𝑰𝑫𝑶𝑳 - 𝑺𝑨𝑴𝑨 !!

and maybe someday that 𝒍𝒊𝒆 would become the 𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒕𝒉. independent ai hoshino from oshi no ko, loved by mel.

[lielove]

#LIELOVE#LIELOVE#LIELOVE

independet ai hoshino from oshi no ko, multi-fandom, multi-ship and multi-verse. with verses in final fantasy xiv, genshin impact and fate in particular (with more to come in the future).

BLOGROLL

@lonestarslament

A STUDY IN... learning to love, coping with the past, learning to trust, showing love through lies, living a double life, the effects of the idol industry && being a teenage superstar.

TRIGGER WARNINGS FOR ; mentions of child abuse, teenage pregnancy, death && oshi no ko spoilers.

AFFILIATES ;

@phntasmgoria

about || rules || verses

spotify playlist.

[secondstringslayer-archive]

About Chronically Late Replies

I am absolutely guilty of this, and I don’t give a crap if your reply is a month late or even a year late.  It tells me you’re still interested in rping with me.  And even if I’m not in the headspace for that particular thread anymore it also tells me I can come at you with new ideas without being a nuisance.  So reply away, no matter how long it’s been!

[lielove]

because my brain is huge and massive, outfit swap of ai and sparkle / hanabi from honkai star rail. ( artist. )

[lielove]

eventual agenda for this blog ;

change the theme to one with scrollable verses, was going to work on my rwby verse and i just straight up cannot use that verses page i have rn without going to 10% screen size. that is hell.

new promo / gfx in general. a change is always nice !! what i've been using is p much what i've used since i first made this blog.

add new tags / add affiliates with friends.

revamp my hsr verse. i made this verse before penacony and i wanna make some changes to it. it'll largely stay the same but i wanna add Mooooooore. :tm:

actually make that rwby verse. lol.

slowly work my way through ask memes and threads.

post the commissioned art i've got for ai !! why didn't i do that HELLO ??

[lielove]

"So what's it like? Being dead?" so asked the man responsible for it.

i know this was from a meme but i don't remember which one !!

a moment like this was almost laughable. coming face to face with the very man that was responsible for taking her life. . . and yet she felt no resentment towards him in her heart for it !!

things could have been different. maybe if she had the courage to be a bit more honest with him, maybe if she hadn't tried shouldering all the burden all by herself. . .

. . . things could have been different, and they could have been happy as a family.

but instead. . .

all she could do was talk to him as a ghost. a dead woman and a living man.

ai wanted to be mad, she wanted to say she hated him with every fiber in her being for all that he had done, for being the proverbial knife in her back ( or should she say stomach. )

but that, too, would be a lie.

so instead she smiles, and even gives a bit of a laugh.

❝ it's not all bad, it's a little fun. . . getting to float around and haunt people. ❞

if only she knew the meaning to those words.

though she lived on as a ghost, her memory haunted the very lives of those around her.

. . . it wasn't a very pleasant thought. she wished that she could tell them that everything would be okay, that it's okay to move on. tell them a yes, i died, but i still want you to live happily. . .

but the only person that could see her was him.

. . . and she understood that he couldn't do such things.

❝ were you expecting me to curse you ?? tell you i hate you and to go and die . . . ?? ❞ a brow raises as she asks her query, floating in a circle around him.

❝ because i don't. . . and i won't be doing that. ❞ another giggle.

if anything, she lamented that she wasn't able to set things straight before she died.

❝ i didn't realize it until it was too late. . . but. . . ❞

. . . even as a ghost she can still get somewhat bashful, huh ??

❝ i really did like you. i always had, i'd even say that i loved you, and that's the honest truth. ❞

the words are said as eyes flutter shut, a sigh of relief she she's finally able to say that word to him. maybe it was a little messed up to say, maybe it's because she's always had some skewed emotions. . . or maybe it's just because she's not had much else to do other than think of her regrets and what could have been. . .

❝ i wish i could have told you sooner, but i was scared. . . and now that i can, there's nothing that can be done about it !! ❞

it was some bitter irony, wasn't it ??

maybe she shouldn't have said it in the first place. she knew his feelings for her, and would being told something like this now break him down . . . ??

or . . . the punishment of knowing that the one he loved truly did love her back, despite everything would be a hard enough hell for him to live in ?? knowing that the mistake he mad had cost everything . . .

even now, after being dead for so long, it was kinda hard to tell !!

[revengeact]

This couldn't be real. Ghosts don't exist. Yet, here she was. Acting nonchalantly about the situation. Typical Ai. He was thankful that no one was around when a wave of emotion overcame him. Tears began to roll down his cheeks. This was real.

"It really is you."

@lielove

[lielove]

❝ it's me. . . aqua-kun. ❞

she almost couldn't believe this for herself . . . !! ai never thought that she'd have the chance to see - let alone speak - with her son again . . . and yet here she was, given the chance despite everything . . . the woman wished that she could hug him, hold him tightly in her arms as she saw the tears roll down his cheeks. . .

. . . seeing him like that, it's only natural that tears would well up in her eyes, too, huh ??

❝ i've missed you !! ❞

[towerofbabyls]

hikaru clears his throat anxiously, swallowing. " yup, let's go.... " he's clearly nervous about this, even with the knowledge that they'll have a booth to themselves..... maybe that's what's scaring him a little. he doesn't want to screw this up, and end up losing someone so dear to him. or maybe he doesn't want things to end up like they had four years ago....... maybe that's it.

he takes ai's hand in his own and tries not to jump at the warm feeling of her hand against his. trying to smile warmly at her, his blue eyes glittering. " have you ever been to this restaurant before? " he asks softly, trying to strike up casual conversation and to not let things fall into an awkward silence.

[lielove]

she can tell that he's a little nervous from the way that he clears his throat. she almost wants to give a little giggle - but she refrains from doing so !! in fact, ai was nervous, too. . . she was just a little better about keeping those feelings to herself, though. ❝ i've never been, no. ❞ the girl gives his hand a gentle squeeze as she feels his hand against hers. ❝ but i've heard a lot about it !! ❞ exclaims with a bit of a laugh.

going to a fancy grown up place like this. . . having a booth all to themselves where nobody else could see them. . . how. . . exciting !!

❝ i took a peek at the menu ahead of time and. . . wow !! so much of it looks good, i have no idea what i'll end up eating !! ❞ food she never would've even thought of eating once in her lifetime. . . and now she suddenly has the chance to try it. . . and with a person she was interested in at that ?!

. . . better not mess things up !!

[lielove]

looking at how oshi no ko is on track to end and all i can say is. man, ai hoshino did not die for this.

[ilicibus]

#𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐍𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐃𝐂𝐑𝐈𝐌𝐄𝐒.

this is about you ! ⠀an independent, private &. selective multimuse blog as lovingly told by luci. featuring kosaka wakamo from blue archive, and characters from final fantasy, league of legends, rwby &. more. laws. muses. ©

[lielove]

hi gamers i started a second job !! i still want to be here but i'm gonna see what my schedule allows i'll be working 6 days a week out of 7 but i want to try really hard to rp more bc it's sosososo much fun and one of my main hobbies.

[nightprompts]

&. 𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐮𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭𝐬.

( this is basically just a very self indulgent list of various fluff, angst, and suggestive themed dialogue sentence starters. )

❛ i could keep you safe. they’re all afraid of me. ❜

❛ i’m trying to fix your hair, so hold still. ❜

❛ your heart is beating so fast right now. ❜

❛ promise me you’ll still be here when i wake up. ❜

❛ you’re not as bad as everyone says you are. ❜

❛ i thought you’d like some company. ❜ 

❛ clean yourself up. you're getting blood all over the place. ❜

❛ here, give this a try and tell me what you think. ❜

❛ you can kiss me, you know. ❜

❛ come back to bed. ❜

❛ you look good like this. ❜

❛ working together again, it’s just like old times. ❜

❛ how is it you always know what i need, huh? ❜

❛ you’re lucky you got away with only a scratch. ❜ 

❛ i can’t imagine losing someone like that. i’m sorry. ❜

❛ you know you can always talk to me. ❜

❛ the only one who gets to kill you, is me. ❜

❛ so, what do i owe this pleasure? ❜

❛ ah, so you aren’t heartless after all. ❜

❛ may i have this dance? ❜ 

❛ it’s okay, you can touch me. i won't break. ❜

❛ enemies make the best lovers, you know. ❜

❛ hold still. this might sting a little. ❜

❛ we can't keep doing this. ❜ 

❛ you look like you've got something to say. ❜

❛ just relax and let me take care of you. ❜

❛ thought you’d be lighter without all that blood. ❜

❛ i had it under control. you didn’t need to do that. ❜

❛ everything looks so beautiful from up here. ❜

❛ you treat all your ladies like this? ❜

❛ well? how do i look? ❜

❛ can’t sleep? ❜

❛ do you mind if i smoke? ❜

❛ i’m scared of ending up alone. ❜

❛ i don’t think i’ve ever seen you smile. ❜

❛ how long has it been since you've slept? ❜

❛ you are losing my interest, and that’s very dangerous. ❜

❛ i’d suffer hell if you’d tell me what you’d do to me tonight. ❜

❛ you look really pretty right now. ❜

❛ i’ve never cared for anyone the way i care for you. ❜

❛ i’m not wearing any underwear. thought you’d like to know. ❜

❛ just a few more stitches and you’ll be as good as new. ❜

❛ i’d say we make a pretty good team. ❜

❛ i want you to forget this ever happened. ❜

❛ i'm here for business — not pleasure. ❜

❛ if i didn't know any better, i'd say you were jealous. ❜

❛ you'd look better down on your knees. ❜

❛ fine, keep acting like you hate me. ❜

❛ kiss me again. ❜

❛ are you asking me out on a date? ❜

❛ just sit there and look pretty and let me handle this. ❜

❛ you okay? caught you staring off into space again. ❜

❛ well, i do feel better now that you're here. ❜

❛ i'm not drunk enough for this. ❜ 

❛ why is it whenever we see each other, you’re covered in blood? ❜

❛ i was wrong about you. ❜ 

❛ the first time i met you, i had no idea you'd mean this much. ❜

❛ you gonna be a good girl / boy for me? ❜

❛ i’m not afraid of you. ❜

❛ books mean more to me than people anyway. ❜

❛ i just wanted to say thank you for protecting me. ❜

❛ how about a kiss goodnight? ❜

❛ i don’t have time for distractions right now. ❜

❛ you shouldn’t be out here by yourself. ❜ 

❛ if i have to think about one more thing today, my head will explode. ❜

[lielove]

i'm tryin to slowly get back into the swing of things,,, !!

[mcflymemes]

MY EXPERIENCE IN THE ROLEPLAYING COMMUNITY * send me a symbol and i'll tell you...

❤️ my first roleplay memory

🍪 my favorite roleplay memory

🌵 my worst roleplay memory

🎁 what platform i started roleplaying on

☎️ my first character i ever roleplayed

🚕 my most embarrassing roleplay moment

🎭 a blog i miss writing with

🏆 how long i've been roleplaying for

🎾 what type of genre of roleplay i prefer to write

🍷 a character i want to write but never made a blog for

🔥 my hot take about the roleplaying community

⭐️ my roleplay pet peeves

🌸 the blog/s that most inspires me

🍄 my favorite original character blog

🐠 why i love (or hate) this hobby

🦄 the best thing that's happened to me in roleplay this year

🦁 my favorite ships

🎹 the worst roleplay trend i ever saw

🚙 the one thing i will never do in roleplay

🛳 my opinions on DNI lists

⛱ my opinions on anon hate

🏛 my opinions on softblocking

🖨 my opinions on callouts

🔑 my favorite type of threads

📫 my favorite type of ships

🖼 my favorite types of characters

📒 three blogs i couldn't live without

🛍 the one thing i wish all of my followers knew about me

[towerofbabyls]

when hikaru opens the door, he's met with a radiant image of ai that's so.... gorgeous that he has to blink a couple of times to make sure he's not dreaming. " wow. ai, you look...... amazing. " he's so dumbfounded by her beauty that he almost forgets why he's here. why they're here. together. " well, shall we go? " it's almost time for their dinner reservations, after all. he's thankful that she agreed to this, and that she didn't brush him off as some sort of playboy trying to use her.

@lielove gets a hikaai first date!

[lielove]

she blinks twice as he looks at her.

. . . maybe all that time that she'd spent trying to work on her appearance were paying off ?? it's not like she was the best dressed, and she certainly didn't have a knack for style but. . .

mm, yeah !! she definitely, definitely looked cute !!

she gives a happy smile, teeters back and forth on her heels as she runs her fingers through her hair.

it'll be a nice night . . . she thinks ( hopes ) at least !!

❝ let's get going, yeah !! ❞ the restaurant . . . she'd heard a lot of good things about it !! ❝ we should have a booth closed off all to ourselves. . . sooooooo, nobody aside from the staff should end up seeing us, hehe ~ ❞

[towerofbabyls]

Happiness as a mother, and happiness as an idol... It might be normal to have only one... but I want both! Ai Hoshino's a greedy girl, you know!

@PHNTASMGORIA && @LIELOVE. a pair of roleplay blogs featuring ruby hoshino && ai hoshino from oshi no ko. cherished by robin && mel.

That's right..... The reason I became an idol..... and kept climbing higher and higher...... is because I want to find the person who killed Mama and Sensei.

[lielove]

the leaks / raws of the new oshi no ko chapter make me want to bash my head into a wall but not in a negative way but in a i'm screaming and yelling way i can't word it in any other way but i'm going insane. /positive

[lielove]

little buy who got sick and spent a few days off tumblr to feel better ( whoops ) i will get back to things here soon !! and i am okay. <3