tw : wolfstar angst with a nice end (kinda) , sirius uses a slur and deal with his own homophobia ??
idk what to put here, im sorry if i miss something !!
english is not my first language.
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“Why does James always have to be following Lily around?” Sirius asked with suspicion. The black-haired boy was lying on his bed, playing with his tie.
“I don’t know, I guess he really likes her,” Remus replied without taking his eyes off the parchment. “Get over it.”
“I can’t,” he responded, suddenly getting up on his bed and sitting cross-legged. “It’s insufferable , talking about her all day, and now that they’ve finally started dating, it’s even worse than before. As if there were no other girls!” he raised his voice.
"He doesn't want other girls; he wants her. And the only insufferable person here is you. It's not his fault that he can maintain a stable relationship and doesn’t need to go from girl to girl," Remus replied. His tone shifted and became more tense. Why does it matter to him what James did?
"What's wrong with you? I’m just saying, it’s annoying that he leaves us behind for a girl. I’ve never done that; girls never come before none of you! ," he said, annoyed.
"Yeah, it might be because you never keep a relationship going for more than two weeks with one," Remus said, returning his gaze to the parchment as he continued his astronomy work. "just saying."
"So what? Does it bother you?" Sirius stood up and walked over to Remus, his voice sounding hurt and annoyed. "It’s not your problem."
"I didn’t say it was," Remus set his quill down and shot an irritated look at Sirius. "It’s just that’s why you can’t understand James; it’s not like you know what it feels like to love someone the way he loves Lily."
Sirius’s face twisted into an annoyed grimace and he gave a nasal laugh. "You’re just jealous because you can’t get a girl."
“What…?” Remus asked, his tone hostile as he stood up.
“I’m just saying,” Sirius mimicked Remus. “After all these years, you haven’t gone out with a single girl. I wouldn’t be surprised if you are a fagg—.”
Remus lunged at him and grabbed him by the shirt aggressively. "Take it back," he said, shaking him.
Sirius broke free from his grip and stared at him, breathing heavily. After a few seconds, he walked out the door, and Remus didn’t see him for the rest of the day.
"Where's Sirius?" Peter asked.
"I don’t know” Remus replied indifferently.
"Did you guys fight again?" James, who had just come out of the shower, asked.
James and Peter exchanged glances. Peter shrugged and began making his bed, James considered the conversation closed.
At night, when Hogwarts was asleep and Remus seemed to be the only one who couldn’t, something would happen that neither of them talked about afterward.
Remus wasn't upset because he'd been called queer. He had already gone through that phase and no longer got angry about being who he was.
He was upset because Sirius said it as if he were different.
"Remus?" Remus heard in a soft, raspy whisper. He opened the curtains and lifted his blanket, letting Sirius in.
The two remained silent for a while. Remus even thought Sirius had fallen asleep until he heard him say,
"I'm sorry." Remus felt his heart skip a beat.
"What I said earlier... I..." Sirius's tone was hesitant and weak.
"It's okay," he cut him off abruptly. "It's okay..." he continued, now much more gently. "I know you didn't mean it."
"I don't understand why I'm like this. I don't mean it, Remus, seriously. It's just that... I just..." Sirius's tone was choked, struggling not to cry. "I love you, Remus. But I don't know how to deal with this."
"I know, I understand. It's okay, really." Remus took Sirius by the cheeks and pulled him closer. Sirius rested his head on the dark-haired man's chest and let out a deep sigh. "I love you too, Sirius." The black-haired lifted his head and looked him in the eyes.
And in the middle of the night, with the moonlight as their only witness, Sirius Black was brave.
Sirius Black was brave enough to kiss and love Remus Lupin.
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