Hello my beloved fans
It’s been a few months since my last update and wanted to let everyone know I’m doing okay. I am still currently on hiatus unfortunately. My last update I did make it to the hospital during the major winter storm. I was put on a steroid and a muscle relaxer, but only temporarily as I did lose my ability to walk and was getting very little sleep (still waking up every 2-4 hours most days/nights from pain.)
Everyday since I’ve been able to stand again I stand 95% of the time. The remaining 5% is using the restroom and trying to nap as I’m in constant fatigue and have occasional fainting spells. It depends on the severity of the pain.
I have regained my ability to walk last month but still unable to sit down normally without my leg going completely numb after a few minutes. I’ve been visiting the chiropractor every week and have 2 appointments left if not continued due to insurance issues. I have exercises and experimental exercises as well that I must do every day multiple times which do help, but it does not completely take away my pain.
It’s disheartening that I was finally recovering from Piriformis Syndrome (started March 2025) and simply cleaning litter boxes re-injured everything but made it 50x worse. My pelvis twisted again multiple times, my lower back is compressed and the Piriformis muscles in my right leg are still compressing the sciatic nerve that runs down. It makes my hip very stiff and when I stand it feels like a giant rubber band pulling me backwards (Barbie you make having hip joints look so easy!)
I feel sad because I really wanted to come back to modeling like I’ve been planning, however this re-injury greatly impacts my daily life to the point I haven’t been able to relax to my usual hobbies beside modeling. I have however been able to draw while standing and have been thinking about doing commissions again at some point. I have 2 I still need to complete before taking on new commissions. I sincerely apologize to the two people waiting on those commissions. I will be reaching out to them.
I do have a few unpublished photoshoots I’m hoping to share soon; they were taken right before my re-injury and I don’t want to give fans the wrong impression as I may be on hiatus longer than I would like. I physically cannot wear silicone bellies anymore as it will worsen my lower half of my body.
I need to mention that I am currently not answering private messages from Twitter/X, Instagram, Tumblr nor Facebook (rarely on FB) as I’ve been receiving a lot of scam-bot messages and spam. You will have to message me on LoyalFans I’m sorry. For those who messaged me on LoyalFans I will be replying back when I can and I sincerely apologize for the wait.
As for my next post, I truly hope to have a more positive update on my physical status. I may not fully recover from my injuries which may lead to retiring from modeling. I don’t want to retire and I’m doing everything I can to prevent that. My condition is chronic and debilitating most days.
I truly want to thank those who have been patient with me and understanding of my conditions. I lose fans everyday I’m away and even more when I post anything.
Thank you for always being my support. 💜