Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Itās still strange to kiss without being scared, without the crazy avalanche of memories.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Hell, itās just strange to be kissing at all.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Especially now, here, with him.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Donāt get me wrong ā it isnāt like this is the first time weāve kissed, or even the second or third⦠or maybe even the tenth, if I think about it.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Whatās strange is the both of us being absolutely powerless; and whatās even stranger is that only a couple of days ago Iād dragged him away from the pearly gates of heaven itself, and I couldāa sworn ever since then heās been angry with me.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Nah ā angry donāt even cut it. Heās been worse than angry ā distant, stand-offish.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Iād stolen his redemption from him, and now heās powerless and vulnerable in a way heās never been before. I know it donāt sit well with him ā hell, it donāt sit well with me ā but I did it because I love the man, and I donāt regret it for a moment.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā I have no idea what heās been through, but the hell we shared with Vargas made me sure of one thing ā I aināt done with him, and Iām gonna fight tooth and nail to keep him till my dying breath. I want more, and for once, I aināt afraid to tell him so.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā I want a lifetime, Iād said to him.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Iād asked him for everything.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā And he hadnāt said no.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā He aināt given an unequivocal āyesā neither, but Iāll take what I can get from Remy LeBeau.