✨I’ve Got It Under Control✨

I’m 29 | 5’9 [CW:230 lbs] [GW:200 lbs] [GW:160 lbs] [UGW:110 lbs]

[lightingstar49]

Literally need someone to suck the fat out of me so I can be at my highest potential already 😒

[lightingstar49]

I hate myself so much and nobody knows how bad it is i thought as i got older these feelings would go away but no they’ve really stuck by my side my whole life and it’s mad annoying!

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Made myself throw up for the first time today in the shower 🥴😭 blah

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Sh

I punch myself so i don’t leave scars a bruise is easier to make an excuse for than a scar

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[lightingstar49]

The actual Fu**ing realization of calories is tripping me tf out 🥴😩 like what do you mean a single chocolate chip cookie from Panera bread is 400 cal 😭 like I can justify a sandwich and a salad but I also want a cookie at the same time. I’m not gonna get the cookie because it’s 400 cal 😭 idk bro I’m stressed over here 🤣🤣

FML bro 🥲 

[lightingstar49]

Broke my 23hr fast with a

Smoothie- probably like 270cal

Protein chips- 140cal

Total- 410cal for the day

That’s it for the night hopefully I’ll see a drop in the scale in the morning if not I’m fasting for 72hr

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My inspo

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Anyone else or is it just me

I Literally cannot keep the food that I b!ng3 on in the house i have no control around those foods 😩

[bugfilledcorpse]

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🕯️I will lose 50lbs by 🕯️

🕯️ December 🕯️

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🕯️.

[lightingstar49]

It’s not ALL ABOUT THE WEIGHT

It’s also about

• the way my clothes fit

• not being my types type 

• controlling my food addiction

• confidence

• doing what scares me

• the compliments

• the selfies

• the IG glow up

• the outfits

• the proof I can do it

• not giving up on myself

• healing my inner child

• becoming the best version of myself

• the jewelry

• the progress photos

• have you lost weight?/ OMG you’re so skinny!

• proving myself

• the discipline

• being consistent 

• not feeling bloated

• the angel wings

• literally the mother FU**ING glow UP!!!

I CAN DO IT!!

I WILL DO IT!!

WITH OR WITHOUT SUPPORT FROM ANYONE!!!

[lightingstar49]

This morning my scale finally said I’m down 10lbs! And it’s only been like 2 weeks thank GOD I was about to crash out if I was doing all this for nothing 🥴

[lightingstar49]

For me, this is about control. You know I’m 230 pounds for a reason it’s because I have no control so I’m taking back my control the best way that I can. Like I got this I can lose all of this weight. Enough screwing around I literally cannot turn 30 years old being the same weight I was in high school. I’m over it fr! 

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⚠️TW ⚠️

So this week was not my best I really could have worked harder but I think it still went pretty well. Iv been doing well with my fasting and Iv been pretty in control of my eating especially if i compare it to a month ago but i really need to work harder in the gym and try to burn more calories. I know i have a lot to lose and it will take time but i literally just want it to all be gone over night. But anyways I’ll just keep trying!

[seren-in-charge-deactivated2025]

You will never regret skipping a binge

But you'll always regret its aftermath.

[lightingstar49]

My June rules ( more or less)

I am PRO RECOVERY please if you are in recovery you are beautiful and are doing amazing!!

⚠️‼️ trigger warning ‼️⚠️

1000-1500cal a day

Fast 2 days a week

Go to gym at least 2-3 times a week

Limit eating out

Eat slowly it takes 20 to 30 minutes for my brain to realize it’s not hungry anymore 

WATER!!!!

Literally learn how to say no thank you when offered something.

Weigh myself once a week ( i like seeing more drastic drop in the scale)

Switch up food groups to get micro nutrients where I can

Take care of myself ( showers, laundry cleaning my room, household chores,stretching, skin care, morning, routine, and evening routine)

The more I have a routine, the less my family will question my diet.



[lightingstar49]

🚩trigger warning ‼️

I’m not pro anything just trying to lose weight and keep myself accountable‼️

I support all recovery!

Do not take any I post as advice‼️

Please take care of yourself you are beautiful‼️

I just need to focus on keeping my breakfast and dinner @ 500 calories each skip lunch I’ll try fasting Monday and Tuesday so i should lose weight fairly quickly especially because my starting weight is very high and when i hit Plato I’ll adjust as needed. My main priority will be protein and fiber.