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Suck / First European Sexpaper, N. 1, Joy Editions, 1969 (cover art by Raymond Bertrand)

kinda missing my own affinity for gore porn and stuff and i just feeljust like endeared by it if that makes sense like i was so little and so enamored by stuff that made me feel alive and thrilled and i feel like the same state of being that used to terrify me and make me scream wake up wake up before the veil completely covers you i feel aometimes like the veil has completely covered me but the veil feels more like a thin cotton sheet like being softly awake and letting light come in slowwly

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im not a bad person but sometimes i let a version of myself drive that makes decisions my actualized self wouldnt #profound jk its not but its helping me recreate my mind

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milksockets

shot by eric kroll in leg show magazine october 1996

thingsfromthedirt

January 28th, 2012

nessochist

Kandy G. Lopez R ² - Roscoe and Reggie 2024 Yarn and acrylic paint on hook mesh

Orlando Museum of Art’s 2025 Florida Prize in Contemporary Art

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ble-ss-ing

We're inside all the time and most things we experience are scheduled ahead of time. When there are sidewalks, we follow them, and there's always some boring place to go. You need things that no one has any control over and that no one can sell for money. You need to be outside in a storm and see lightning strike very close to you. You need to meet a wild creature and have to stand very still and almost not even breathe and watch before it vanishes. You need to be alone somewhere very big. You need to go to a place because it looks interesting and be at the wrong place at the wrong time. You need to climb over a fence instead of going in by the gate. You need to hear the exploding sound of a huge flock of birds flying. You need to watch live theater performed by kids on a low budget. You need to be lost somewhere. You need to be barefoot somewhere. You need to sing with other people who are singing. You need to get soaking wet with all of your clothes on and come inside shivering.