- you know, i really feel like im being manipulated.
- i have never in my life had a problem giving another person what they want. but no one’s ever been able to do that for me. no one touches me, no one gets near me. but now you’ve touched me somewhere so fucking deep i can’t believe, and i can’t be that for you. because i can’t find you.
-what does she look like?
- she is the couching place where I never shall lie and there’s no meaning to life in the light of my loss
-abstraction to the point of
unpleasant
unacceptable
uninspiring
impenetrable
irrelevant
irreverent
irreligious
unrepentant
- Sertraline, 50mg. Insomnia worsened, severe anxiety, anorexia, (weight loss 37 lbs,) increase in suicidal thoughts, plans and intention. Discontinued following hospitalisation.
Zolpiclone, 7.5mg. Slept. Discontinued following rash. Patient attempted to leave hospital against medical advice. Restrained by three male nurses twice her size. Patient threatening and uncooperative. Paranoid thoughts – believes hospital staff are attempting to poison her.
Lofepramine and Citalopram discontinued after patient got pissed off with side affect and lack of obvious improvement. Discontinuation symptoms: Dizziness and confusion. Patient kept falling over, fainting and walking out in front of cars. Delusional ideas – believes consultant is the antichrist.
Refused all other treatment.
- 100 aspirin and one bottle of Bulgarian Cabernet Sauvignon, 1986. Patient woke up in a pool of vomit and said ‘Sleep with a dog and rise full of fleas.’ Severe stomach pain. No other reaction.
- Please…
Money…
Wife…
Every act is a symbol the weight of which crushes me
A dotted line on the throat
CUT HERE
DON’T LET THIS KILL ME THIS WILL KILL ME AND CRUSH ME AND
SEND ME TO HELL
- at 4:48. when sanity visits, for one hour and twelve minutes i am in my right mind. when it has passed i shall be gone again.