This Is It

A former seeker who burned the map and now giggles at the idea of a path.

[life-in-the-freefall]

The purpose

Of life

Is not to win,

There are no winners,

The point is not

To understand,

Or to work out

How it works,

Life doesn't work

Nor fails to work,

The purpose

Of life

Isn't self-improvement,

Or self-development,

Or greater self-awareness,

Or self-realisation,

The highest achievement

Is not to know thy self,

There really is no one

To improve,

Or develop,

Or become more aware,

Or know,

Or realise.

Life really

Doesn't have

A purpose,

Other than

The one you give it.

But perhaps

The only purpose

Of life is living,

The only reason

For being

Is being,

Just being,

Just being alive.

And this ...

This

Is already

As it is.

[life-in-the-freefall]

Being

Doesn't

Require knowledge

Of how to be,

Or understanding

Of why there is

What is ..

Being has

No requirements

Other than being,

And being is all

There is.

[life-in-the-freefall]

I longed for wholeness,

And completion,

Never imagining

That the aloneness

That I feared most

Was just that.

There was nothing

To fear ...

Life is

Complete

Whole,

And absolutely

Alone.

[life-in-the-freefall]

It finally appears it's only love ...

[life-in-the-freefall]

Being in the moment?

It isn't

Spectacular,

Nor the liberation

That I longed for,

But there is

A simple ease

And peace,

In no longer

Seeking to be

In the moment,

There is no moment

To be in or out of

And no one who could be

In or out of it.

[life-in-the-freefall]

You may believe

That you are mortal,

Or you may believe

That you are immortal,

An immortal soul,

An eternal spirit,

The eternal self,

But you can't believe

That you are neither,

You can't believe

That you are not.

[life-in-the-freefall]

There is only life. Letting life happen..

[life-in-the-freefall]

There can be

No resolution,

There is no before

To be resolved,

There is no conclusion

That is not the beginning,

There is no revelation

This is in plain sight,

There is no permanent shift,

Nothing is permanent,

There is no absolute knowing,

No absolute understanding,

All knowing is relative,

There is no enlightenment,

Only light,

There is no awakening to this,

Just this,

There is no liberation,

Apart from the end of seeking it.

[life-in-the-freefall]

The idea

That there is more

To find out about life,

Is just that ..

An idea.

There is nothing more

To find out,

Just life,

Of course this includes

All the ideas

About life.

[life-in-the-freefall]

The illusion is

That there's someone,

And that someone

Could become

No one.

There is no one

To become no one,

There are no ones.

No one

To become

Enlightened,

No one

To become

Awakened,

No one

To become

Realised,

To one

To become

Fulfilled,

No one

To become

Liberated,

No one

To become

Whole.

No one

To become.

Just this,

Already.

[life-in-the-freefall]

There is

No way

To get here,

No path,

No journey,

No travelling,

No way.

Already here,

Only here,

Just here,

Right here.

[life-in-the-freefall]

This is

The only

Given,

This is

The only

Gift.

This gift,

Not the gift

You asked for,

Or longed for,

Not what you've

Always wanted,

Not what you deserve,

No,

Just this,

Undeserved,

Unrequested,

Unrequited,

Unfathomable,

Incomparable.

[life-in-the-freefall]

I want

Love on

My terms,

But love

Isn't listening,

And in love

There's no space

or me,

No possibility

Of getting

My way

About how love

Should be.

[life-in-the-freefall]

Seeking

The truth,

Outside of yourself

Is futile,

Seeking

The truth

Inside of youself

Is equally futile,

The truth is

There is no inside

Or ouside,

There is no truth,

There's only this,

Whether you say

It's true or false.

The truth is

There's no finding

The truth.

[life-in-the-freefall]

The innocence

Of everything,

Being just as it is,

Just as it appears to be,

Is the beauty,

And unconditional love.

It could not be otherwise,

Simply because it's not.

[life-in-the-freefall]

We are obsessed

With meaning,

"Yes, it is as it is,

But what does it mean!?"

It just is as it

Appears to be,

It has no intrinsic meaning,

The meaning given to it

Is just my attempt

To make sense of life.

The peace that passes

All understanding,

Is that life doesn't

Make sense,

And that's okay.

[life-in-the-freefall]

It sounds

Attractive

To be the sky;

Still, empty, certain,

The great unchanging sky,

And not the weather;

The wild and freely

Everchanging weather,

But it's not

That you are

The sky,

It's that

There is no sky,

There's only

The sky,

Appearing as

The weather.