130 lbs

what's sad is that looking at my other blogs you'd never suspect i had one like this gw: 124 ugw: 110

[daintyyangel]

my fav thinspo🐝

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[dizzy-euphoria]

💐you know the drill💐

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[lifebasedaroundnumbers]

send me a message x

i dont know whether to be happy or sad that im back here. i’ve missed it, if im honest. would appreciate if you could inbox me with a daily goal i.e only eat 300, replace each meal with a cup of green tea I WILL DO ALL OF THEM! i really want to get back into good old habits. i was so proud of how skinny i was then and now, well... i really need your guys’ help x thank you x

[daydreaming-tiny-blog]

[sadskinnyana]

Personal thinspo

things I’m looking forward to experiencing again (based on my past experience):

a defined face

hipbones

seeing my bone structure

bony “angel wings”

no more baby cheeks

a prettier, more proportional face

narrow waist

slender fingers

an enormous thigh gap

perfect long legs

dropping from a DD to an A/B so that I can go braless and bralettes are comfy

running my hands across my bones

a prominent bony breastplate

collarbones that could collect rainwater

freckles settling in on my bonier face

makeup looking more flattering

my hair framing my bonier face

wearing my bodycon and shape framing dresses

wearing super tiny-waist skirts

lifting up a loose shirt or sweater to see my ultra skinny body

my boyfriend jeans hanging off loosely

fitting in only the smallest of sizes

wearing my hair up without worrying about how my face is framed

bloating after eating no longer makes me look 6 months pregnant

shutting up anyone who thinks or tells me i look fat

being prettier

skinny arms

perfect manicures on my slender nails

shopping for food doesn’t make me embarassed because I’m skinny

occasionally getting “junk food” isn’t embarassing

qualifying for modeling if i wanted to

being stopped on the street and told I’m pretty

my favorite clothes fits me flawlessly

one less problem to worry about

everything fits me

wearing white & light colored jeans without it looking grotesque

wearing shorts knowing they actually flatter me

wearing belts with everything to keep it on me

clothes being too big on me

a sense of accomplishment and pride

fitting into my aesthetic

my bones peeping out

people mistaking me for a model

walking around a beach without shame

knowing i scare people with how perfectly skinny I am and how little I weigh for my height

not being embarassed to change in front of someone

not embarassed to get a massage (unless they comment “you’re too bony”)

not shy of the camera

traveling is more fun

being able to go to restaurants from time to time or pick special days when i can actually eat what I’d like to or try new food

saving a ton of money on food & spending it on other cooler things like traveling or clothes

being light enough that if someone tries to pick me up or give me a piggyback ride, I’m lighter than they expect & thus not embarassed

being more awake even when tired bc I’m always hungry

less surface area to shave

occupying less area in general

being able to not eat for long periods of time

walking around in lingerie without being embarassed

surprising people who havent seen me in a long time with how much skinnier and prettier ive gotten

control over an aspect of my life

control over something that no one can mess with or take away from me

not sweating anymore unless its over 40 degrees C

looking skinny even in snow gear

being cold at night during summers so i can cuddle in a duvet or warm blanket like in the winter

bruising from things hitting my hipbone reminding me of how skinny i am

the power of saying no to food and starving myself

being my own thinspo and thinspo worthy

giving advice & feeling worthy of doing so

feeling worthy of my blog & of going on tumblr

holidays, family time & memories suddenly become so precious

people jealous of my successful weight loss

being a pro at walking bc my endurance from so much walking is really high

a walk to the shower is more fun bc my reflection is skinny

getting a pastry in a nice cafe is charming and appropriate, not laughable

being as skinny as a faerie or a nymph

[abduction]

by Luca Filippini

[starve-to-be-a-star]

[emptystomach]

perfection. 

[iwanttoseemyboness]

Things they don’t tell you about Eating Disorders in health class.

A lot of people paint it as if we don’t recognize our behavior is wrong. Quite frequently, we do. We just don’t care.

It’s not just anorexia and bulimia and binge-eating disorder. There are a million ways to suffer without fulfilling strict criteria.

The stigma against bulimics & other EDs within ourselves; Regardless of what disorder you have, if you can’t starve yourself enough, you see yourself as less than other people with EDs.

The desire to take drastically dangerous measures to lose weight like poisoning yourself to purge or actually cutting off your fat, even if you don’t actually partake in those methods.

How you can know a tip won’t actually help you lose weight but you do it anyways on the chance it can burn at least one extra calorie.

We love food. We LOVE it. We don’t want to not eat, we just can’t.

It’s not like those shitty fake movies where the anorexic doesn’t eat anything but popcorn for a month. You may fast for a few hours-a few days, you immediately binge, then you fast for a few days and binge again. It’s a cycle that repeats itself constantly, not a stagnant diet.

Purging is hard as fucking hell and is not always as easy as just putting one finger down your throat a few times to vomit.

You never lose weight exactly where you want to; You’ll become flat chested in a few days but it will take you months to trim down your thighs.

Noticing our behavior is a compliment; Sometimes we want you to see what we are doing to lose so much weight, we just don’t want you to stop us.

The sheer panic attacks you suffer from because even when you perfectly measure out your portions, you’re afraid of upsetting your intake by one single calorie because there is no way to be 100% sure.

Feel free to add your own. x

[iwannabemytype]

Collarbones are cute, right?

[starving-for-life]

[simpleisnewluxury]

[charlottewinslow]

[eating-away-ana-deactivated2017]

Oh so you want anorexia? Make sure you're prepared for

Cutting out your favourite foods Exercising even though you are tired Never being able to sit still Thinking about food all the time Your not going to be able to eat out because even salad has oil Don’t worry you’ll lose your friends too Missing out on events because you might miss out on exercise or be forced to eat food Using every excuse to exercise even going up and down the stairs 20 times Being afraid of food Being cold all the time even though it’s summer Wearing 5 layers of clothes in winter Sore feet from walking Wanting to die if you’ve gained weight Staring at your reflection every time you walk by it Losing your sex drive, you know what that means, no more crushes!!! Some times not being able to sleep Constantly eating bland food Always comparing yourself to others Enjoying watching people eat what you can’t Living your life as its sole purpose to be thin Hating yourself Becoming insecure Becoming lifeless Being controlled by ‘something else’ Scars from constant cutting Guilt for eating food Clothes never fitting Never being able to wear a singlet because people will stare in disgust People gossiping about you Being alone Missing out on birthday cake and treats oh and forget about Christmas

OH BUT WAIT THERES MORE

In the end you’ll be forced to gain all the weight back Weeks or even months in hospital Missing out on school Maybe taken out of school Not going to graduation Not being able to work Losing your dream job Attempting suicide Constant therapy sessions Watching your mother and father cry Relapsing Constant fear of gaining weight Exercising when alone Binging because your so hungry Repulsed by how you think you look Chance of developing bulimia More therapy sessions Binging and purging every day Sore throats Missing food Embarrassment Shame Regret Wasting life

But don’t worry this is all just to be skinny, yes you’ll have to gain the weight back and realise what’s you’ve done and yes you’ll have this nightmare for the rest of your life but you got to your goal weight!!

The desire to be thin isn’t as simple as just being thin, it comes with a whole bunch of other things that aren’t worth it. The only thing that benefits you from developing an eating disorder is 'if’ you return back to some what normal, you’ll will come out the other side stronger and with more passion to live your life without dieting.

[featheryxdream-blog]

[sleepy-penny]

[lifebasedaroundnumbers]

me: [accidentally reblogs thinspo/self-depricating post to main blog that irl people follow]

me: well fuc