seeintomylife

we all live messed up lives. Just some more than others.

[lifeprobsanonymous]

Change and Constants

Sometimes I feel crushed by change. Yet I am attracted to uncertainty. I long for stability yet when I get a taste of constancy I feel an itch for change. My heart seems to lurch inside of me. It feels like I am a victim to my emotions and I struggle to be free of its grasp. I am so grateful for the freedom that comes from escapism. I am so thankful for the wind on my face, the rush of the river, and the sometimes deafening sound of the crickets and tree frogs as dusk approaches.

Yet….I feel that I am missing something. I cant get rid of this feeling of loss as I escape the confusion of life. I cant help but feel jaded as I scramble for a remedy that never seems to be found. Escapism brings relief but rarely seems to restore. And the band-aid seems to be losing its effectiveness when the wound is not being cared for underneath.

And I KNOW this. My head KNOWS this. And to be honest? I KNOW the remedy. I KNOW who has the answers and I KNOW what the steps to restoration are…yet….it seems easier to escape and to push the remedy away and to rest in the well-known arms of instant gratification. Because, as are with most serious injuries, the remedy is not simple nor is it always quick.      

[lifeprobsanonymous]

Father, its me. Your child. I’m feeling different these days. Honestly I don’t really understand. I definitely love you. Im grateful for your hand in my life, grateful for where you have placed me and how you continually bless me….I suppose that is why I don’t completely understand the way I am feeling right now. You call us to be honest and authentic. So here I am pouring out the feelings in my heart. Do you know what I feel like? I feel confident. And with this confidence I detect danger. I detect a danger that cements a belief that I can handle my life on my own. I don’t feel fear as much as I used to…that’s a good thing but sometimes a blessing can be mixed with poison.

 Lord, I don’t feel remorse like I used to. Part of me feels angry at him for breaking me down but I am the one who let it continue. Now I do not feel shame. It is empowering but at the same time I see the great danger lurking in the corner. When you believe you have it all under control, there is a breaking point where it all comes crashing down and you realize you never had any control at all.

 I am not sure what to do. But maybe I do. I know what I should do but I am not sure that is what I want to do. At this point I am wondering where my priorities lie. What is the most important thing in my life? Am I willing to sacrifice the things my flesh desires for the treasures of Christ? The short and simple answer? No. Right now I almost feel I need to break loose. I never did and I always wanted to. But when I know what I am doing, when I am sidestepping away from Christ knowingly, I feel the judgement rests more heavily upon my shoulders. It is one thing to be oblivious to your straying and it is another thing to consciously choose a treasure over Christ while looking at Him with a smile on your face. With no shame I feel there lies great disgrace.

[lifeprobsanonymous]

Matthew 11:28-30 Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”

[lifeprobsanonymous]

Do you ever find that the cause of your problems is your own desires? Almost like you know the answer to your life struggles but your embodied secrets, sins, and lies obscure the view of freedom. The key to recovery may be around your neck. You just have to have the courage to take your hands from your packaged passions and grasp instead the answer you already carry. People complain about being stuck in a rut of depression and not having the courage to carry on. They don’t realize the most courageous thing to do would be to give up. Not on life. Not on hope. But to give up the superficial, null, and void journey of self satisfaction and to instead reach for that key around their neck. If your main purpose in life is to fulfill all desires and to satisfy the flesh, the hole in your heart will become an ocean. Those seas of torment will only crash harder against your heart. The winds will whisper in your ear and tell you to feed the hungry waters of desire and empty promises of satisfaction. The dehydrated victim does not realize the water is darkened with salt. It will not satisfy and will only increase the illusion of needing more. But can I tell you something? I know of a water that does quench the parched traveler. I know of a water that can consume your heart and ultimately stop your craving for unsatisfactory waters. If you drink this water, you will be made new. Then why does not every man drink this water and become satisfied? For the reason that to find this water, one must drop all sense of indulgence and worldly desires. You must drop all things that used to command your heart. To find these waters you must be completely reliant on its Maker. And dear reader, you must find the courage. The courage to stop what you are doing. To stop your selfish ways and devote your life to something else entirely more satisfying. But I warn you. The path is not safe. But it is good and it is worth all of the struggle. -author unknown but I like what he/she is sayin!

[lifeprobsanonymous]

"Sometimes I forget that if I turn my face upwards, my tears will be dried by the Son."

[lifeprobsanonymous]

A wise man once said, "although the grass may be greener on the other side, happy gardeners will not notice." God has blessed us all in such amazing ways and I just pray that we all take notice of the green luxurious grass on our side of the fence, before we stare longingly at the blessings of others. Just some food for thought:)

[lifeprobsanonymous]

"Resist the temptation to give up. Don't give in to the world's cry to self indulge for the pain you have endured. Use that pain to draw closer to the Lord. Use that pain to let God sculpt you into the person he created you to be, into the best version of you."

[lifeprobsanonymous]

Life is never what you expect and many times we are tempted to question the direction of our path. But isn't it better that your life is in the hands of the Savior? Isn't it better knowing someone who is all powerful and all knowing has your back? Life can be rough.... But it can also be good. Let Him take take you through the ride of life and your heart can rest knowing your future is secured in Christ.

[lifeprobsanonymous]

"The constant occurrence of difficulty in life serves as a constant necessity for a greater strength. Life's trials can serve as a reason for refusing to persevere or the struggles in life can be seen as an opportunity to rest in God's hands. For he will give you the strength to overcome the difficulties coming your way.....you just have to have faith and wait...for his timing."

[lifeprobsanonymous]

"When I say I want to be different I say it because of my desire for attention, not necessarily my desire to please God. Being different God's way is not really going to heap loads of the world’s approval onto your lap. You have to choose. Do you want to be different for Gods approval or for the world’s?"

[lifeprobsanonymous]

"When I say I want to be different I say it because of my desire for attention, not necessarily my desire to please God. Being different God's way is not really going to heap loads of the world’s approval onto your lap. You have to choose. Do you want to be different for Gods approval or for the world’s?"

[lifeprobsanonymous]

"In order to truly put your trust in God, you first have to admit your distrust."

[lifeprobsanonymous]

"I dont always know what I want. Jesus help me to walk the path that is set before me. Help me through those times where I am forced to do the things that I dont want to do. I know that through these things I do not like, you can bring about things I will grow to love. Through the flames the silver is refined. And like the reflection of the refiner signals that the silver is complete, your reflection in me is what I yearn for….and that can only come through the flames."

[lifeprobsanonymous]

"God you know the reason for every tear. You know the cause of every cry. And I choose to believe that with every occurrence of pain in this life, you have a purpose. A purpose to grow your nation and a purpose to heal the wounded. Please help me to remember that I can only see a very small piece of a very large puzzle."

[lifeprobsanonymous]

Thank you God for pain so we can then feel healing. Thank you God for darkness so we can more appreciate the light. Thank you God for brokenness so you can put us back together even stronger. Thank you for the struggles and the ability to see that you always have a purpose.

[lifeprobsanonymous]

"Prone to wander, Lord I feel it." Thank you Jesus that you are gracious enough to remind us when we are straying. Thank you Jesus that you give us the ability to look toward you and get our feet back on the path. And thank you Jesus that even though you know we will stray again, you keep on loving us anyway.

[lifeprobsanonymous]

No power- from heaven or hell- can rip us from God's hand. His steadfast LOVE endures FOREVER. Woah. Like seriously? Just think about that. And then think some more. Do not be surprised if your mind gets blown away during your thinking process.