Musings: Life & Choices
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We always heard everyone saying life is a struggle and our encounters either simplify the struggles or amplify the noise. But does a wave ever know in advance what kind of interference it goes through? Does that mean a wave should maintain its consistency and die down when it hits a noise signal? How would you even know the signal in front of you is a noise?
Life of a wave is tough too. Either it dies down slowly if it tries to be on its own or it has to take the risk of merging with another wave which can either make it survive or help it dying down faster. And once again, it won’t know what would be the nature of other wave is and what the output wave be.
There is so much noise out there. There is so much negativity out there. Or there is equal positivity out there to balance it all?
Avoidance is probably a partial solution. How long can you be locked in your cocoon. More over, is that even a cocoon or a shell or a bubble? Bubbles burst, without informing you. So does a cocoon or a shell. The only difference is one just goes off eliminating all of the protection layer or the myth layer in one go versus other brings a crack and let’s you crawl on your own. So, do you want to live in a cocoon or a bubble? Choice is yours, or maybe, it’s not.
There are enough forces or the noises surrounding you that are ready to shatter you. To break you. To crumble you. To make you crawl and never get up. But life gives you enough opportunity to get up. Or maybe it doesn’t. But maybe it’s a choice you make.
And all choices comes pre-attached with consequences. Consequences are like those Terms & Conditions that you know might be there but you never invest time understanding them. Or maybe you do but understanding them would take away all the time you had to cherish your choices. So which one did you chose? Being predictable or being surprised when consequences hit you hard?
But do you ever make a conscious choice in that case? What does being conscious even mean in some cases. How would you define consciousness if you feel so numb that you can’t smell the fragrance of air when it rains, you can’t smell the good vibes people bring around you, you don’t want to eat all your favourite food, you don’t want to visit your favourite places and you don’t want to even think about all the things that once you could die for. How would you define this? Being sub-conscious or being unconscious?
When your smart watch keeps reminding you it’s time to get up and move. But being idle makes you feel better. Being idle makes you feel you are closer to being dead than being alive. What if you don’t even want to move? Or you want to move but you have lost psychological control to allow your mind & body to make that choice? How would this mental framework be defined if you don’t even know what framework you are in?
You are able to decode the puzzles and write good algorithms. But you don’t know how to decode this puzzle of life. Or do you even want to know what’s the puzzle.
Your lines of code are not giving any error and are executing every time you compile them but every time you try to execute things in your life, all you get is a list of errors and issues. Does that mean you don’t know how to write code for your life? Or does that mean you don’t even understand the problem statement of life you are trying writing code for? Or is it because you chose a wrong compiler for your own life?
Until you find the wavelength of your wave, until you find the right cocoon, until you find the right life code compiler. Because, giving up, must never be an available choice.
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