effect you though. I don’t want to be another one to leave you, so please don’t see it as that. Just remember how much you mean to me, how damn much I wanted to stay and how I promise to look out for you from above. Promise me to be the strong, beautiful and warm woman I have always known. And take good care of Aaron, and maybe if you could give Joe lots of doughnuts and an extra hug from me once in a while, I would be very happy.

But most importantly, live your life and be happy, chase your dreams and have cute babies with Aaron.

I love you forever and always, Audrey

[hannahbrooksrp]

I’m a really safe driver, I swear. Like I’ll just take you to the end of the street if you feel nervous.

[libbyrigby]

N-No.. it's okay, I need the lift so.. yeah.

[libbyrigby]

"I-I don't know if this is such a good idea.."

[adoringelizabetholsen]

[emmxchase-blog]

"… but I wouldn’t know how to answer that to you, since I’ve been away for a couple of days, too."

[libbyrigby]

"Oh.. that's okay! Uhm.. Micah, right?"

[libbyrigby]

"I-I feel like I've slept for days.. have I missed much?"

[rosepxrker-deactivated20160401]

"You don’t have to leave if you don’t want to, but I can’t— and I shouldn’t be walking through the debris, I might fall and I can’t cause the baby any more stress. I’m sorry, Libby, I thought I could come with you and make you some company, but it’s overwhelming and somewhat claustrophobic."

[libbyrigby]

"I thought you'd be a little happier to see me.. that's all."

[aaronr--d]

"Belfast." 

[libbyrigby]

"That sounds like a cool place to live.. I-I like your accent." 

"Uhm.. I-I'm Libby."

[sierra-moore]

"I did find a corset of mine on top of your couch the other day. Or at least, I think it was my corset — you don’t look like the sort of dress-up for roleplay type. But still, otherwise, you can probably dig around. There’s a ton of rats though, I’ve been tasering them for a couple of weeks."

[libbyrigby]

"I-I'd say that was yours.. and I don't think I want to ask why it was there, but.. thank you for tasering the rats..?"

[rosepxrker-deactivated20160401]

"I don’t know if there’s anything left for neither of us here."

[libbyrigby]

[rosepxrker-deactivated20160401]

"I’m sorry, Libby— it’s just too much for me to be here… too many memories gone."

[libbyrigby]

"You don't think there's memories here for me too Rose?"

[aaronr--d]

"Ya don’t need ta be cle’er— just take all t’e wood ya’d want to make inta sumfin’ different, send it ta t’e appropriate people, n’ t’ey usually do t’e werk. —But t’at was just a suggestion, so ya ain’t forced ta t’row e’eryt’in’ away." 

[libbyrigby]

"Thanks.. for uhm.. trying to help. --where are you from? I-If you don't mind me asking.."

[rosepxrker-deactivated20160401]

— “I don’t know… maybe… can we— can we get out of here?”

[libbyrigby]

"I-If you want to.. I just wanted to see if--.. sure, we can go."

[aaronr--d]

"Most o’ t’e wooden furniture— ya could put it back taget’er, get reclaimed wood." He shrugged, "o’ scrap it all taget’er, n’ t’en use it ta make sumfin’ different all taget’er." 

[libbyrigby]

"Oh... I-I'm really not that clever.. I-I don't even think Aaron could do something like that. I guess I moved the important stuff out before but.. I wish the storm never happened."

[phoebe-beaumont]

"…I think some bits that haven’t been broken maybe? Is there any photos you’d like to take?"

[libbyrigby]

"There was one my dad used to have.. of uhm.. of all of us..L-Linc included. I don't know.. it should be here.."

[aaronr--d]

"Aye luv— I t’ink quite a bit o’ it is wort’ t’e trouble." 

[libbyrigby]

"--you really think so? Uhm... l-like what?"

[libbyrigby]

"Do you think... anything here is worth saving..?"