Lidroviny

Grad student. Also artist and comic creator (or something like that). Or the no-one.

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It seems that my Hungarian dream will be gone very soon. 

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“Around 10″ in Hungary means randomly between 10 and 11 (or even 12). I hate this. 

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I thought that my English is getting better. Nope, it isn’t, it’s still as bad as year ago. 

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So, my dream is here! I am back in Budapest. 

And I am starving because I have to live from my savings. 

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I am one step from unknown. 

From new adventure.

From my dream. 

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I am Ph.D...

I am poor unemployed doctor now. Yeah!

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The time has come. The final fight is here.

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So, in the face of overwhelming odds, I’m left with only one option.

I’m gonna have to science the shit out of this.

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I am scared. So fucking scared. 

Having same feelings as the last year, I am doubting whether the idea of livning in another country for almost a year is the best. It was the best, but now I wanna stay at our deparment and never leave.

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This week is very tough. I am scared and nervous at the same time. My English sux a lot and I have to find a place to live in Budapest for a reasonable price. 

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Every day, I am trying to have at least 10 minutes long discussion with my colleague in English. It’s just a hypothetical talk because he’s quite far away. But I still believe that even talking to myself in English, will help to improve my ability to speak that language and reach fluency some day. Tiny steps everyday mean a large step at the end. 

Usually, I am talking about my experiences, some life stories or scientific projects as well. Sometimes it’s a fun to image what my colleague probably replies, some other times my English sux a lot and it’s too difficult to keep thoughts in line.

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I suppose to be working, but my mind is completely out of order. I am just lying in the bed and listenning music without any desire to think, read, write, study, watch movies or draw. 

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I like reading blogs of other people. Unfortunately, this time of FB, twitters and other social platforms is not the best for keeping own web blog. That’s a pity.  

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I probably will have what I’ve been dreaming about for last nine months (more or less). But the price is too big...

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Guess what I did? Trusted him. Again. 

Why am I so stupid?

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Everytime when I send an email to my colleague with project stuff, I also add some stories about my life, hope that I’ll get similar answer. However, almost every colleague’s reply starts with “sorry, I am (was) so busy, so I don’t have much time...”  I have bad feeling that I am not welcomed here.

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I can’t afford to live in Budapest as a normal person. I don’t have a money for that. I can only wish, but wishes are just dreams that rarely come true.